State of Mind Chapter 1: The Break up, an austin & ally fanfic

Ally storms into her room and starts throwing the nearest belongings she needed in the largest suitcase she could find. Tears were pouring all over her suitcase as she placed clothing inside. How could he do this to me? Her mind wasn't at what it was at the beginning of the night. If anything she was dejected because of what she just went through. She tried dragging her suitcase down the stairs when she collapsed onto the stairs and started weeping into her knees not caring that her suitcase had fallen the entire flight of stairs.

5 Hours Ago

Ally was dancing and prancing around her apartment as she got ready for her date with Austin. It was their two year anniversary today and they planned on going out to celebrate. She smiled as she finished curling her hair to perfection as the perfectionist herself. Her phone started to buzz as she looked down at it as she turned off the light in the bathroom and stepped into her living room.

Her apartment was more of a condo. It had everything a house had except for the fact that it was on the ground. Her living room was filled with black leather couches and black end tables on either sides of the seating. Her TV was plastered on the wall by a brackets and underneath was a long yet short entertainment table. On their laid a long high powered bluetooth surround speaker. The walls were covered in white paint and pictures with different styles of photographs. A few were of an inside of a car window with rain droplets sliding down the window and another one was a daisy with petals of different colours. You'd never know that their were that many colours. Her kitchen was of the arts. High tech stove, pizza oven (I know right?), refrigerator, ect… The dark oak cupboards and counters shone with cleanliness. The cream colours countertops were clean as they could be. The island had a large sink in it with her pet fish in a bowl names Nemo. Yes, Ally wasn't very good at naming her pets.

On her tenth birthday she got a toy poodle from her father. She figured out all day on what to name him and finally came to the resolution of naming her puppy of apricot colouring, George. It lived a good fifteen years. It passed away last Winter but Ally's fine now considering he's been her best friend for fifteen years. Of course she has real life friends as well.

Her other best friends are Dez Wade and Trish de la Rosa. They have been in her life since forever. On the first day of Kindergarten Dez and Trish were arguing over a lego piece. Trish thought that Dez hid the piece from her so she couldn't build the perfect house. Ally went over to help fix the sitch. Ally was able to fix their situation and all in doing that they all formed a friendship. Of course, Trish and Dez still had their causal argument then and there but that was just natural for them. Austin didn't come into the picture until grade 2. He was that new student who could make friends with everybody. He could have been friends with the girl group and the boy group. In that time period everyone was separated by the girls and the boys. That's just how it was. Out of all the thirty kids in the class he chose the blendin's at the back; Ally, Trish and Dez all of which were colouring a picture because Ally, the smart one, was able to help her two friends and finish the work early. Ally had asked Trish to pass her a purple crayon but she didn't have one. But that was when suddenly a purple crayon appeared in front of Ally's face. She raised her head and smiled at the little blonde kid holding out a purple crayon. "Here I have one." She took it from his hand with the same smile on her face. "Thanks."

That was 17 years ago. A very long time. A lot has changed since everyone became friends. Austin and Ally started dating at age 23 and moved to Los Angeles where Ally got noticed singing karaoke in a bar when she was 21. Trish followed as soon as she heard Ally's great news so she could support her. Dez was already living in L.A. for a while when he was going to a School for Directors. There bond is meant to be because they all found themselves in the same area even years after graduation.

Ally read her text: OUTSIDE

Ally replied to her text: BE RIGHT THERE!

She swiftly grabbed her purse and skipped out the door. If she grabbed her coat she wouldn't have an excuse to ask for Austin's.

They were going to celebrate their two year anniversary.

As she walked towards the car she thought of the way Austin had texted her. Single worded. Dull. Buried in the ground. Even a little bit pushy. Maybe Austin's upset about something. She decided not to think too much into as she wanted to have the best night of her life. She was going to be spending the night were her boyfriend of two years! How could it get any better than this? A candlelit dinner. Walk on the beach. And maybe even a little romance at the end of the night if you know what I mean.

She was nearing the car and noticed Austin hadn't got out of the vehicle to open the car door for her. He usually does that. On every date they had he did. She wiped it off and opened the door herself and slid onto the passenger seat. She gave him a kiss on the lips and buckled herself up safely inside the car.

There was that feeling again.

She didn't receive the kiss the way Austin usually kissed her. His entire persona was currently foreign to her. She felt the need to ask, "Is everything okay?"

"Yep." That's all he said as he drove to the restaurant.

"So, how was your day? I haven't seen you all day."

"Fine."

"Great! So, I'm thinking of firing one of my security guards."

"Why?" He ask like he's forced to do so.

