A/N: Aaaand, I'm finally back! My summer has been freaking busy. I've been getting ready for comic con, I'm cosplaying Jade Harley~ OwO And hanging out with my best friend as much as possible.
Hello~
Some of you may know me from All Those Broken Memories. My previous fanfiction, which was a Hetalia FrUk, story. To all of you who is a fan of my previous work, but isn't into Homestuck, I apologize. I'm not abandoning Hetalia, I just decided to try my hand in Homestuck fanfiction, I have wanted to for a long time now.
A few things need to me recognized here, in my old stories, I've censored some swear words with "*", but I decided I wasn't going to do that, this time around. Since Karkat is the main character, there is bound to be a LOT of swearing, and I decided the "*" would be too much.
I don't agree with swearing, myself, and would usually censor, but, this is just how it's going to be. As another note, this is all Humanstuck!Highschool AU.
I'm really happy to be writing again! So if you're a fan of my previous work, thanks for checking this out, and if you're new to my writing, than welcome aboard~ OwO I hope you enjoy this, as I'm going to work really hard on it! That is all for now~ happy reading, and if you took the time to read this long author's note, thank you for THAT, as well. ^^;;

Romcoms make love stories look like a fucking walk in the park. Take it from a movie enthusiast not to mention, hopeless romantic.
In 7th grade, I had my first girlfriend, Terezi Pyrope, who is still my friend to this day. We never ended up being serious, and we broke up over the summer before 8th grade. And I wondered silently to myself, why my relationship wasn't like the ones I saw in movies.

I tried to use the excuse that maybe I was just too young for a love story like in the movies, maybe 13 years old had been too young to start?
But there I was, in 8th grade, and I looked everywhere, and all I saw was romance. Taunting, repulsive, romance.

Even with my two best friends from Elementary school, Gamzee and Sollux.
Sollux had been best friends with Aradia since 6th grade, and had recently started dating, and oh my god, they were so fucking perfect that it hurt.

Gamzee had a crush on Tavros, a timid boy in a wheel chair, with a punk-rock look to him.
And he constantly went on and on about love at first sight, bullshit, and how he felt like he was in one of my "motherfuckin love stories I never shut up about".

And that pompous load of fuck drove me through the roof. I felt like I should have felt happy for the two of them, but it only drove me insane.

It didn't seem fair to me that my two best friends got to live real-life love stories, while I just sat in class, being, well, me… that loud-mouthed obnoxious kid in school that no one really understood.

It was a seemingly never ending wretched clusterfuck of stupidity, and I almost wanted to shut them all out, not listen to their constant batshit ramblings about love.

Gamzee never shut up, and just watching Sollux and Aradia pissed me off.

The next year, the three of us entered highschool.
I thought to myself "this is fucking it, so many love stories take place freshmen year."
But I was kidding myself with that one.

Everything just seemed like a total repeat of the last year.
Gamzee still liked Tavros, but like the feculent ugly shitrod he was, he never confessed.

Aradia and Sollux were still the perfect couple.

I felt like I was in a continuous time loop where everyone got what they wanted except me.

I almost considered asking Terezi out once more, trying again with her, it had been years since the two of us had that fling from 7th grade.
But the more I thought of it, the more I realized, it would all just repeat like everything else. Terezi and I would go out for awhile, and then we'd eventually decide we were just better as friends.

I didn't wanna do that to myself again.

Are you getting bored with this drawn out introduction of my middleschool and highschool years?
Well, too bad, just shut the fuck up and listen good.
This is where things started to go bad.

Sophomore year.
I'd completely lost hope of anything ever happening to me, I tried to get the thought of romance out of my head, assuming this would all be a repeat of the last two previous years.

But no, this is where all the perfect romance surrounding me went down the drain.

Gamzee finally confessed to Tavros, only to be rejected, because he was dating one of the most popular girls in the school, Vriska.

Gamzee was crushed, and tried to give up on Tavros for awhile.

And Sollux and Aradia's relationship shattered, for details I'll go into later.

Lets just say it was a shitty year for all three of us.
Gamzee was crushed.
Sollux was unbelievably crushed.

And there I was, having to shut my mouth, and put my opinions aside, to comfort my friends. Just like I always did.
In a way it was a repeat of the last two years.
Only it was a dramatized version, like a bad fanfiction, where they take a perfectly happy scenario and they crush into a million pieces just to torture the characters.

That's how I felt about it.

Maybe things were different. But things felt the same to me.
I felt the same as I did for the past two years. I felt like my opinion didn't matter, I felt like I'd just have to keep my mouth shut for the sake of my two friends, and I had to be the strong one, again.

As the self-proclaimed leader of our trio, it was only fucking fair, I guess.

Back on the subject of romcoms.
I loved them.
But I also kind of fucking hated them, for their happy out-look on love, and the way they taught me to view highschool.
So many expectations were unfulfilled.

Things were starting to calm down, Gamzee was back to his crush on Tavros, and Sollux finally started to drag his sorry ass out of the slump he was in.

This all happened Junior year, things had piped down a little bit, and the for the first time ever, the three of us were an actual trio. No girlfriends, or any of that shit, just the three of us.

Junior year, this also just so happened to be the year where things started to turn to me.
Karma finally fucking decided it was my turn for something to happen.

This was the year I finally stopped being a background character and became the main protagonist.
Whether this was for good or for worse, no one fucking knew.

Because even you, even if you're a novice in the genre of romance, even you should know, not all love stories have a happy ending.