The First of Three
By: Asatsuyu
Authors Notes: My first Songfic; A Syaoran Christmas story featuring Linkin Park's song "My December" S+S and other fluff and angst. I looked up the actual definition of vermilion and this is what I got A vivid red to reddish orange. Also called Chinese red, cinnabar. I thought it was amusing; anyway Sakura and Syaoran are 14 or whatever you want...
Legal Crap: Well, you and I
should be glad that I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura; it belongs to CLAMP and Kodansha.
Nelvana can keep the dub for all I care. "My December" belongs to Linkin Park
I'm surprised no one has done this yet, or is that because it's October.
Quote: Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes
the small, it enkindles the great.
~Comte DeBussy-Rabutin
**
Syaoran walked down the snowy streets of Tomeada and he sighed as he looked up at his gloomy apartment. He scowled as he kicked a clump of snow, every balcony had lights except for one, his. Why bother, he thought, its not like anyone cares anyway. He continued up to his room and debated silently to himself steps or elevator. Well I'm not in a hurry. He continued dismally up the steps and he reached his apartment on the top floor.
He walked down his hall reached the door, he fumbled for his key and finally managed to unlock the door turning the knob he let himself in he lay down on his couch and stared at the ceiling.
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
I don't see why people are so happy about Christmas anyway…I've never… His thoughts where interrupted by the phone ringing.
"Moshi moshi Li desu." He said uninterested, picking up the phone.
"Hey Syaoran!" He heard Sakura's genki reply.
"S-sakura!" Said Syaoran, heat rushing up the back of his neck and it quickly spread to his face.
"Merry Christmas Eve Syaoran." She said,
"Yeah, you too." Said Syaoran trying to sound enthusiastic, but failing horribly.
"Syaoran, what are you doing for Christmas?" Asked Sakura suspicious, noting his dismal tone of voice.
"Staying here."
"By yourself?!" Asked Sakura alarmed.
"Yes."
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
"Won't you be lonely?" Asked Sakura worried.
"No." He replied generally surprised that she cared that much.
"I have to go dinner's ready…ja ne Syaoran."
"Sakura one more thing…"
"Hm?" She asked sweetly.
"Merry Christmas Sakura." He said gently.
"…Thank you…ja-ne."
"Ja, Sakura." Said Syaoran as he lying back onto his back, once again consumed by his thoughts.
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
Sakura set down the phone and blushed, Syaoran can be so sweet at times, he just didn't seem to excited about Christmas, thought Sakura as she walked down the stairs and she sat down at the table deep in thought I can't believe I haven't gotten Syaoran anything for Christmas. She bit her lip and her father looked down at her curiously.
"What's wrong Sakura?" Fujitaka asked setting dinner on the table.
"I don't know what to get Syaoran for Christmas." She replied dismally.
"That brat? Why would you want to get him anything for Christmas?" Asked Touya looking at Sakura narrowing his eyes.
"Because he's my friend." Said Sakura glaring at Touya; Fujitaka sensing a fight quickly took action. (A.N. And turned into Super Fuji! ^^ Ehehehe…never mind)
"I'm not going to have another argument over Li-san." Said Fujitaka and Sakura knitted her eyebrows.
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
Sakura walked up to her room I can't believe it. She thought closing the door into her room and she lay on her bed, Kero looked curiously at her and flew over.
"Sakura what's wrong?"
"I don't know what to get Syaoran for Christmas." She said sitting up and looking at Kero. Kero looked at his mistress and sighed sadly.
"You really like that brat, don't you?"
"What!?" Asked Sakura blushing a deep scarlet.
"Don't deny it…well." Kero said a small frown on his face as he flew over to the closet. "What about this?" He asked dragging out a stuffed animal kit.
"W-where did you get that?" Asked Sakura blushing.
"You bought it a while ago, you started making it but never finished it." Kero said dragging the box to Sakura's feet, she stared at it before opening the box and taking it out.
"Thank you so much Kero!" She exclaimed wrapping Kero in a tight hug.
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you
Syaoran lay on the couch I'm probably going to fall asleep anyway. Thought Syaoran dismally as he got up and went to sleep in his bed.
Syaoran woke up and sighed, "Christmas…" Syaoran trailed off.
He sat in silence, remembering Christmas last year, that had to have been one of the worst Christmases ever, well the fact that I almost died…that was the day we had to tell Sakura's family about the cards…
That was when a sorcerer had decided that the Clow Cards were going to be his Christmas present and he had protected Sakura, almost getting himself killed in the process, they had just managed to get him to the Kinomoto's before he blacked out that time.
