I don't own Naruto, although we all wish we did.
I wrote a story about Shino because I have an attraction to anything that loves bugs I REALLY LOVE FEEDBACK! My name is Brooke, don't try and be nice, honesty is awesome. Anything that can aid me in the future achievements of my stories, that I have recently decided to post, would be brilliant. Any spelling mistakes...TELL ME!... I am so paranoid about my spelling. I want to write another story and I would like to do something with Shino and Tenten, there isn't enough ShinoXTen 3 Love them both. Also I want to work on some ShinoXHinata what do you think?
If I'm taking a while with my stories, remember:
Patience is a virtue, try it if you can.
Found only in a woman, and never in a man.
...I'm so sure I spelt that patience incorrectly...anyone want to check for me : )
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I genuinely hate winter; the whole idea of freezing your ass off for months does not seem very appealing to me. Personally if I had it my way, I would keep spring and fall, only because they both represent life. Spring, first the trees, flowers and nature bloom to make scenery that people pay money to see. The fall comes along and kills the beauty and wonder of it all; but the exceptional attractiveness of it all is still there, but it is just under our feet.
We walk over it and not pay any more attention than that. I really wonder sometimes if I controlled the weather, what would my perfect day would be like. Then I realise that the weather can not affect my way of life, it takes one person to change it, yourself. In my case I had many help me, but I was too stubborn to acknowledge the help that was being held out to me. I assumed it all had to be done by yourself; I know that by yourself you can still ask for help.
When winter decides to creep its little head out into my world, I go into hibernation. No one will see me for months, and then all of a sudden I reappear, like nothing ever happened. My mother always told me that it is not healthy to hide away just because it is cold outside. I tell her the cold air is freezing my kidneys, she immediately tells me to go lie down and keep warm. I feel sort bad using her own weird beliefs against her, but at least she does not complain about my lack of attendance at her 'dinner parties' or as I like to think of them as, as her 'bring-all-the-devil-women-from-the-neibourhood-and-talk-about-how-I-should-be-having-children-soon dinners'.
I am barely 17; I believe it is my mother's way of saying 'you are old enough to have a kid so get out of my house', my mother had me at 18 and she assumes I am going to be like her, but I have not even been with a guy let alone have a serious relationship. I would sometimes be tricked into going to her dinner parties, she would tell me she was very sick and she felt lonely. Of course after the first eight times I rushed there to comfort her I began to see pattern and decided to steer clear.
I work at a book store, although I have an obsession with music. The makeup I wear is usually very basic, I personally like the cat-eye affect. People have a habit of calling me weird; I just appreciate not looking like everyone else. I have finished my education. I have aspirations of becoming a teacher or an artist; it is either one or the other.
Personally, I know that they both might be hard to achieve. My best friend Kye is a ninja, a talented one at that, he lives in Kohona, It's in the village hidden in the leaf, and I will be seeing him soon. He is two years my senior and takes stupid risks whenever he can. He is a cool looking guy with his messy brown hair and his blue eyes. I do not find him that attractive that I would date him; I keep him around because he has a level head. He is good if I need to talk with someone, a genuine friend.
I found after my father's death, not too long ago, my mother died, spiritually she did. I have tried over the years to get girls as friends but the overall bitchiness of them, always repelled me. I do not see how guys can deal with that, I also cannot see how girls manage to live with the overall protectiveness and clinginess of guys. I wish I could find a guy that knew the meaning of being 'non-clingy' did not necessarily mean 'I do not care, I only want one thing'. The world is not perfect, and if it was, I would have never been born. I'm the epitome of being imperfect and flawed; my mother always tried telling me I was perfect in my own way. I believe that way is the fact I am imperfect, therefore making me perfect.
It may sound stupid but I hold onto thoughts that help myself esteem, especially after being told I was 'big boned' by my mother. Please, we all know it means 'larger than the rest of the kids'. I know she was being nice and now I know after years of self-hatred, I am not 'big boned' but 'big chested' and 'big hipped'. I would have preferred those terms, but seeing as I was in year 3 and a mound of dough, I could not blame her for trying.
