Why did this have to happen? I failed you Blue and I promised that we would always be together but I don't know if you will make it to paradise. I hope you do because if you do I will never leave your side and I won't let this happen to you again because I love you and I know that you loved me back if it wasn't for you I would have lost myself after my guilt about Jagura but you lifted me up from that and I think that was when I realized that I really did have feelings for you. But now here we are in a pool of our blood and you are already pretty much dead I know this and although Tsume has already tried to ease my pain it's still taking a long time to die. I can no longer feel so it must be getting close. I can see your face next to mine but your eyes they won't open I want to see you one last time before my vision goes and it's already all blurry I hate myself for what has happened I feel it's my fault because I couldn't protect you. My eyes start to close tears running down my cheeks. I don't want this I don't want to die and I don't want you to die either I pull your body into my arms holding you tightly with as much strength as I can manage. I want to see you again in paradise my love but I don't know if you are there then please wait for me I'll search for you as long as it takes...
I woke up with a start I was lying in a clearing. "How did I get here?" I asked myself, I tried to remember but couldn't bring anything back, I didn't even know who I was everything was all blank. I sat up and looked around me. There was a large lake and the sun was shining. I went over to the lake and peered at my reflection to see a brown wolf staring back at me and then I remembered my name was Hige. But nothing else was coming back to me but my name was a start at least. I tried to figure out what to do now. I thought I should explore the place to see if I met anyone I knew. I started walking around the lake. The place was beautiful but I still couldn't remember how exactly I got here seeing as there was nothing from my past I could remember. I felt frustrated I wanted to know why I was here and whether there was anyone I knew. I passed by a young boy who looked just as confused as me. "Hey mister?" he called. "Yes?" I answered. "Could you tell me where exactly this is?" "Sorry kid I don't know either I have no idea how I got here I don't remember a thing." "I don't either I just know my name is Toboe I can't remember anything else and I've been here for about a day." I smiled "Well that makes two of us lets see if we can find anyone else." The kid Toboe followed me as I walked trying to find other people.
We came across a group of a few people so we asked them if they knew but like us they had no idea either. I had no idea what was going on. I couldn't even explain why I was a wolf Toboe was one too so I felt like he was a comrade and something about him seemed really familiar. But I couldn't place it. Toboe said he got the same feeling. I just knew there was something I had to find but I couldn't remember what it was. It just seemed like a goal to me to find a certain someone except I couldn't remember who they were. It felt like a string was pulling me towards someone I had to find. And I swore that I would remember everything...
So much for me trying to be strong. Why did I have to fail myself? I just wanted to prove myself to you to everyone and now you probably thinks I'm a weakling. I'm lying here on the cold ground just wishing that it would just end I don't have the strength to move anymore. I can hear you and Kiba fighting Darcia and I see Cheza getting taken away. I curse myself for not being able to move my body but it's so numb. I can hear you telling Kiba to go after them and that you would look after me and then I hear your footsteps. "Are you there Hige?" I ask. "Yeah I'm here." You reply. "My vision is all blurry and I-" "There's no need to worry." You assure me. "I'm not going anywhere. We can stay together like this forever." I feel your hand brushing my hair out of my face. I sigh contendly "So warm..." I can't bring myself to say anymore I want to tell you so much like how much I love you but I get the feeling you know this and I hope you return my feelings. I crave for your touch for you to hold me again like you did when we were on the cliff but I know you are dying too you have no strength to go on. I can hear Tsume coming over to us and I hear you asking him to kill you then there is silence before you say "Lets meet again in paradise..." I don't hear anything after that but I know that you are really close to me I can still hear you breathing even though it's laboured and I don't know why it's taking me so long to die. I want to see your face again but my eyes won't open I know it's coming now I'm already so numb I can feel myself slowly drifting off into a deep sleep and then I feel you one more time because you have just pulled me into your arms and then you are gone and my last thought before I go is 'please don't forget me'...
My eyes flew open and I found myself lying in a field of flowers but I didn't know how I got there or anything else I just remembered that my name was Blue but nothing else was there. I stood up realizing that I had paws meaning that I must have been some kind of creature but I found no reflection in this place. I didn't know my purpose I figured I would find it on the way here. I can hear someone else in this field with me and I see a man with messy dark hair looking in my direction. "Who are you?" I asked. "My name is Kiba who are you?" "I'm blue. Where exactly are we?" "I don't really know I've just woken up here but I know that I have to look for something I don't know what though." And I realized that there was something that I had to wait for but I didn't know what. It was just the feeling that I was getting from whatever memory I had locked up inside me.
"You should come with me to help me search for what I'm looking for." Kiba said. "Well from what I'm feeling is that I'm supposed to be waiting for something but I suppose anything is better than just doing nothing and waiting for something that might not even come and besides it's best to stick together." I said more to myself but Kiba nodded. He started walking through the field and I followed all the while wondering where I was and what this feeling calling out to me was but I knew I would eventually remember...