Mmmk so after a comedy of errors of sorts, I'm finally back! I haven't written anything but biology lab write-ups during this hiatus, so I'm going to try my hand at song fics again because they are my favorite to write….

This is going to be a series of songs that tie together…some chapters may not feature the entire song…. This song has been set and I'd also like to do the song "your face" by Taylor Swift later on, any ideas?

Also, should I make the songs all by Taylor Swift for this to keep some continuity…leeme know what you guys think, I have ideas for really anything so lemme know what you'd prefer (plus it would make getting my ideas together a bit easier ;) ).

The parts of the song will be italicized just so you all know…and maybe in a different font? Not sure…

Well I hope you enjoy this first chapter….btw its about 3am so the first chapter may not be too terribly long, I guess we'll see…..

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It was a monotonous day at the tower, each of the five residents went about their routines as usual. Cyborg and Beastboy were having an animated argument that began with the usual tofu versus meat and had somehow evolved into a videogame challenge. They were very close friends, and yet, at moments like this when someone threw down the gauntlet, they appeared as enemies. They loved competing amongst one another, but just like any other siblings, should danger befall on one, the other was always ready to help.

Starfire, the propetually cheerful redhead, occupied the kitchen. She was hard at work developing a new concoction for her friends to sample later. Whenever she had the time, which is not often all things considered, she would try to cook for her friends. She, unlike Raven, never understood that the others didn't enjoy eating her experiments. She would eagerly await the praise from her friends, and despite the fact that the food was the worst thing imaginable; no one had the heart to tell her it was awful. So she continued to make different recipes for them.

Robin, the leader of the motley crew, was busy training. He was a perfectionist who not only wanted to be a winner, but he expected to do so without error. Any minor mistake would propel him to train for hours until he was satisfied with the outcome. And at this time he was not training because of a mistake, but merely to tune his skills and think of new combat combinations to thwart any possible villains who he had seen before. Robin, unlike many other people, did not allow himself to become complacent. He always had to be the best.

Finally there was Raven, the reserved and dark girl of the tower. It was well known at this point about her struggle with maintaining control over her emotions. However, since the defeat of Trigon, her demon father, Raven found she had more power to express emotions. She however, very characteristically, decided to keep this from her friends and acted as she had prior to the prophecy. Because even though she could now feel emotions, she was still uncomfortable expressing them and still valued her privacy. Not to mention she felt embarrassed because lately she had been feeling emotions. Or rather an emotion, a very powerful one. And one that made her feel embarrassed and weak. She was supposed to be immune to such emotions, and to make it worse, she felt it for her leader. He was supportive and caring about those around her. Raven knew that, but she also knew that many people advocated he ask Starfire on a date. She felt foolish, who was she to compete with someone as beautiful as Starfire? To her, there really was no comparison. So she calmly meditated on the roof, until her stomach demanded more than the herbal tea she had made as her breakfast. Lured downstairs by the possibility of food, Raven hoped to snag a quick snack and resume her place on the roof to meditate and mull over her thoughts.

And such is the beginning of the day at the tower. Around lunchtime, Robin noticed the kitchen refrigerator had nothing left but blue fungus, growing in the corners. He asked if anyone wanted to go and pick up lunch with him, yet he said it while looking at Raven. Such a simple action made her heart dance, which she hated and loved simultaneously. Immediately after he made the proposition, Starfire insisted on helping with such enthusiasm that it was decided she would go with Robin to pick up Chinese food. Raven, seeing no point in wasting the opportunity to meditate, returned to the roof of the tower and levitated into her trademark lotus position. She heard the rev of the engine and saw him pulling away, Starfire at his side.

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

Starfire and Robin were back relatively quickly, but they walked in laughing about someone they saw at the restaurant. Raven was a bit curious when she entered the room, as Robin was in the middle of the story by then, but decided not to ask as that would only make her feel more left out. Raven grabbed some of the Chinese food when Robin stopped her, asking her to eat with the others. Normally she would've refused without a second thought, but now his eyes convinced her to stay. Even behind a mask she found them alluring and beautiful, despite seeing them only one in his memories.

