Sugar Rush
Dedicated to Cereal-Killa because she is one of my favorite authors on here. I hope you enjoy this! :D
It gave her a sugar rush to think of all the things they did together; and sadly, would never do again. They stole food together, got tattoo's, had their first kiss, their first break- up, their first make-up, and so much more. All things she could never get back. A part of her died when they broke up so he could be with a Goth girl he "loved". Did he really love her? She could never say for certain.
None of Courtney's friends could believe that he dumped her for that Goth girl. Courtney knew one day this would happen. But her pride would take over and make her believe that he would never do that to her. The only reason for the break- up in Courtney's eyes was because of herself. She would never admit it, but deep-down Courtney knew. If she hadn't been so high maintenance, then maybe they could have stayed together. Just maybe they could have made a life together.
But that would be a lie. There was only so much she could do in the relationship for her part. Yet even knowing that, she believed she could have done more. And then there's always the fact that Duncan could have done his part by breaking up with her first if he wanted to go out with Gwen. She had thought Gwen would say no to Duncan, but no. She caved. Just like Courtney had done when she wanted to go out with Duncan.
The worst part, the most devastating part, is that Courtney knew that Gwen wanted to go out with Duncan. She always seemed to know. That red string of fate that once tied her to Duncan? Gone. Severed. Irrecoverable. But never forgotten.
But when you love someone that much, it can make you blind. For a while, Gwen refused because of their friend-ish status. That much is true. But being forced together in a cramped space under harsh conditions often brings people together. That and the fact Gwen and Duncan always had more in common on paper than herself and Duncan never really helped Courtney's case. But even after getting your heart ripped out on national television, it wasn't the man Courtney missed. It was her friend.
Courtney could never truly hate Gwen for her part in this. No, it was always destined to happen, sadly. Gwen only helped her see the truth sooner. Sometimes, even on the warmest days, when the sun is out and not bothered by the wind, Courtney looks up at the sky and is honest with herself. Her thoughts mostly consist of "If only we could be friends again." But they would never be. And for that, it was always a shame.
After her thoughts move past Gwen, Courtney thinks about Duncan. To this day, Courtney wonders why Duncan cheated on her with her friend. Why did he think she deserved such little respect? Why couldn't they be happy? Why couldn't she been enough? But then, with always a bitter laugh, Courtney remembers when things were good, and Duncan was sweet. The hyperness of pure adrenaline flashes before her in its unforgiving assault.
The giddy little glee of a warm heart and lovestruck head. Soft kisses placed around her forehead and strong arms around her waist. That damned skull memento carved especially, and only, for her. To think that he could give her those feelings as no one did before. It was all too much for her on a day like today. But now, those images of her and him feel like a million miles away, in a distant land, and in a distant time. With a long pause, Courtney sighs, closes her eyes, and realizes that they will never be that again.
AN: Just a little one shot I wanted to do. I hope you all liked it!
Edit: This has now been re-written and hopefully is much improved!