He sat down on the couch and turned on the TV and flipped through the channels.
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
Why do they call the Christmas specials if they're on every channel for a week? Syaoran thought as he went into his room and looked around and spotted something on his dresser. A jewelry box, his present for Sakura, I'll give it to her tomorrow she probably wants to be with her family today. He thought as he stuck it in his pocket and decided that watching Christmas Specials would overrule going for a walk in the park, too cold. I guess I've never had good luck with Christmas, I've never gotten anything I wanted or meant something to me…I suppose I had one good Christmas, with Sakura, when we caught the Firey Card. Thought Syaoran a small smile touching his lips, as he absentmindedly watched the old Christmas re-runs of old time movies.
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
Sakura woke up slowly her eyes opening, she took in a deep breath and smiled, it was Christmas.
"C'mon Kero." Said Sakura happily as she ran down the stairs.
"Merry Christmas Sakura, Kero." Said Fujitaka as he walked into the kitchen and Sakura sat down the couch next to Touya, she smiled.
"Merry Christmas 'Niichan."
"You too… Kaijiu."
"MERRY CHRISTMAS!" Bellowed Kero as he swarmed in from the kitchen carrying a tray of cookies.
"…" Touya and Fujitaka, sweatdropped. Fujitaka had entered the room carrying some hot chocolate, which he had handed to Sakura.
"Thank you Outo-san." Said Sakura as she watched Kero guzzle down cookies.
"Kero…save some cookies for other people." Said Sakura giving Kero a serious look.
"Sphy I shmean yiur just going to give them to that brat, Li Syaoran." Kero complained as he finished swallowing and Sakura turned a watermelon-pink shade.
"…" Touya glared at Kero for even mentioning Syaoran's name and the thought f Sakura giving cookies to the brat really pissed him off.
"Kero, I made the cookies."
"To give t-" Kero stopped at the glares he was given by the two siblings, "but you owe me one, Sakura."
"…" Sakura sighed, Kero had her there, he had helped her figure out what to get Syaoran for Christmas.
"You can have one more cookie." Said Sakura and Kero gave her his best puppy dog eyes, "and a pudding cup." She said sighing.
"Yeeaaaaahhhhhh!" Kero cheered as he raced into the kitchen.
"Sakura are you really going to give those cookies to the brat?" Touya asked and Sakura sweatdropped.
"What does it mean to you?" She asked, knowing the answer.
"That brat beat you up!"
"He didn't have a choice!"
"Yeah right kaijuu…"
"Be quiet Touya…" Sakura whispered to herself as she made a fist and stared at the ground.
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
Sakura had finished opening all of her presents and put on Tomoyo's Christmas outfit before putting the bear, she had finished very late last night, into a bag. She continued down stairs she grabbed some cookies to give to Syaoran. She thought, and as soon as she reached the door, she turned around and shouted.
"I'm going for a walk!"
"Okay, come home soon." Fujitaka called back and Sakura continued down the street until she reached Syaoran's apartment.
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
Syaoran fingered the velvet box gently before slipping it into his pocket. Sakura… He stared at the ceiling and then turned his attention the TV once again.
[Ring]
The doorbell rang, and Syaoran blinked, Who'd come see me on Christmas?
He opened the door and stared Sakura stood at his door holding a bag. Sakura saw his stare,
"Tomoyo-chan made my outfit…"
"Wouldn't have guessed." He replied a blush on his face as he looked down at his own, um, pajamas, or rather sweatpants. "Come in." He said stepping aside and Sakura walked in took of her shoes and walked in.
"Syaoran…didn't you do anything for Christmas?"
"No…I didn't think anyone would care." He replied and before she could say anything he said, "I'm going to change."
Sakura knitted her eyebrows and set her bag down and walked into the kitchen.
"Hm…" She started inspecting the cabinets.
"Sakura…" Said Syaoran coming up from behind her.
"Yes." She replied turning around and smiling at him.
He faltered then regained his composure, "what are you doing?"
"Cooking breakfast." She replied turning around, Syaoran blinked, "Didn't you already have breakfast?"
"Nope." She replied shaking her head and Syaoran frowned.
"Why aren't you having Christmas with your family?"
"I did, I…" She stopped and blushed. "…I wanted to make sure you weren't lonely." She said her blush evident on her face. Syaoran felt a blush creep up on his face as he watched her,
"You didn't have to do that."