After lunch she went to her room to finish her meditation. Once satisfied with the organization of her mind, she, very uncharacteristically, decided to read her book on the couch. In the main room. With people. Needless to say, it was very un-Ravenlike, and it was all because of him. Raven couldn't take it. Parts of her life began to blur together into moments she couldn't recall and others stood out sharply. She knew what caused the polarity in her mind, and it horrified her, especially since she was fairly certain she would be the one disappointed. Angry at herself for still having a glimmer of hope that he would pick her, she locked herself into her room and went to bed, trying to escape thoughts of him. But it was all in vain, he even found her in her dreams.

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The titans had just defeated Plasmus, again, and were covered in his sticky, rust colored goo. And, shameless as ever, reporters began to descend on the group of teenagers like vultures on a carcass, eager to find the remnants of a good story. One reporter targeted Robin, asking him if he would ever date and who his type was. Robin gave his usual response about how he had no intentions of becoming involved with anyone while a hero because he would be endangering their lives. And Raven found herself desperately wishing it was a lie. And yet Raven laughed it off like the other titans, pretending to be nonchalant about what was "typical Robin behavior."

He'll never fall in love
He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs


Part of the reason Raven fell for Robin was their bond. She always knew the damn bond would be a weakness, but she always assumed she could handle it. And she never realized how close the bond made them. She knew things about Robin that no one else did. And vice-versa, which was the unnerving part. Raven always hated trusting people, yet as time marched on she found herself confiding in him more. She began to trust that he would keep his word, which was very rare that Raven would trust someone. Her first instinct became to trust him-with almost everything. And even things she didn't tell him he still knew, they had an understanding.


And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

For example, Raven was the only titan who knew Robin had a sister, who was taken into foster care at a different house before he was (A/N: I don't know how those systems work, but just go with it). And she was the only one to see his eyes, his lovely crystal eyes. But only in his memory, but it was good enough for her. And even with this trust between them, Raven could never tell him about her feelings, that would ruin everything. Sometimes having a little glimmer of something is enough. Sometimes its greed for more that destroys everything, and always it leaves regret. So Raven would take what she could and leave it at that.

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long

Raven was actually pleasantly surprised that he hadn't found out yet. It seemed the bond created problems when she would relax the borders to her mind, causing him to see things and memories that were- private. She was glad that he hadn't picked up on it. And yet she was also disappointed. That damn glimmer of hope kept wishing he would figure it out and decide he reciprocated feelings for her. She wanted to kill the glimmer of hope for she knew it would be almost impossible. And yet why would that hope not go away?

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And he sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine

He was like a child, really. People were good or bad, heroes or villains. There was no middle road with him. And as childish as this was, it also made him incorruptible. He would never accept anything less than something "good". He was also very mature and like Raven, both took on the problems of others in addition to their own. And both liked to be strong. Robin never wanted anyone to see him cry because that was weakness. Raven didn't want anyone to know she was in love, because that was weakness on her part. She couldn't control her emotions, she was susceptible.


I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you

Raven desperately wished she had the courage to tell him. Wished that she was like Starfire so that there would be no uncertainty, and it would be almost a given that they start to date. And yet she could not, she was weak.


He'd never tell you
But he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up
And pray for a miracle

She didn't have the courage to tell him, but she did have the hope that one day he would come to her and profess his love. She knew it sounded ridiculous and childish in itself, but it was the only thing she had to go off of. All she had was hope, even in the face of seemingly insurmountable odds.

Yes, I could tell you
His favorite color's green
And he loves to argue
Oh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him...

Raven could acknowledge that she loved him. He was her everything, and she wanted him to reject her and break her or accept her and fix her. But she hated being on the tipping point, not knowing which way this all was going to fall.

Raven just couldn't admit to anyone that she was in love. She knew that she thought it was a weakness but even that was an excuse, to escape the pain of rejection. She wouldn't be able to take the rejection, to be told she wasn't good enough by the one person she loved. So she would stay silent and let him make the move.


if you ask me if I love him...

I'd lie

So I know this was a reflective piece and was kinda boring, but I promise it'll be almost over. I just wanted to set the context. I think I'll do another piece that is reflective to Robin, but I'll try to include more action. After that, it'll get better, promise :)

Let me know what you guys think!

~RukiaRae ood enough by the one person she loved. So she would stay silent and let him make the to her or accept he