DIsclaimer: Mr. Boat and Chick Igloo owns it! not me! no! stop the finger pointing!!!! i demand you give me money for reading this! ha! wouldnt that be great?

A/N: This is my second fanfic...I am sort of wary on whether or not to post the rest of this story...PLEASE R&R!!!! ehhh....its really stupid and gets kinds of boring in the start but please bear with me here!....oh yea....its super duper cheezy.....but i mean the best moments are cheezy right? yea.....the whole thing has this sort of Jane Eyre vibe to it

Chapter One - Logan's POV

I know she's not dead. I feel it in my heart. When she was with me i felt so complete, so whole. But when i heard that shot, I felt it rip through my heart. I could feel flesh tearing and everything hurt. I felt her pain divided by two. Now I feel her pain too. She's tied somewhere. I can feel her breathing, I can feel her fighting them, i can even feel her hurt. But the thing is, I can't feel her heart. I don't hear it's melody in my ear, I don't feel it beating in my heart. She's alive. I know it. She has to be. But will she be the same?

Bling tries to tell me that I'm wrong. That i need to get over it, get over her. But I can't. It's been 1 year and I still feel her love. I feel apart of me that hasn't died yet. I've been walking with out the "exo" for a while now. I only do it for her, hoping some day she'll know that if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have the will to do so.

I sleep a lot now. It seems it's the only time that I can see her now. I used to be able to close my eyes and feel her next to me. I could smell her, hear her voice, and see her beautiful eyes staring at me. Now it doesn't come as easily and in dreams is the only time when once again we are together. It's the time when i can hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her.

"Yo! Log-boy! where you at?" Cindy's scream on the other side of my door knocks me out of my reverie as I walk to the door and open it for her. I see her more and more since that night, the night that max got shot.

"Hey," I greet her. Over time i have gotten happier and i don't sit and cry anymore. I still miss her but now, for everyone else i pretend I'm happy. I laugh and I smile. I even go out with them occasionally.

"Just thought I oughta tell you that lata one a Original Cindy's friends is gonna come knock-knocking on your door. She's my friend and I thought you need some cheerin' up. You be actin' all happy-yappy but you can't fool OC. Original Cindy knows all, sees all, and hears all. You been lonely long enough. I know you missin' my boo but she's not comin' back" Original Cindy's voice softens as she finishes, she misses max too, she just wants her to come back.

"And what will your friend be doing coming over here?" I ask slightly curious, I was planning to go to bed early tonight.

"She's gonna...ummm....don't you worry! You two will have fun. I promise." And with that she turns and walks away. I really think she's lost some of her spunk since I told her what happened to max. It seems as if her attitude has softened.

Everyone was changed by max leaving, even Bling. He still tries to be the ultimate cheerleader but I can sense that he misses her too. The other day he came in to check up on me and found me sending out an Eyes Only broadcast. "All those that hand in this operation WILL go down. I will be relentless and I will persevere. I am Eyes Only. You cannot hide from me." I sent out messages like these when she first left, this is the first one i've sent in almost 2 months. He thought I was over her. As I turned all the equipment off I eyed Bling. He seems misty eyed, as if he was actually going to cry.

"What?" I knew why he was sad. I was sad too.

"Nah, nothing man. It's just... You really need to get over her, man. You... you... you know she's gone. I know. Everyone knows. By you bringin' her back it just...reminds everyone. We all need to get over her man." Slowly he left. I haven't seen him since then and I'm glad. He's a great guy and one of my best friends but I hate to see him crying over Max too. It's just too much. Maybe I'll nap before Cindy's friend comes over.

End Note: Sydpanball: So Howd everyone like it so far? I think it gets WAY better from Max's point of view!!! I've written up to chapter 9 i think but i wanna wait for reviews to post ya know?

My mom: sydney! go to sleep! look its already 3:30!

Sydney: kay... (mom leaves and closes door. Sydney turns screen back on and types again) sorry for the interuption...

Audience: Shut up! it was a sh*tty @ss story!

Syd: Fudge monkey tards! sorry!