Hey everyone! I'm Tenshi212, and this is going to be my first time publishing a story on , and I hope you all like it. ^^ So this story is going to be a mute female Hikaru story. I know that some like to have polls for potential pairings, however; I will not be doing that. Any choices made will be my own. I am using Hikari for the name because it is the feminine version of Hikaru.

Like I said, this will be a fem-Hikaru story; it's also going to be an alternate universe. It WILL differ from the original.

"Normal talking"

'Thoughts/Sai's voice'

Writing

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE CHARACTERS OF HIKARU NO GO! The only thing I won is the plot and characters that I make up.

…Hikari's point of view…

'I never realized how little I care for my life at this point in time. My life was never hard, and I managed to get by without trying. I was never alone, although I was always lonely.' This is what my thoughts turn to as I struggle to stay awake during my Social Studies teachers' lecture. 'The only thing that was worth anything to me, before the incident, was my friendship with Akari.' My name is Hikari, I have short black hair, which is dyed blonde in the front, black eyes, and I am wearing a white, long sleeved turtle neck sweater over the boy's uniform of my primary school. The bell rang just then, and gathering my books, I walked quickly out of the classroom hiding my eyes with my golden bangs I glanced at my old best friend 'But now that friendship is nonexistent. I've held back nearly all of my emotions for so long, I've forgotten just when I started.' Tears begin to brim in my eyes, and I let them fall. 'Now my emotions are slipping through the grasp I once had.'

Lighting flashed and with it came the rain. I ran to her grandfather's house, which was just ahead, and remembered that Ojii-chan wouldn't be home so early in the day. I ran straight to the store room since Ojii-chan never locks it.

…Akari's point of view…

I watch as my best friend walks out of the class room. Hikari had been constantly pushing Akari farther and farther away. And even though the two hardly talked during the day anymore, they would still walk home together every day after school. In a sour mood, I finally left the school building; I noticed that Hikari was taking a different route home than normal. Worrying for my friend, I trailed Hikari, from a good distance. When the rain hit, I ran to keep up with Hikari who had begun running. Hikari ran into a yard with a large house and a separate building, I followed Hikari as she entered the building separate from the house.

…Hikari's point of view…

I glanced around the room piled high with boxes, and noticed one had been recently added. Curiosity getting the better of me, I opened the box to see a stained goban. Thinking that such a pretty board shouldn't be in that state, I searched in my bag for a white handkerchief. When I found the cloth, I began to scrub the stains furiously, hoping to be able to save at least part of the beauty this board once held.

'Can you see it?' asked an excited, but unfamiliar voice.

'Who's there?' I thought glancing around, 'There shouldn't be anyone else in here.'

'Can you hear my voice?' the same voice asked slightly more excited. I began looking franticly around her, afraid of what might happen. 'You can hear my voice, can't you?' the voice asked again, somehow even more excited. I backed away from the goban in pure terror now; falling on my butt in my desperation. 'You can! You can! All powerful God, I thank you.' the voice shouted with glee. Suddenly a feminine looking man, with sharp purple eyes, long purpled tinted, black hair tied back with a red ribbon, and was dressed in the clothes that were popular in the Heian period, appeared on top of the goban. 'I will now return... Return to the living world.' He said ending solemnly. After this spectacle, everything faded to black.

…Akari's point of view…

As I opened the door, I saw Hikari digging inside of one of the many boxes stacked along the walls. Hikari hauled a heavy wooden table out of the box, and began to wipe the dust off of in. The longer she cleaned, the more jittery she became, she twitched every now and then, her eyes growing wider by the minute. Minutes later, Hikari backed away from the table she was once polishing, and collapsed on her rear. Seconds after, Hikari's head hit the ground. I scrambled to Hikari's side.

"Hikari!? Hikari!" I screamed as she fumbled for my cell phone, "Hikari, Wake up!"

Finally finding my phone, I quickly dialed 119 for an ambulance "Moshi-moshi. How may I help you?" female voice asked from the phone.

"My friend has collapsed, I think we are in her Ojii-san's storage building, the address is Tokyo-to chō 3-banchi-no 5."

"Help is on the way." Said the lady on the other side of the phone, "What conditions was your friend under when they collapsed?"

"She was polishing a table like object that she pulled from one of the boxes, and then started freaking out, she never said anything, but she was… glancing around franticly and wide eyed." I said trying to remain calm.

"Was there anyone else in the room, someone that neither of you knew?"

"No ma'am, we were the only two in the room."

"Is there any change in your friend's condition?"

"No ma'am. She is still unconscious. I can hear the ambulance now."

"Okay then I will let you go to explain to them what happened. Sayonara."