I notice that every time I wake up, I am either on my face or half hanging off the bed. I cannot just wake up like the rest of people can I? Annoying habits tend to run in my family, such as my mother has a habit of not being able to keep embarrassing childhood stories to her own self. We were at a tea house in the village hidden in the mist and my mother turned around to travellers, and told them my whole life up till I was 12 when I stopped doing embarrassing things.
There was a blonde kid that just laughed and a girl with pink hair that kept on smirking, also the older guy they were with which had gravity-defying white hair laughed. The only person that did not even listen to my mother was a kid with raven black hair and onyx eyes. At that moment I wanted to end my life, never would I face humiliation like that again. I decided that I could never be a ninja, it would mean I would have to live everyday like it was my last, I live everyday hoping it's my last. Nothing will change that, nothing. "Are you alright Kaida? You seem to be drifting into your own little world."
Suddenly the cart we were riding on hit a pothole causing the cart to jump and me to nearly fall out the back. Our family travels, my mother, myself, my older sister and my younger brother. Our father passed away a month ago and my mum could not live in the village that said my mum caused his death. Before that we had come from the village hidden in the waterfall, then to the village hidden in the mist. We are on our way to the village hidden in the Leaf, I have never been there before, and I am hoping they will allow us in.
We had to prove ourselves to every village, the Mist allowed us in but every single day they had someone come check on us. The privacy sucked and I could find that everywhere I went I always had a ninja accompany me to make sure we weren't doing bad things. My older sister, Uta, who is now 25, had a ninja stalk her for months, she just thought he was there to make sure she was not doing anything she should not be doing, and turns out he was very interested in her, in a romantic manner.
I couldn't blame him, my sister is a beauty, and she has long orange hair, with deep blue eyes. Uta has very pale skin, and small lips, but her eyes are quite large. She doesn't have many curves, but she looks like a woman none the less. The ninja did not realise that my sister didn't go for his kind, as in the male species. Uta was interested in women, had been since she was 11 or 12. It freaked her out until she realised there was nothing wrong with her mental state.
My brother, Natsu, is very talented when it comes to carving wood and making furniture. He always wanted to be a ninja when he was older but due to him being blind, our mother wrapped him in cotton and told him to not move. My brother has never been in the sea, my mother assumes he could hurt himself or drown. I keep telling her that he may be blind but he's not a 2 year old. It is funny seeing as he is allowed to use sharp instruments to create cravings but cannot go into water. Natsu is 2 years younger than me, making him 15, but he is over 6 foot 4 and perfect capable of scaring people even when he doesn't mean to. He also has pale skin, but he has gotten a tan from all the moving. Natsu has my mother's orange hair, but he looks like my father.
My mother, bless her soul is very scared since our father died. Michiko is her name; my father fell in love with her at first sight. I couldn't blame him, my mother's dark blue eyes and tanned skin would make anyone fall in love with her. She is 40 and looks like a 30 year old, age doesn't catch up to the Nori women. I take after my mother, except my eyes are royal blue not dark blue and my hair is a curly mess. I hate everything about it, it's not as curly as it used to be but it still has ringlets at the ends, it reaches just below my hips but higher than my waist. I have my father's hair colour, dark blonde, nothing really exciting. The Nori women are known for their spicy attitudes, and firm beliefs, I'm glad I'm just like my mum.
"Hold on!" Yelled Hibino, he is the old man that is taking us to the village hidden in the leaf, our mother was prepared, and she had sent a letter to the leafs Hokage. We told her that we would be waiting in a small village, an hour from Kohona, and we would wait for her reply. We haven't received a letter back, but our eagle isn't very trustworthy or smart. Suddenly the cart hit another hole but the force flipped it over, I couldn't remember what happened after that, but I could hear screaming. The crashing noises and screaming echoed through my head, and then darkness took over.
Beep...beep...beep...beep...beep
My eyes felt so heavy, and the surface I was lying on wasn't the most comfy. I tried to move my leg but I couldn't, I slowly opened my eyes to see an empty hospital room. There was a heart monitor making annoying beeping noises, I should kill myself and then the noise won't annoy me. I moved my head to the right and saw a little button with 'press for assistance' printed above it. I slowly raised my arm and push the button, it didn't make any noise but in seconds I had a nurse coming in to check on me. "I see you are awake, what do you remember my dear?" I stared at her while she was attending to my annoying sidekick of a machine. "My name is Kaida, and something happened to the cart we were riding in. What happened?" The nurse looked at me and shook her head, I couldn't breathe.
