This year has been memorable. Things began to look up and after all that drama my life is pretty smooth now. I have Matty and I have nothing to hide. Since my blog had already exposed me completely! And I was pretty much over my crush on Collin.
"Jenna! Collin's here!" said my mom.
AWKWARD.
"WHAT?!" I was surprised, what was he doing here? Since that open mike night, I've been trying to avoid Collin and now here he is, uninvited, at my door.
"Heyyy! Collin… what's up?" I exclaimed. I tried to sound excited.
"Hey, J! I just wanted to talk to you about something…" he said and held my hand.
J? Since when did he start calling me J? I couldn't help but think of the worst-case scenario here. I told myself to be calm but be ready for the worst.
"Look, Saydie has been talking about us and I know its bothering you. So, don't worry about it because there is nothing intimate between us." He said with his eyes locked to mine, while I tried hard to maintain eye contact.
There I was overthinking this situation for no reason when Collin never had feelings for me. But now I guess we're cool.
"Great! So I'll meet you in school." I said calmly.
"Well, how about I walk you to school?" he asked.
"Umm…. sure! Why not?" I said coolly.
Then we were walking down to school, talking about Mr and his blunt ways.
He told me about his family and about his long history of depression.
Wow Collin really had a troubled past! He seemed very different and for some reason I felt myself attracted to that.
Suddenly out of nowhere the topic shifts to Matty…weird. We never really talked about him maybe because there was no need to do that..
"Jenna?" said Collin waving his hand in front of my face.
"Yeah! What about him?" I said coming back to reality.
"Look, I know that Matty and you are really close but I just need to tell you someth….."
Then He fell to the ground on his knees but no he was not proposing me…he was shot!
He let out a scream! People started noticing and surrounded us. I was still in shock. I couldn't do anything, almost as if I was paralyzed. Blood was spreading across his shirt rapidly. I immediately called 911.
"Collin, don't worry. You'll be fine," I said shakily.
I rushed into the ambulance with him. I was almost in tears. He held my hand and I didn't let it go. All this happened in the blink of an eye. Damn!
When we reached the hospital, Collin was unconscious. They took him to the emergency room. I was standing there in the hallway, my heart beating faster every second. There was silence all over. I lean against the wall and slide down slowly, trying to calm down. I look at my phone and I see Matty calling me. Should I pick it up? I guess I do need some support now.
"Heyy, Matty…. look I need you to come to the hospital now!" I said my voice was weak and it was breaking.
I hung up before he could reply.