A/N: Based on the song 'Orphan' by Rin. Though, I'm gonna make some changes here and there.
Sorry if it turned out bad and there are lots of mistakes. I wrote it in one go, read it over once and fixed the corrections my friend did in the second part.
A big thank you to my friend! And also to hamxham for pointing out those mistakes! :D
Disclaimer: Nope, I don't own Vocaloids.
Does everything happen for a reason? Is our destiny planned ahead for, unable to change our fate? The endless choices that are made, only to be lead to our destined fate? Is there a reason that I was unloved in this world? Is this my destiny?
Chapter 1: Being There
The young blonde, age nine, shut her book, causing a low 'thump' to resound across the empty room. Escaping her tiny pink lips was a sigh of boredom she turned her empty turquoise eyes towards the window noticing orphans her age playing in the sandbox.
She realized that she didn't fit in at the orphanage, that she was…different.
Pushing herself off the bed, she jumped landing steady on the ground, balancing herself with the book that she clutched dearly towards her chest.
Glancing back at the window, Rin sighed heavily to herself, muttering, "Fresh air". She directed her feet towards the door, the hem of her dress brushed against the other beds that were positioned close to one another. While the bow that lie on her golden locks, drooped lazily.
Holding her book under her arm, she twisted the knob with her free hand. The knob squeaked violently when it was put in motion, signaling how ancient the orphanage was.
Closing his eyes, the disheveled blonde, violently swung his legs back and forth across the bed. Occasionally glaring at the ceiling, as if it was the ceiling's fault for causing this nine year old to be bored. Pushing himself up from the bed, darting his aquamarine eyes towards the window. Oh how he wished to discover what lie out in the real world, being locked up in his own house like a prisoner made him sick.
Bringing him out of his thoughts was a knock on the door, "Len! Wanna go to work with me today? I want you to meet someone!"
Perfect! He could finally escape his own house and breathe the fresh air that he wanted dearly. "Yeah, coming!"
Jumping out of his bed in excitement, he leaped towards the door, and was greeted by his mother. Miku patted her son lovingly on the head, her teal hair tied but in the same fashion as usual. Her teal pigtails brushed the wooden floor as she crouched forward, reaching eye level of her son, "Remember when you said you wanted to meet kids your age?"
"Yep" Len nodded his head in excitement, his aquamarine eyes bulged out of his sockets, anticipating what she was about to say.
Standing up, Miku brushed the wrinkles out of her dress. Bringing a hand forward, signaling for Len to come, she laughed out warmly after noticing her son's excited expression, "Well, lets go then!"
Len took her hand without a second thought, mother and son walked towards their destination. Knowing that his mother worked at a place with kids his age, he was surprised that for the first time, he was allowed to meet them.
Rin's POV
Sitting in the open field, the crisp golden tinted grass wisped by when the cool spring air drove down. Dew drops remained from the morning rain, tinting the grass with its drops. I lazily fingered the greens, while tearing at the weeds and flowers. Sighing, I ignored the playful shouts and complains that arose out of the other kids as they played soccer. Gazing up at the sky over time, I muttered to myself, engulfed in my own thoughts, "Does everything that happens, happens for a reason?"
"What was that Rinny?" shocked that someone answered me, I turned my attention to the girl with twin drills that were twisted into pigtails. Grinning she bobbed up and down.
"…Uh…"
Noticing my confused expression, she went closer to my face, pointing a finger at herself. I backed away closer towards the tree that I was leaning on, seeing that she never heard of personal space before.
"Remember me? Teto! We met before, we had ate lunch together!"
Realization hit me, as I remembered when the crimson twin drills asked if I was gonna eat my French bread. Which I gladly offered, knowing that I didn't have much of an appetite at that moment.
Seeing that she remembered, Teto beamed, "You remember! Don't cha?"
Clutching her palms together she brought them up to her chest, "Aw, that French bread was delicious! You didn't know what you were missing! It-"
Sighing, I lightly smiled, amused that Teto was absent mindedly talked about her beloved French bread. I was surprised that someone would talk to me, yet I only knew that it would only last for so long…
"Hey, Rinny?" Teto questioned, waving a hand in front of my face, wanting to catch my attention, "Wanna get some lunch? Huh?"
Politely declining her offer, I shook my head lightly, "No thanks."
"Aw, but why?" whined Teto, pouting and stomping her feet on the wilted grass. "Rinnnyy~!"
