Something I wrote ages ago that I found the other day, based on agent afloat. Just a little drabble for you to enjoy.
Dear Abby,
I guess I should start with I miss you but that doesn't seem to be enough. I think about you every minute though, just like you told me to. I'm mainly wishing I was home. I guess I may sound like a child but I don't like it here. No one likes me and its microscopic. I can't go up on deck much either, it's too brisk and cold for my lungs.
How is everyone there? Probie and Ducky? I got a letter from Ducky saying his mother wasn't well. Could you do me a favour and get some roses and take her them for me, tell her they are from the Italian Gigolo. How is Ziva now she's back? I hope she has at least began to heal since Jenny's death. At least she has got all of you there to support her. I'd ask everyone is doing with the cases, or I guess the real question would be how they are managing the case load without me but I think I'm afraid to know the answer.
If honesty is the name of the game in this letter then I gotta say it hurts Abbs. To be stuck here without you all, knowing that Gibbs fought for each and every one of you but me. I had thought I had thought I had come to mean something to him but the fact is I'm still on this god forsaken boat.
I've got another favour to ask Abbs. In one month my time on this boat is up. I have sent out several resumes and been offered a job. I need someone to go to my apartment and start packing up my things. I thought about getting some company to sort it for me but I wouldn't trust them like I trust you. I know this may be a shock to you Abbs and will upset you but I need your help, please. I bet you even get annoyed with me but I cannot do this anymore. I'm a field agent for one and I don't want to be sent to another damn boat, but more important than that being with NCIS will just remind me of the choice Gibbs made. He chose not to bring me back and I can't live in the shadow of that choice knowing he fought for everyone but me. It would be best for me to move up and onwards. Then maybe I can recover from Gibbs breaking my heart.
Love Tony