Hey guys, Im sorry about not updating my other stories, even when i told several of you that i would try. I honestly have, but life has been a rough battle. Here is something I wrote, really how I feel. Let me know what you think please.

Im a shadow girl…

Living quite literally in the shadows.

Made of them, for I will live and die in this cursed existence of mine.

People see a flicker, and for the span of a precious heart beat I hold their attention but then that moment fades along with all else.

I cry out, No!

Don't leave me!

For in that moment I felt more alive then I ever have.

I reach out, desperately trying to hold onto them, prove I'm worth something, anything!

But I cannot grasp, I hold no substance, no physical matter, no lingering reality…

And they slip away like well oiled eels.

I gasp, groaning in despair.

Something inside me is wrenched apart!

I feel my very life essence shattering, for in that span of a moment I could breathe, I felt alive.

Then that is torn away, shoving me once more into the never ending abyss.

As I fall, never ceasing, I grind my teeth, cursing those around me who fail to see, spitting upon the day I was born, swearing to never again let anyone destroy me in such a manner..

In those next moments I search for a reason to exist.

Looking for answers in all the wrong places.

The momentary sweetness they deliver me is like a sludge, a poisoned breath designed to consume me whole.

When I plead, No more!

It forcefully shoves itself upon me, making me a slave when I had once thought myself a master.

It is during the struggle to break free from my bondage, that my shadow begins to flicker, drawing another close.

For while I know what I had said before, I let the person near, desperate for that living breath.

I cling to whomever you may be, placing myself into your care.

All the while knowing that while this will remain the same as all else, in my broken manner I convince myself that things are different.

Just as I feel whole once more, you begin to pull away…

Leaving my shadow fingers to slowly start slipping….