Letter Complication
EPV
I decided it was to hard not to keep in touch, I needed to know how my Bella was doing, I guess she's not my Bella anymore. She could have moved on like I wanted her to, or thought I wanted her to. The thought of her with someone other than me still made me so angry that a red haze would cloud my eyes at the slightest thought.
She could have finally said yes to Mike Newton, or any of those other boys who did not deserve such an angle in there lives. Being the selfish creature I am I had to know. Even if it meant hurting me even more.
I searched out a pen and piece of paper and started writing:
Dear Bella,
I know I owe you much more than an apology, I also owe you more of an explanation than I left you with.
I need you to be safe, and the farther you are from me, the safer you are. Im not going to end your life because im selfish. I realize you much hate me, but I want you to know that I do not hate you. You will be better off with someone more like you, someone more right for you.
I also have a feeling that I should know how you are, its in my nature. So please write back and tell me if leaving you was a horrible mistake for your health, because I know its very painful for me to not be next to you at all times. Your the only thing I've been able to think about. Please, I still love you and always will. Just tell me if you feel the same way, if you have moved on I understand. Thank you.
I love you,
Edward Cullen
I dropped the pen and stared at the letter. Did I want her to know I still loved her? Will it ruin things for her knowing this? I didn't care, she needed to know this, know I will always love her, no matter how long I don't see her for. I grabbed an envelope and drove to the post office and sent it specially hoping she would reply, knowing it would be wrong to hope.