Password to My Heart

Eddie stood in Jamie's embrace for what seemed like an eternity. She never wanted to let go, and she knew he didn't want to either. She didn't mind all the cop cars swarming their location or all of the smug looks she was receiving from the other cops arriving on the scene. All she knew was that she wanted to be with Jamie, and she never wanted to leave.

"Ed...Eddie" he whispered in her ear. "We have to go back to the precinct. We ha-have papers to fill out, we have to go debrief, we have to-"

"I know, I know" she replied gently pulling away from his warm embrace. Their eyes met and locked on each other. Jame placed his hand in the small of Eddie's back and led her back to the squad car, still trembling from fear and exhaustion. When they reached the car all Jamie could think about was how he wanted to kiss Eddie right there. He knew he couldn't, but he wanted to more than anything. The drove back to the precinct in silence, both not knowing what to say. Half-way through the ride, Eddie's hand met Jamies and didn't leave until they arrived. They both walked inside and went to fill out their forms. It only took about two hours, but to Eddie and Jamie, it seemed like it was never going to end.

"I'm going to go get changed" Eddie finally managed to get out. "Wait for me outside the women's locker room please."

"For someone so short, you sure take long to get dressed" Jamie exclaimed with half a smile on his face. Eddie poked him in his side and looked up at him with her beautiful blue eyes. Jamie's heart melted every time she looked at him like this. All he could do was nod and smile.

Fifteen minutes later Eddie walked out of the locker room wearing a black v-neck shirt, dark blue jeans, and cute black booties. Jamie cursed under his breath.

"Ready to go eat partner?" he asked, trying not to meet her eyes.

"I- um" her voice began to falter.

"Janko, you okay?"

"I don't really want to eat right now, I just need to lie down. I don't feel good."

Jamie knew Eddie had not handled her first kill well, and he was wondering if she was feeling that same guilt again. "I can take you back to my place" he suggested. "It's closer, and you can lie down on my couch".

"O-Okay. Let's go." Eddie and Jamie walked out to the car and got in it without saying a word. As Jamie drove through the city to his apartment. Eddie placed her head on the cool window and looked out upon the city. She could see Jamie glancing her way every so often, but didn't know if she would be able to remain calm if her eyes met his. Soon enough Jamie's car pulled into his lot and he got out of the car to open the door for Eddie. She quietly got out of the car and grabbed the bag of clothes she has brought with her. She walked up to his steps and waited for him to open the door. They walked up to his apartment and went inside. As soon as the door shut Eddie knew she had to tell him.

"Jamie I need to tell you something," Eddie said frantically "Today was - I thought - Jamie I l-

"I know, I know" he replied calmly interrupting her before she said something she couldn't take back. He wanted her to say those three words more than anything, but he knew that now was not the right time. "I have to tell you something too, but tell me tomorrow. After you've eaten, calmed down, and I know what to say"

Eddie smiled. She knew what was going on in his mind, it was the same as hers. She decided to take his advice and wait until tomorrow. "It's always something with you Reagan" she exclaimed as she walked into the bathroom to change into her comfy clothes. She came out a few minutes later in sweatpants, an oversized NYPD shirt, no makeup, and her hair up in a messy bun. Jamie just stared at her. "Close your mouth Reagan, you've seen me in better," Eddie said as she flopped down on the couch. She patted the seat next to her motioning for Jamie to sit down. He did as she asked, and put his arm around her waist as she pulled up the covers and switched on the television.

"What do you want a watch, Janko?"

"I don't know" she replied flipping through channels "A-ha! She exclaimed after a minute "Mean Girls!"

Jamie looked at her and rolled his eyes. "Really Janko. A chick-flick"

"This is not just a chick-flick Reagan. This is an iconic movie"

"Whatever you say shortie". Eddie nudged him in the side and leaned into his shoulder. He tightened the grip around her waist.

An hour into the movie, Jamie glanced at Eddie and noticed she had fallen asleep. He looked at the clock which read 10:17. He wriggled his way out from Eddie and laid her down on the couch. As soon as he had done so, he knew she was going to wake up with a hurt back. He swiftly picked Eddie up trying not to wake her. She stirred a little in his arms but remained asleep. Jamie carried Eddie into his room and tucked her into his bed. He wasn't tired yet and he decided he would go out on the terrace. Jamie walked back into the living room and made a cup of tea to take out with him. When he walked out onto the terrace, he realized it had gotten much colder, and he needed a jacket. His signature leather jacket was in his bedroom and he didn't want to go in and wake up Eddie. He went to the closet in the foyer and found an old brown jacket from a few years back. He figured it would do the trick. Jamie went back onto the terrace and drank his tea in peace. Despite his hot tea, Jamie's hands were ice cold and he stuck them in his pockets. In there he felt a small leather box. He pulled the box out of his pocket and opened it to reveal a silver Claddagh ring. Jamie fumbled the ring in his fingers and squeezed it tight in his palm. He looked up at the sky and smiled. He had finally found the right words to say to Eddie. Tomorrow, he thought to himself, tomorrow.