"I know."
"…"
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
"Go sit down Syaoran, I'll make breakfast." She said smiling and Syaoran sat at his kitchen table. She turned around and started making her breakfast pancakes. Syaoran seems so depressed, I hope he doesn't mind that I'm here. Sakura thought setting the table. Sakura set the breakfast on the table and smiled.
"Sakura…" Syaoran started trailing off.
"Yes?" Sakura asked smiling brightly at him and his cheeks warmed a bit.
"…Why are you doing this?" He asked and she looked up at him curiously then blushed.
"…I…" Sakura blinked and stared at the table as she took a deep breath.
"?" Syaoran looked at her pure confusion written on his face.
"Because I…" Sakura's face was an almost an impossible shade of red. "I-I I love you!" Sakura shouted, as she took a stood up surprised that she had actually said it. She took a few steps backward as she stared at the ground her cheeks red.
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
Syaoran's auburn eyes widened in surprise as he watched Sakura stumble backwards and he felt his face warm.
"Chotte…matte! Sakura matte!" Syaoran shouted as she had turned and fled the room, Syaoran ran after her and she now stood in the living room by the couch her face downcast.
"Sakura…?" He asked her and she sniffled.
"…"
Syaoran swallowed and smiled slightly and dug something out of his pocket.
"Here." He held out the box and Sakura looked up slightly wiping her eyes and her eyes widened.
"Wha?" She asked and he glanced at her warmly and put the box gently in her hands.
Sakura swallowed as she stole a glance at Syaoran's face he was smiling at her and she blushed again as she looked at the box in her hands. Slowly she opened and she gasped at what was inside, her eyes widening as she looked up at Syaoran, who was looking down at her curious.
"Do you like it?" He asked her sincere and she swallowed as she looked at the ring, it had a platinum band and had and emerald in the center and two little diamonds decorating the sides of the band.
"…" Sakura stared at it as she sat on the couch amazed. "It's…beautiful…" She murmured and Syaoran smiled.
"Yes. I though the emerald would match you eyes." He said as he sat down next to her and she blushed again.
"…Syaoran, this must've cost you a fortune, I can't-" Sakura started but Syaoran took the ring our of Sakura's palm and slipped it onto her finger and she stared at it, than at Syaoran and a tear gently slid down her cheek.
Syaoran watched Sakura and he swallowed and he pulled her into a hug and she smiled.
"I was going to tell you how I felt, but it seems you beat me to the punch line." Syaoran half whispered to her and Sakura's eyes widened.
"I just wish you wouldn't cry." Syaoran whispered as he let her go. Sakura looked up at him curious and her face turned bright red.
"Did you mean what you said?"
"What…?" Syaoran asked he hadn't even realized what he said.
"When you said…that you were going to tell me how you felt." Sakura looked up at him her cheeks red and Syaoran blushed as well.
"What I mean was…" Syaoran trailed off and Sakura looked up at him curious. "That…I…I love you…" When he said it, it was just above a whisper but loud enough for Sakura to hear.
Sakura's eyes widened as she glanced at Syaoran as she hugged him again and he smiled happily.
"Oh! Your present!" Sakura said as she grabbed the
bag and handed it to Syaoran. "Here." She said smiling happily as she
sat down next to him and rested her head on his shoulder and he smiled at her.
Syaoran pulled out a pink teddy bear and smiled down at Sakura and he set the
bear down gently.
"Where are you going, Syaoran?" Sakura asked as she looked curiously
at him.
"Just wait here." Syaoran said as he smiled at Sakura nodded as she studied the pink bear.
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Syaoran walked over to his dresser and picked up a green teddy bear and he smiled as he carried it back out to Sakura.
Sakura looked at him curiously and spotted the bear and her eyes widened.
"Here." Syaoran handed her the bear and he picked up the pink bear and set it in his lap as Sakura leaned against him holding the green bear.
"Syaoran?" She asked him and he looked down at her slightly.
"Hm?"
"Can I call it 'Syaoran'…?" She asked and Syaoran looked at her surprised then he smiled.
"Only if I can call the one you gave me 'Sakura.'" He replied and Sakura's eyes shone as she rested her head against Syaoran's chest as they watched TV.
Give it all
away
To have someone
To come home to…"
And for some reason cheesy Christmas movies don't seem as bad when you have someone to watch them with…
AN: Whaddya think, a very early Christmas story from me Asatsuyu! Yay the first of the not-quite-Christmas season. Please review.