"Sorry, but I'm not hungry." For the first time, was I able to smile truly. I was happy that for once, I was offered to do something. "But I'll see you later 'kay?"
Pouting, Teto looked down, while tracing her foot across the wilted grass. Softly muttering, "Kay…" Her expression soon brightened, remembering they'll talk to each other later, "Well, see ya later buddy!"
I was shocked that I was considered her friend? "I-I'm your friend?" I softly muttered.
Teto stared at me, surprised by my question. She quickly chirped, "Of course you are! Yup!"
I was relieved and happy that I had a friend. "Bye-bye!" Teto waved frantically at me, wanting me to cheer up.
Waving at her, I saw her departed figure running towards the building.
Sighing, I continued tearing weeds and flowers, occasionally smiling. I was happy that I have a friend at the orphanage now. Happy that someone would talk to me, yet sad knowing that this wish wouldn't last forever…
Walking in the empty corridor, I couldn't help but notice the sound of arguing in the office. Hearing my name being said, I peered towards the small slit, overhearing the conversation from inside.
"You realize that Rin won't ever get adopted, do you?" I slightly gasped. Without wanting to be caught, I slammed my hands over my mouth, wincing by the sudden contact of pressure that was hit.
"What makes you say that? Are you just going to give up on her?"
"Heh, you don't get it do you…everyone but her is adopted. Currently, we don't have enough rooms to take in more orphans."
"…What are you suggesting…? You want to just leave her out in the streets?"
"Sooner or later…" What? W-why?
Tears started to erupt from my eyes, I didn't want to hear any more of this.
Running towards our room, I could hear my own loud footsteps echoed throughout the corridor. Slamming the door behind me, I collapsed on the floor, dredging myself in my own tears.
I-I was going to be abandoned aren't I? It's because I'm unloved in this world. Is this my own fate? To end up like this? Isn't there a time machine to reverse all of this from happening? If I wasn't born…it wouldn't be like this.
Thoughts wildly erupted from my mind, unlocking the feelings that I didn't want to accept. The assumptions that I made without anything even happening, caused me to sob harder, without even noticing another presence in the room.
Len's POV:
Sighing, I brought together my legs to my chest. Gazing out of the window, I noticed the kids my age, playing soccer. It looked fun, but mom told me to stay here while she went to talk to her boss.
Curiously, I stepped over to a bed that had a book on the pillow. Glancing at it, I fingered the cover of the book. The cover was a picture of a lady in a extravagant dress, while the man was in a suit. Both grasped each other hands, ready to dance.
Hm, the owner of this book must like dancing…
Hearing the muffled footsteps from outside, I scrambled to put the book back into place. Sniffing to not look suspicious, I could smell the aroma of oranges that drifted as I ruffled the cover of the bed.
Seeing a girl, that looked my age, I quickly stood up, dying to introduce myself. Brushing the wrinkles off my pants, I stopped when I noticed her down warded gaze and that her face had streams of tears. I could tell that she was crying.
I was worried when I saw her slam the door and collapse to the floor. She brought her feet to her chest and cried her heart out. W-was she okay? She didn't seem to notice me either.
Running towards her, I stammered out, "A-are you okay?"
She shook her head as the only response I received. Looking at her appearance, she looked fragile, her pale skin and body that trembled, only supported that theory. Her pink, dry lips only quivered as she tried to speak out a response.
I questioned her further, "Did something happen?" She froze, stifling her sniffling.
I said something wrong, didn't I? "I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hurt your feelings or anything!" I waved my hands defensively, frantically to apologize to her.
"…It's nothing."
"O-oh…" I felt bad, questioning someone when it wasn't my business.
"Uh, I'm sorry, I didn't introduce myself, I'm Len!" Holding out a hand to the sniffing girl.
Slowly gazing up, I could see her sharp aquamarine eyes look confused at me. They looked different than other kids. They looked empty.
Reaching her hand out to grasp mine, I pulled her to her feet. She stumbled to catch her balance. "…Thanks…" She quietly muttered, brushing the wrinkles off her dress. "…I'm Rin"
"Nice to meet you Rin!" I exploded with energy, wanting to see her cheer up. "That's a pretty name!"
Rin looked confused and surprised with what I said. Realizing what was spoken from me, she focused her attention towards the floor, avoiding eye contact with me. Her cheeks were tinted pink, was she embarrassed?
"T-thanks, no one has ever complimented my name before…so" Rin stammered. Aw, she looked cute!