Ally scrunched her forehead as she began to say, "He let a bunch of guys into my dressing room. I wasn't changing or anything but what if I was, right? He didn't even knock to warn me he was bringing a whole heard of guys into my dressing room."

"Wow."

That was how the entire evening went. Ally asking questions and him answering with one syllable words. Something was up that he was hiding from me. I'm sure it can't be that bad.

They were nearing the end of the night and were walking down the beach hand in hand. The breeze of the night air was at just the right speed and temperature. The grains of sand between their toes tickled their nerves. Ally was holding her heels in her right hand while Austin was holding his shoes in his left hand. "This is nice." Ally said.

"Yep." Austin answered.

Ally stopped at her final steps. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." He shrugged his shoulders.

"Austin, I've known you for seventeen years. I know when you're not feeling like yourself. I feel like you're separating yourself from me. Distancing yourself from me. If there's something wrong I want to help. If you did something," She grabbed both his hands in her's. Her chocolate eyes glistened in the moonlight, "You know I won't judge you anyway shape or form. You are my best friend and boyfriend who I love with so much passion. I love you unconditionally so please tell me." Ally had so much hope for their relationship in the future but if he could just share what was on his mind she'd be able to have a clearer mind and a relationship that could grow into more that what it is right now. Austin never hides anything from her which is why it is such a surprise to her that he'd keep something from her. She continued to ramble on, "Austin, please tell me what's-"

"We need to break up."

Ally's heart sank. "I'm sorry. It sounded like you just said that we need to break up." Ally held on to the hope that she misheard him.

Austin squeezed her hand, "Ally. I'm really sorry-"

Ally moved her hands out of his grip unable to process what was currently going on. Her lower lip trembled ready to break.

"I wanted to tell you before but-"

"What the fuck?" She was totally and utterly thrown off balance.

"It's just that-"

"You can't do this! Not after all we've been through!" Tears started forming in her eyes.

"Ally, please don't cry-"

"What the fuck do you think I'm going to do? Be all happy and gracious that you are breaking my heart?"

"Ally. I didn't want it to end like this."

"It did!"

"Can we just talk about this?"

"You don't deserve it!" He puts his hand on her shoulder. She slaps his hand away, "Don't fucking touch me you bastard!" She starts to cry harder. "Why would you do this? Why would you do this to us? How could you do this to us? We were talking about getting married!"

"Ally, this isn't the relationship I was looking for. We were going to fast-"

"Too fast? Are you fucking kidding me? We were dating for two years!"

"Ally I-" Ally couldn't stand to watch him anymore. She couldn't listen to the bullshit words that were to come out of his mouth. She ran. And she ran fast. "Ally!" Austin called after her. She eventually found the playpark and weeped on the swing. The wind picked up and started to get a little more chillier the later the night got. I should have brought my coat. Why didn't I bring my coat? OH….right. I'm such an idiot!

Ally saw a figure in the corner of her eye. She looked up with a tear stained face. It was Austin.

"Will you just leave me alone. Don't you get it? I don't want to see you right now."

"I owe you a conversation."

Ally stood up in anger, "No, I don't need to hear it again! I get it! You stopped having feelings for me- I don't want this." She looks up and looks away like something sharp has stabbed her. "I can't even look at you." She looks back up at him. "My eyes are in your direction," She gestures to in front of herself, "But I don't even see you. I don't even know who you are anymore." She closes her eyes in disgust. She turns around and starts to walk away when Austin's hand lands on her shoulder. She turns around and slaps him right across the face. "I hate you!"

She ran to her house as fast as she could in the freezing cold wind. She reached her house as a million thoughts went through her head only one stood out, I can't be here! My tour is next month anyways…

The only thing she could do at this moment was leave. "I need to get out of here." She said to herself through cries.

She flopped down the stairs and picked up the suitcase and headed to the airport. On her way to the airport, in the back of a taxi cab, she called Trish. She picked up on the third ring. "Hello?"

"Hey Trish."

"What's up? You sound all down."

"I'm heading to Peru."

"Isn't that your first stop on your tour?"

"It doesn't start for another month but I decided to leave early."

"Oh, cool. Hey, can I talk to Austin for a second."

A tear fell down her cheek, "You can't."

"Why?" She half laughed.

"He broke up with me. I'm leaving alone."

"What happened?" You could hear the concern in her voice.

"Everything. I'll talk to you when I land. Bye."

"Ally-" The line went dead.

The only thing that made Ally happy was that she was going to be on a different continent that Austin- the EX boyfriend.

Yep! It's another story! I came up with this idea a few days ago actually! I thought on it and it turned out great for the first chapter! So I really hope you enjoyed this because I spent a lot of time on it! Thanks for reading! Reviews are greatly appreciated! Thank you!