The Shadow Of Light
Hell, its sheer hell. Have you ever had that feeling where you see the person of your dreams and you're always inches away from them…but you have to bat them down with insults? But by far the worst is when you actually have to attack them. With every poisonous word that escapes my lips I feel as if a new crack is being applies to my heart. Because I love you, I would give anything to hold you. Your beautiful shadow black fur and your unreadable olive eyes.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
The only thing that keeps me from running to you and holding you close is that we are parted. It's like whenever we meet there is a thin red line between us, keeping us apart. But it's because I choose a different path to you. I choose to steer towards the shadows, the darkness and you chose to stay to the light.
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
I was once incredibly close to you; I was your team leader. I gave you orders and you obeyed. I said come and you came, called your name and you run faithfully back. Now you run away. believe me I've tried hard to follow your ways of life…but…I just can't see the light you do. But then you are unique, seeing the light even at the darkest times.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And when I plunged that sabre into the back of your head I felt like crying. But in my world that means weakness. And I couldn't show my master I was weak. The battle commenced and then my heart broke. Your new leader, that boy pushed me. Into the egg's surface. That's when I was sure I'd never see your face again. But I did, and my stomach did back flips. But I missed the shadow black fur and the beautiful olive eyes.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
The shiny surface of cold hard metal glittered at me the first time I saw you again. And I could read only one thing in your newly acquired baby-blue eyes: Fear. It was then I realized you were more like me then I thought. Scared, scared of rejection, that maybe we would be treated differently because of our new looks. But I feared that my master wouldn't trust me. But yours was another kind of fear. The fear that your friends wouldn't love you anymore. But I loved you all the same.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And so every time I see you I'll be content. Content because I saw your shining face, your false hope, you spurring on the team. I'll be Content but never happy. Because you're at such a distance away that I can never hold you…love you…kiss you. Bittersweet, that's what it is. Bittersweet hell!
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Damn you Antauri. Damn your stupid philosophy and your stupid ways. What's this curse you've put over me! Why can't I look at you and feel the hatred I feel when I look at the others! I hate you, hate you. But at the same time there's a small part of me that loves you, and always will.
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
It's like I take one step forward…towards the light and then two steps back to the darkness. I guess what you always told me was right. The closer you get to the light the bigger your shadow becomes.
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I was thinking earlier that Mandarin's clone would feel the same things as the original right? Anyhow AntauriMandarin one-shot added!