"Hehe, yup! I think it's unique!" I grinned cheekily.
Narrowing my eyes, I was curious as to why in the first place she was crying. Knowing it was a bad topic to bring up, I still wanted to ask her, "Um, can I ask you why you were crying?"
Shifting her feet back in forth, she whispered, "I-I'm going to be abandoned…"
My eyes widened when hearing her phrase. "But why?" I replied in such a tone that mimicked hers.
"…Because I'm unloved…"
What? How could she say that! She must have someone at least to care for her! "Don't say that! I care about you! 'Cause you're my friend!"
"What?" She shot a confused gaze at me.
"It's true! You're my friend Rin! I'll visit you 'kay? You seem lonely and well, I am too!" I laughed out, admitting that I didn't have any friends either.
3 Years Later…
"Haha, you're so funny Len!" Rin clutched her stomach while wiping the tears that escaped from her eyes. Len was shaking his hands back and forth in a way that mimicked an octopus.
"Yeah so-" Rin smiled brightly, happy that Len kept his word with her. Both being the young age of 12. Occasionally Len visited her at the orphanage, bringing stories to tell.
"Ah! It looks like it's about to rain!" Len yelped, noticing the dark clouds collecting in the sky.
Following his cry, Rin looked up and noticed it was so, "Yeah… I guess you'll have to go then right?"
Len hardened his expression, wide-eyed, "But…I don't want to yet…"
Laughing at the childishness of her friend, she replied, "I don't want to either! But Miku seems to be ill these days… Maybe she should take a break!"
Gazing down, he knew what she was talking about, for he was the one to be blamed. "Yeah. You're right Rin."
Cocking her head to the side, she wondered why he acted like this, "Hm? What's wrong Len? You seem really quiet. Wanna talk about it?"
"…Mom is sick 'cause of me… She gave me her sweater so that I wouldn't get sick when it rained last time…"
"Eh? Is she okay?" Rin gazed at Len, worry washed over her face.
"I-I think so, but her coughing sounded deadly last night… Rin, what if she leaves me? And it's all my fault."
Shaking her head, she responded with such confidence. Grasping together her hands with his, "No, It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself Len. Miku will be okay! I'm sure of it!" Smiling she responded, "Don't worry Len, she's strong. Don't be sad, you'll make me sad."
Surprised by what Rin said, he gasping quietly and muttered, "Yeah…"
Standing up, shivering slightly from the cold that slapped down upon her face. She replied quickly, "Now go!"
Rin pulled Len up, having some difficulty, "I'll see you later Len!" Waving at Len, she shooed him to get his mom so that both would arrive home before the downpour.
"Yeah…bye Rin!" Quickly waving at her, he dashed inside to find his mom and convince her to leave early. Seeing how she wasn't dressed for a downpour.
"Geez Len!" Miku shouted, trying to keep her balance when her son roughly shoved her through the door.
"…Sorry…" He looked down, avoiding eye contact with his mom, still feeling guilty that he caused her to be sick.
Turning around to face her son she ruffled her son's hair playfully. She laughed out, "It's ok. So, did you have fun with Rin today?"
Finally gazing up at his mom, he remembered Rin telling him to cheer up, "Yeah"
Taking off her shoes as she entered the wooden flooring, she replied chirping, "That's good! I knew you'd like my surprise."
Confused on what his mother meant by that, he turned to her and saw a playful, happy smile upon her face. "What do you mean?" Len questioned curiously.
"Eh? Don't tell me you forgot?"
His expression twisted upright, trying to stifle back a snicker. Waving his hand back and forth, he laughed out, "Kidding, kidding!"
Swiftly with the turn of her heels, her back faced Len, she huffed and crossed her arms across her chest, defensively replying, "Hmph!"
Grinning at how cheerful and childish his mom was, Len's smile turned into a smirk as he sarcastically answered, "Yeah, think that was the only best present you ever gave!"
Reacting quickly to Len's joke, Miku turned back to face him, pouting, "Hey, that's mean!"
Walking towards the kitchen, her smile took on the form of a displeasing frown. It was going to be hard for Len to hear this, but… "Len…From now on, I'm not going to work at the orphanage anymore…I was fired."
His eyes widened, scared that it meant that he couldn't be with Rin anymore, "And Rin…?" He blurted out, confused.
Not turning around she answered bitterly, sorrow laced into her voice, "I'm sorry Len, you aren't allowed there anymore…"
Clutching the table in anger, she knew how much this would hurt him.
