Hurt
I hurt myself today. To see if i still feel...
A sad figure sits on his floor in the corner of a darkened room. The silver object in his hand brings comfort to the turmoil in his head. He places it in his shoulder, cuttihg through his skin. Pain fills the emptiness in his soul.
I focus on the pain, the only thing thats real. The needle tears a hole. The old famaliar sting
Thoughts of someone fill his head. Friend of foe? he asks himself. Hatred fills his heart as tears fall from his eyes. "Foe" he whispers.
Try to kill it all away. But i remember everything.
He rolls down his sleeve, stands up and walks to the door. He opens it to see his foe, about to knock. His foe walks into the room, pushing him back.
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Duo stared into Heero's eyes. A darkness still gripped his heart and soul. "Who am i Heero?" he asked, touching his shoulder. "You are Shinigami, Duo. You kill or be killed" Heero answered. "Everyone i know dies. That is why i dont want to be in a relationship with you. Im not good enough to be with you." "Yes you are. I love you...Duo."
What have i become, my sweetest friend? Everyone i know, goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
Heero pushed Duo onto the bed and layed ontop of him, kissing his neck and biting his ear. "Heero i am not good enough for you, dont you understand. I am a lying cheating little whore who died long ago. Stop trying make me into something im not. Im not some great person who shines when i enter a room. Im dirt Heero." "Shut up Duo. You are a good person who is capable of loving. You are who you are." "But you dont accept that or me. You dont respect me." Heero started to pull Duo's clothes off of him. Duo tried to resist, but Heero didnt let him. He started to slide Duo's shirt off of him but Duo stopped him. He went for his pants, pulling them off and exposing creamy white skin, full of scars. "I still dont see how you could have done all that to yourself" Heero protested. "You wouldnt even if you tried. Get it over already so i can go and get sick."
I wear this crown of shit, upon my liers' chair. Full of broken thoughts i cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time, the feeling disappears. You are someone else, I am still right here.
Heero forced himself into Duo, pounding him hard and fast. Duo stared out the window, a blank expression on his face. "Why dont you make noise? You always made noises." "Its not worth it Heero. Oh god why dont you see that? This isnt love. I cant love you Heero." "Duo stop talking like that! we were something special before!" "No we werent. The only thing we did was fuck. I wouldnt even call it fucking. I feel like some whore you just call over when you want to hit it. Its not even pleasurable anymore. Your wasting your time if your trying to change my mind about us. Im leaving in the morning and im not coming back." "You wont leave me here alone. You need me." "No i do not. I dont need your false love."
What have i become, my sweetest friend? Everyone i know goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, i will make you hurt.
Heero rolled off of Duo who made a run for the bathroom. Heero could hear the sounds of Duo vomiting. Shortly after, Duo returned to the bedroom to find Heero asleep. He quietly gathered his things and headed to the door. "Goodbye my love" he whispered before leaving the house.
If i could start again, a million miles away. I will keep myself. I will find a way.
I hurt myself today. To see if i still feel...
A sad figure sits on his floor in the corner of a darkened room. The silver object in his hand brings comfort to the turmoil in his head. He places it in his shoulder, cuttihg through his skin. Pain fills the emptiness in his soul.
I focus on the pain, the only thing thats real. The needle tears a hole. The old famaliar sting
Thoughts of someone fill his head. Friend of foe? he asks himself. Hatred fills his heart as tears fall from his eyes. "Foe" he whispers.
Try to kill it all away. But i remember everything.
He rolls down his sleeve, stands up and walks to the door. He opens it to see his foe, about to knock. His foe walks into the room, pushing him back.
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Duo stared into Heero's eyes. A darkness still gripped his heart and soul. "Who am i Heero?" he asked, touching his shoulder. "You are Shinigami, Duo. You kill or be killed" Heero answered. "Everyone i know dies. That is why i dont want to be in a relationship with you. Im not good enough to be with you." "Yes you are. I love you...Duo."
What have i become, my sweetest friend? Everyone i know, goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
Heero pushed Duo onto the bed and layed ontop of him, kissing his neck and biting his ear. "Heero i am not good enough for you, dont you understand. I am a lying cheating little whore who died long ago. Stop trying make me into something im not. Im not some great person who shines when i enter a room. Im dirt Heero." "Shut up Duo. You are a good person who is capable of loving. You are who you are." "But you dont accept that or me. You dont respect me." Heero started to pull Duo's clothes off of him. Duo tried to resist, but Heero didnt let him. He started to slide Duo's shirt off of him but Duo stopped him. He went for his pants, pulling them off and exposing creamy white skin, full of scars. "I still dont see how you could have done all that to yourself" Heero protested. "You wouldnt even if you tried. Get it over already so i can go and get sick."
I wear this crown of shit, upon my liers' chair. Full of broken thoughts i cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time, the feeling disappears. You are someone else, I am still right here.
Heero forced himself into Duo, pounding him hard and fast. Duo stared out the window, a blank expression on his face. "Why dont you make noise? You always made noises." "Its not worth it Heero. Oh god why dont you see that? This isnt love. I cant love you Heero." "Duo stop talking like that! we were something special before!" "No we werent. The only thing we did was fuck. I wouldnt even call it fucking. I feel like some whore you just call over when you want to hit it. Its not even pleasurable anymore. Your wasting your time if your trying to change my mind about us. Im leaving in the morning and im not coming back." "You wont leave me here alone. You need me." "No i do not. I dont need your false love."
What have i become, my sweetest friend? Everyone i know goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, i will make you hurt.
Heero rolled off of Duo who made a run for the bathroom. Heero could hear the sounds of Duo vomiting. Shortly after, Duo returned to the bedroom to find Heero asleep. He quietly gathered his things and headed to the door. "Goodbye my love" he whispered before leaving the house.
If i could start again, a million miles away. I will keep myself. I will find a way.