Retaliation Retaliation
Retaliation
My idea of what Bella would do if Edward didn't come back.
It's been four months since Edward left.
The time I'm spending with Jacob is helping to ease the pain of living without him, but the fact still remains that he left and the pain of it grows day by day. With all the werewolves out searching for Victoria, I don't get to spend nearly enough time with Jacob.
I'm left with too much time to think and ponder and dwell on the ache in my chest. These long stretches of time were dangerous for me because they made it harder not to think of painful memories.
It was one such afternoon when I was over at Billy's house, when I got fed up with waiting. I couldn't just sit there, trying not to think about anything. I had to get out of the 500 sq ft building.
I told Billy I was going out to the beach, by La Push, got in my truck and drove there. When I got to the beach, I shut off the engine and just sat there, actually enjoying the quiet for once. I loved this truck. Yes, it was old and had a 50 mph speed limit, but it was sturdy. It could stand up to alot and still get me where I wanted to go. I smiled at the memory of how much it had stood up to, demolishing a huge blue van when Tyler had crashed into my truck in the school parking lot. I would have been demolished as well if it hadn't been for-
Oh no
Stop right there, danger zone.
I huched over, gasping as the pain started to increase in my chest.
After a few minutes, I forced myself to sit up, though the pain continued. I had to ger out of this truck.
As I walked along the beach, picking up pebbles at random and throwing them into the surf, I started thinking again. I wondered why the pain felt so much worse than loosing just one person, even someone as important as the center of my personal universe. I realized that it felt so bad because I hadn't just lost him, I had lost my future family as well. Alice, Emmett, Jasper, Carlisle, Esme... I had lost sisters, brothers, and wonderful parents. And not even just my future family; I had lost the future itself. An entire lifetime that I would never, could never have now.
Or could I?
I could hear Edward's words now, not his voice, just a monotone that didn't hurt me to hear- The Volturi are a very powerful family of our kind. They are the closest thing in our world to a royal family. Well, I thought starting to get excited, If they were as powerful as he said they were, surely the Volturi could change me into a vampire if I convinced them to.
I ran to my truck, stumbling twice in my haste, and was soon on my way home. I stopped by Billy's just long enough to make sure Jake wasn't coming home any time soon and to tell Billy where I was going. As I was about to go, though, I changed my mind and left Jake a note in his room:
Jake,
Thank you so much for all your kindness and friendship. It's helped me get through these passed few months and feel more like myself again. It's not enough, though. I'm still damaged mostly, and that won't be changing any time soon. Don't blame yourself; I just have to do this. You deserve someone better than me; someone who isn't a wreck and who can return your feelings the way you deserve. So let me go. Don't look for me. Finds someone worthy of you and be happy.
Goodbye,
Bella
After folding up the note and leaving it on Jake's bed, I continued on to Charlie's house. Looking at the clock, I realized that he'd be home in half an hour. I didn't have much time. I rushed up to my room, grabbing the biggest bag I could find. I stuffed two drawers worth of clothing into my bag along with my bag of toilettries, knowing I would be glad to have them later. After retrieving my stash of cash from under my mattress and getting my passport and other stuff in the car, I booked a plane ticket for Italy, using my dad's credit card. It didn't really matter to me that he'd know where I'd gone. The last thing I did was leave Charlie a note:
Dad
I'm sorry. I know you thought I was getting better, but the memories just hurt too much. I think the only way I can heal is to escape this life. I need to do this on my own, so please don't follow me. Also, please tell Renee and keep her from following me too. She is going to be so hurt after this. I love you. I'm sorry.
Bella
I knew that he would be devastated, but I hoped this would soften the blow. I truely hoped that he would follow my wishes, because if he didn't, it would be very dangerous for us both. But I couldn't think about that now. I had a plane to catch.
In two hours I was on a flight to Italy and my future.
I know I'm so mean aren't I? Sorry about the cliffhanger. If you want to know what happens to Bella in Italy, Well then you're just going to have to COMMENT about it and when you do comment, please be nice; this is my first story on Fanfiction. Oh, and sorry about this chapter being so short. I just wanted to put some of my idea out there to see what people think. COMMENT PLEASE!!;)