"But mom! I didn't even get to say goodbye! I told her that I would see her later! Why?" Len clutched his shirt, shaking violently. He didn't understand why, why he couldn't see Rin again.
"Len…" Unable to hold back the tears that dreaded to fall, her voice cracking, "I'm sorry…" Miku muttered out a sincere apology.
One Week Later… Rin's POV:
Today I have yet to see Len and Miku again… I wonder if something happened? It's strange for Miku not to be working, she's usually so serious and passionate about work too, but… Oh my gosh, what if she's really that sick!
Wanting to know that important information, I ran into the building, my feet felt heavier when I ran, as the anticipation filled my heart.
Slowing down my pace when I found a nurse who worked many times with Miku. I grabbed her to the side, while I tried to slow down my breathing, "W-what happened to Miku…?"
She smiled at me, "Morning Rin." Realizing my serious, worried expression, she looked at me sadly, unable to speak out her response, afraid of disappointing me.
Turning her back away from me, she softly whispered, "…She was fired…" Avoiding eye-contact with me, for she didn't like to see others misery and sadness. "She isn't coming back, Rin… I'm sorry…"
I stood there, my mouth wide open and quivering, while my eyes mimicked that of dinner plates. I could feel the tears began to bubble up from my eyes, while I clutched my chest, where my heart was supposedly located.
It was painful, I lost two important people, and I didn't get to say goodbye to them. In fact something in my mind told me that it was better that way, not saying goodbye, that it was less painful. Yet, within my heart, I was falling apart…
From that day on, I felt like I lost part of myself… A part that could never be replaced…
The endless days that were spent without Len and Miku, tore my heart to shreds. The chance that we would be able to see each other in the future, dangled on a thread. That thread broke though, there wasn't any hope…
Two Years Later… Rin's POV:
Sighing, I reluctantly walked towards our room.
I wonder how Len and Miku are doing… Are they okay? It has been two years since I last spoke to him, yet, everyday I mutter his name, yearning to be next to him, to hear his voice…
Entering the room, I walked towards my bed. It lay untouched, thankfully. Peering over to my left, I could hear others taunting me, "Aw, Rin's gonna be abandoned~!" "That's 'cause no one wants her!" "Hahaha!"
Scrambling to grab my pillow and orange fluffy blanket, I started to walk towards the door, not wanting to stay here anymore.
As I turned the doorknob, it was rudely slammed shut, while a finger was waved directly above me. "Ah ah ah~!" she sang, waving the finger back and forth. Violently grabbing my blanket away from me, she said with annoyance, "You don't deserve this!"
What? What a bitch! Ugh! I wasn't gonna stand around like an idiot! That blanket was special to me, Miku had gave that to me. She gave it to me as my birthday present.
Rage built up within me. Len had previously told me to stand up for myself when I told him that I was constantly bullied. And that's what I did.
"Hey!" Catching her off guard, I punched her in the cheek. Making her crash into the other beds. Hm, who would've thought that scrubbing floors made me this strong!
Smirking, I grabbed my blanket from her hold, and darted for the door. Laughing at her demise while being on the run when I saw her figure struggling to stand up.
The adrenaline rushed to my head, as I felt that was the most fun I had without Len.
Though, I still felt lonely inside, every waking moment since Teto, Len, and Miku left…
Passing the office, I could hear the door slam, while I was yanked by the owner of the orphanage. Yelping as I took in her appearance. She was cruel and heartless, the same person that wanted to get rid of me 5 years ago.
"I heard what you did…" The venom that she spoke with made me cower into my blanket and pillow.
"…" I didn't dare to speak a word, only whimpering as my response.
She sighed, boredom was hinted as she did so. Smirking at me, she replied, "You know, I don't tolerant fighting."
Pointing a finger at my forehead, she flicked it with a turn of the wrist. Wincing, I cowered further, struggling to escape her grasp. "Therefore…" her smirk grew upright, "Farewell…"
My eyes grew wider, disbelief was clearly written on my face. She's gonna kick me out on the streets isn't she?
And that's what she did…
Len's POV:
I was nervously shaking in my seat, even more nervous when trying to avoid the evil glances from my dad. For I knew for a fact that he wished me dead…
What made it worse was that mom was unconscious and the doctor said she'll be like that for quite some time, seeing that she had a high fever.
Abruptly collapsing one day, I felt guiltier by the second. As minutes turned towards days, her life flashed on by.
