Primal Urges
By chaotic champion
What up people? I am back AGAIN here is my next fic which is a Tokyo Ghoul one. I love this manga and the anime is pretty good but a little rushed for me. Though this isn't my first time writing horror (i did it in an exam once) this is my first time writing for someone like Kaneki. There maybe a few OOC bits in here since in my last fic there were a fair few.
So here we go then.
(Flesh!) = ghoul side
(I WON'T KILL!) = thoughts
("Touka-chan") = normal speech
Chapter one: Hunger Issues
Kaneki knew that he was going crazy.
FLESH
PEOPLE
FLESH
INNOCENT PEOPLE
FLESH
INNOCENT PEOPLE
HUNGRY
FLESH
HUNGRY
FLESH
NOOOOOOOOOOO!
No need to say that Kaneki was experiencing pure hell. Every waking moment since the day that ...Rize had tricked him then tried to eat him he had been suffering beyond belief. He was seeming eternally hungry, the urge to go hunt, slaughter and kill any human that crossed his path burned in his chest. Yet he was forcing the urge down, he couldn't imagine devouring a human life. It was sickening to Kaneki to even think of doing so. However the hunger hurt.
It hurt like hell.
"Oh god, help me!" Kaneki's hunger was seething. The hunger was quickly becoming too much to deal with any more.
He had to eat something.
LIKE HUMANS.
NO I WON'T!
WE NEED TO!
I WONT EAT HUMAN FLESH!
IT HURTS DOESN'T IT? TO BE HUNGRY. DON'T YOU WANT IT TO STOP?
NOT IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO KILL SOME ONE!
YOU'RE SO WEAK! FINE THEN, SUFFER!
The voice in his head seemed to finally disappear in to the void. Kaneki sighed and got up from his bed he walked out of his room through the hall and over to his kitchen and opened the fridge door. There in the very back was the small package that the manager of Anteiku had given him.
The flesh.
He sighed and simply stared at it. He felt the hunger growing within his chest. He knew he had to eat it. It disgusted him but he knew that eventually he would have to do it. He was a monster now, he knew that, but it still seemed strange and disturbing to him to eat a species he was once a part of. That part of him was still human so eating them was so... revolting. He reached for the package and held it at arm's length in front of him. The desire to eat it was equalled by his desire to throw it out the window. He sighed and slowly opened the package. The smell of the blood that leaked from the freshly uncovered flesh was painfully intoxicating.
He held it closer to him, surrendering to the hunger that held him so tightly. He could feel his left eye burning with desperation as he held the flesh closer to his mouth.
Closer
CLOSER
CLOSER!
Beep Beep Beep.
Kaneki jolted, the sound of his phone in the other room shocking him out of his hunger fuelled haze. He looked down at the human flesh in his hands and yelled out loudly
"Arghh! What the hell am I doing?"
Kaneki threw the meat from his hands, fell to his knees and began to dry heave violently. He had given in to the monster. He had almost been a killer like a ...Ghoul. He had to control himself otherwise he could hurt someone.
He remembered his phone and trekked back to his bedroom. He looked over to his bed where his earlier discarded phone lay. He saw the caller id read "1 MESSAGE FROM: Hideyoshi Nagachika." Kaneki sighed and put down his phone. He would read Hide's message later, right now he needed to try and deal with this hunger. He returned to his kitchen and made himself some coffee. He remembered the time before he had discovered this salvation in a cup and ran his hand through his hair. "I really need to chill out." He said. Kaneki picked up the coffee and once again returned to his bedroom. He proceeded to drink the coffee ignoring the burning of his mouth. His hunger seemed to calm down a bit, he lay down on his bed a fell asleep. His one of final thought before he lost consciousness was "why do I have to suffer through this?" then he drifted off to sleep. He hoped tomorrow would be a better day.
HAHAHA I DON'T THINK SO...
The next day...
Since going to school was basically impossible for kaneki now he spent his time working as a waiter at the anteiku coffee shop. Kaneki looked over from the desk to see Touka walking over to him, she seemed either concerned or pissed off at him and Kaneki suspected that it was the latter instead of the former.
"What are you doing?" she asked staring at him also angrily.
"I...I...I'm just waiting to...to...finish this order"
"Whatever, I'm going upstairs, it's almost closing time so just keep watch I'm going to go see Hinami."
"Ok... Touka." Kaneki replied. He got nervous around her for some reason even after the event with Nishiki, he still couldn't really face her. About 15 minutes later and Kaneki was waiting until the last of the customers, a blond girl with blue eyes and her friend a dark haired girl she referred to as "Aaliyah", left the restaurant. As they left the restaurant Kaneki sighed and walked up stairs to the second floor of Anteiku, where Hinami sat in the main room reading next to Touka, who sat next to the girl. "Hey Hinami-chan." Kaneki said smiling at the young ghoul.
"Konichiwa Kaneki onii-san." She replied "Are you ok?" she put the book down and ran to go and hug the older half ghoul. Kaneki smiled again but inside he almost felt bad about what he had felt the night before. He had tried to almost separate himself from ghouls just because of his own feelings, seeing hinami reminded him that being this way wasn't really too bad.
"I'm alright Hinami." He answered. He wondered if he looked distressed or something, then again hinami had good senses for her age so it didn't really surprise him. Touka had told him how hinami had defeated the CCG investigator Mado but refused to kill him. Her lack of wanting revenge stopping her from finishing him, Touka had done it herself wanting to finish the investigator off before he could strike back. Even if severely injured the skilled investigator was still a threat.
"You seem tired and your eye ...onii-san...are you sure you're ok?" Hinami looked worried now and seemed insistent on the subject Kaneki didn't really know why. Why was his eye burning? Maybe it was the hunger. Did it show in his face?
"Yea Hinami in fine. Really I am." Kaneki was puzzled by the girl's reaction to this statement. Even Touka was staring at Kaneki with a slightly worried expression on her face. At that point Kaneki knew something was up, as Touka never really showed care for him at all.
Wait?
Did Hinami say eye?
"What? What is it?"
"Your kakugan is showing Kaneki." Touka said gravely. "Have you been eating at all since the fight with the investigators?" she surveyed the older ghoul with calculating eyes, looking for any signs of malnutrition in his body. "You haven't eaten have you?" she said looking dejectedly at him as if disappointed. "Do you still refuse to accept us Kaneki? To accept what you are, even after what happened?" Touka was fuming now, looking at Kaneki like he was one of the ghoul investigators that she despised. "Do you really think that you can survive acting like a regular human?" she marched over to him, Kaneki backed away from her afraid of the younger ghouls gaze. "Because you can't and you have to realise that!" Touka stalked back to hinami fury in her eyes. "Come on hinami lets go!"
Touka practically dragged the young ghoul away and out of the room. Hinami looked back a Kaneki, her face sad and depressed by Touka's words. Kaneki looked away as he heard the doors close, he sighed as he left the room and Anteiku realising that maybe he couldn't be as hesitant as he thought.
Well that's the first chapter done, I know it's kind of short so I hope to release longer chapters in the future. Man that took a while to do but with the power of my friends and the wonders of Skype I managed to get it done. Look out for the next chapter and I'll see you all next time.
I have re-uploaded this because of all the errors so i hope you enjoyed the corrected work!
Adios