"Sayonara" I ended the call and went to wave the paramedics into the storage building.

…Hikari's point of view…

My eyes opened, and instead of being in her ojii-chan's storage building, she found herself in the middle of a field full of sakura trees. 'What, where am I?' thought groggily.

'We are inside of your mind.' said an unknown, masculine voice.

Hikari jumped at the sudden sound. 'W-who a-are y-you?' she asked, eyes wide. In front of her, under a nearby sakura tree stood the man who had come out of the goban. 'Wait can you hear my thoughts?'

'I am Fujiwara-no Sai,' he said, "and yes, I can hear your thoughts, we are inside of your mind.

'Sai… It's nice to meet you, I am Shindou Hikari… You said that we are in my mind.' he nodded, 'How are you inside of my mind?'

'I'm not sure of that myself.' he said.

'Has this happened before?' I asked.

'Only once,' he said wistfully, 'It is a long story.'

'Would you mind telling me?'

He sat down then, 'As I said, it is a long story.' Hikari was about to protest when he spoke again, 'However; I will tell you.' He gestured for me to take a seat across from him.

With a deep breath, he began his story. 'I taught Go for the Emperor in the Heian capital. I played go every-day, and was so happy.' He said with a small smile on his face, which turned into a grimace as he continued, 'There was another who also served as the Emperor's Go teacher. And one day he commented to the Emperor, "Only one instructor is needed. Why don't we play and the winner can remain?"

'So you played him, who won?' I asked.

'The game was even. With everyone watching, it was a coincidence that only I saw it, a white stone had been somehow mixed into his basket. It's rare, but sometimes one of your stones gets mixed with your opponent's.' he paused, his facial features contorting with the emotions he felt, 'Of course, that has nothing to do with the match so usually it just ends with the person saying, "Here's one of your stones." and handing it over. But he…' his voice shaky now, 'Waited for the right moment and… added it to his captured stones.'

'So he cheated, what happened next?' my interest growing.

'When I raised my voice… he started shouting, "Hey, you just added a black stone that was in your basket into your captured ones!" I tried to protest, but he cut me off. "I saw you! While everyone was focused on the board, you tried to cheat!" the Emperor intervened by saying, "I don't even want to thing that something like that would happen in my presence. CONTINUE!"' Sai paused, trying to recompose himself.

I was about to say that Sai didn't need to continue, when he continued, 'With my mind still unraveled…I lost. Branded as a cheater, I was driven from the capital. I no longer wished to live… I drowned myself two days later.' Hikari gasped, and began to reach out to lay a reassuring hand on his shoulder, but he waved her hand away. 'My soul was unable to rise to heaven.' his smile was slowly returning, 'I wanted to play more Go.' I felt the need to say something, anything, but I couldn't.

The goban from before appeared in between Hikari and Sai, 'My spirit attached itself to this goban. Time passed until I heard the voice of a young boy. "Nobody else can see the stains. Why am I the only one who can see these stains which look like tears?" I was so happy. "Young child," I said, "if you are able to see my tears of sorrow…then let me occupy a part of your mind." The child was interested in Go, and took me in willingly, and I was able to play as much Go as I wished. He would have become a great Go player; however, he died of disease at the age of 34. His name was Honinbo Shusaku. He was a good person…' he trailed off, the goban disappearing as the story ended.

'I don't know who that is, but it must have been his blood that I saw.'

'Yes.'

'So the reason you're here now is because you want to play more Go?'

'Yes. For I have…Yet to achieve the Hand of God.' he said seriously.

'What is the Hand of God?' my curiosity getting the best of me.

'The Hand of God,' Sai said, once again seriously, 'means the perfect game of Go.'

'How hard would this move be to achieve?'

'No one has ever had a perfect game of Go. So probably very difficult.'

'This sounds interesting so I will allow you to play go every now and then, even teach me if you want.' Sai's eyes got really huge and tears of joy began to pour from his eyes. He would have hugged me had I not immediately recoiled at the gesture. 'I have one condition, please never touch me. A ghost inside of my mind or not, I don't want anyone to touch me.

Sai's eyes scrunched up in confusion, 'Hikari, may I ask why? Forgive me if I am overstepping my boundaries, but we will be sharing the same mind, and I feel if we get this out of the way now, I can potentially help you-'

'I don't feel like I can talk about it right now. Please don't ask again, I will tell you eventually.' I said harshly. I knew I was probably being too harsh, but since the incident I had stopped caring about the feelings of others. I noticed my hands were clenched tightly in my lap, and began to unclench them. I wished to be anywhere but here. Slowly the field of sakura disappeared, and became darkness.