Her condition got worse everyday, she became weaker… Rin told me that she'll get better… but she never did…
Rin…I haven't talked to her for two years now… The both of us were 14 now. I hope she's alright.
Glancing cautiously from the corner of my eyes, I could see the scowl that was drawn on his face.
Dad didn't come home often, having to deal with work, and sometime working overseas. But whenever he looked at me, his face always twisted into disgust.
If I wasn't born, would he be happier? Then mom wouldn't be like this either… I-It was all my fault…
As the silence engulfed the room, the only sound came from the clock. It seemed to glare at me, torturing me, taunting me… I felt like I was going insane in this room.
Interrupting the silence was my dad, "It's all your fault…" He finally spoke, eyes that spoke to me with such hatred.
It was true, and I knew it. I-I shouldn't stay here anymore, I didn't have a right to… Would the orphanage accept me? I doubt it. I don't deserve to belong anywhere… My thoughts wildly danced through my mind.
Breaking myself out of my own thoughts, he shouted, "Get out! Leave, I don't want you here anymore!" He trembled violently, voice rising out of anger.
Scared by the level of his tone, I scrambled to my feet, muttering, "I'm sorry…I'm sorry…"
Rushing to open the door, I could feel my tears dripping forward, I felt pathetic. Yet I knew I deserved this…
Rin's POV:
After being kicked out, the gate of the orphanage slammed close, causing me to jump. I could feel all of the stares from the orphans, they had a place to stay… I used too to have that right, but now I belong in the streets…
Dragging my feet, I felt my body becoming heavy. I was tired, and deprived of my blanket and pillow. The owner said I didn't deserve any of these necessities. I was useless and broken, like a worn out doll that gets thrown away when the owner gets bored of it.
Turning my attention towards the sky that began to be painted crimson, I realized that night would fall soon.
Walking around the town, I could see the lights start to flicker on. The night became a wondrous sight.
Looking at their clothes, mine being torn and soiled with dirt, while the others had formal and casual clothing. I felt like an outcast. Tearing my eyes off others, I down righted my gaze, knowing that either way they wouldn't bother to take a glance at me.
I felt weaker by the moment, my own pride was dejectedly crushed.
Wandering to the back-alley, where light doesn't reach, I collapsed on the ground. Gazing at my tattered body covered with torn clothing, I smiled bitterly. I couldn't cry, I wanted to release all of my feelings, yet I wasn't able too…
I was tired, my eyes felt heavy, but my mind was restless. Bringing my legs close to my chest, I wrapped my arms around. Closing my eyes, I wanted to rest for a bit…
Len's POV:
I had many things to say to mom, I wanted to thank her for all she did for me and to apologize… I knew it was too late already though… I felt guilty.
Hesitating to turn the knob to exit my room, I tightened my hold on my coat. Sighing, I closed my eyes and turned the knob. I needed to do this…It's better this way…
Closing the front door quietly, taking a last view of the house I lived in, I muttered, "Thank you…and goodbye…"
I wasn't going to cry anymore, I couldn't…
Glancing at my surroundings, I noticed how beautiful the city looked at night. Frowning when I realized that this wasn't fun and games anymore.
Putting my hands in my coat pocket, I shuffled awkwardly, pulling at my navy sweater.
I was confused, knowing that I didn't have anywhere to go. Noticing a back-alley, I stalked towards it, unaware of the figure that first occupied the area.
As my eyes adjusted to the dark of the alley, I noticed a small figure, shivering in the dark. The figure looked familiar somehow, like I had seen them before… Hm, maybe I am going insane…
Anxious to take a rest, I muttered, "Um…Is this space occupied?"
The figure slowly looked up, her feline aquamarine eyes sharply looked at me. The emptiness from her eyes reflected from her soul, was the same as the one I had met 5 long ago.
I gasped when I realized who it was… It was Rin…
"R-Rin…?" I stammered, shocked to see her end up like this. I never wished this fate on anybody, and I was surprised and disbelief that it would happen to the person who I cared for dearly.
Her eyes brightened when I said her name, realizing it was me. She looked surprised, choking out, "L-Len…?"
It seemed that it was fate that caused us to meet those many years ago, and fate that caused us to meet once again in unwanted circumstances. But who knew that fate was unpredictable and cruel…
A/N: Longest chapter I've ever writen! So sorry if it was boring.
Should I should continue or not?
But yeah, never wote in time skip before, so hope it's not confusing or anything.
Please review and tell me what you think!