"Where's my family?" The medic cleared her throat. "My dear, your cart flipped over because someone was trying to kill your family, unfortunately your mother and older sister didn't make it, but your brother is alive and in a coma. But He should be awake in the next week." I could hear a loud noise crash through my head and I realised I was screaming.
The Medic jumped and tried to hold me down as I thrashed and kicked, "I need some help in here!" she cried as I broke the straps on my ankles and pulled free of the hospital bed, the drips were ripped out of my arms as I went for the door. I flung it open and was faced with a pink hair girl, she didn't look very happy. "Kaida you need to get back here, you're still healing!" The first medic was yelling, the pinkette tried grabbing me but I ducked and ran down the corridor, I was thankful that they had double up on the bed wear so no one could see anything.
I nearly laughed as I saw two men walk around the corner, they looked exactly the same. Both wearing Green Spandex suits, I had never seen anything like it before. "Lee!Get her!" The pink girl called from behind me, the youngest looked at me and we both made eye contact. He was a ninja, I knew it. Shit.
I was metres from them when I decided to change tactics; I could sense the pinkette at my heels. As we both rounded the corner I saw a corridor full of people, they all looked annoyed. There was a man with a high collared jacket and dark glasses, sitting next to him was a beautiful girl with dark hair and clear eyes, it reminded me of Natsu and I couldn't stop the tears from falling. "Someone get that girl!" the pinkette cried as I jolted to a stop right in front of the green men, I turned around and ran back, just in time to coat hanger the pinkette and take off in the other direction. I didn't see her fall but I heard the crack and the sound of people go silent.
Rushing down the corridor I came from I saw a flash and then I was on the ground, pinned under a green man. I kicked and thrashed but he knelt beside me and held my arms. "Sakura! I have completed your order, I have stopped the girl." His eyes looked like they held a though of accomplishment. "Good work, Lee. Now next time you will not allow her hurt anyone else, you have to think of these things Lee."
The young man looked down at me and smiled, I was frozen in shock. "Yes, Gai-Sensei! I shall be better and quicker next time." He practically yelled. "Please...where is my brother...and my family...the medic said..." I couldn't finish the sentence when I heard the furious pinkette screaming at all the other medics to get me pinned down. She was metres away and then she finally reached me and knelt down. "I understand you must be going through a rough time but I will not allow you to run havoc through this hospital do you understand!" I closed my eyes and let the tears run down my cheek. "Sorry, where is Natsu?" I asked meekly, I was silently begging her to let me see him.
The pinkette looked down at me and ran a glowing green hand over my body. "It seems you have no severe injuries and you're capable of running..." she paused and rubbed the back of her head. "...and hitting, I will take you to his room but you should get tidied up first, come on I'll help you." We walked back to my room and walked into the bathroom. "Where are my clothes?" The pinkette laughed and wiped her hand over her forehead. "Your clothes were destroyed, I got you some new clothes, and they're neutral." I nodded and went over to the pile of clothing, one second Sakura was behind me and the next she was gone. I searched through the clothing, and picked up a black singlet with a low V-neck and a pair of black short-shorts.
The shoes were black slip on's, very basic but quite comfortable. There was a black jacket with the Leaf symbol on the back, I felt rude after running through the hospital screaming bloody murder and being allowed to wear their emblem. I had a quick shower; it worked wonders for my tight muscles. I got out after a few moments.
I turned to the mirror and saw some scratches on my neck but nothing major, and then next thing shocked me. My hair was a complete mess; I must have looked like a crazy cat lady running through the hospital with this hair. I brushed it down and ran my fingers through it so it didn't look so messy, it worked. My hair has perfect little ringlets forming at the bottom. The one thing I like about my hair was that it was cooperative when I really needed it to be. In the end I knew I couldn't get any better, so I gave up on making an okay looking person amazingly beautiful because it wasn't working.
I went out into the corridor and saw Sakura standing there with another medic checking her head. "I'm sorry Sakura; I was just trying to find my brother." I looked down at the clean floors and she chuckled. I looked up to see her frowning angrily. "It is alright, I don't care that you humiliated me in front of all the ninja's that have grown to respect me and know I'm not a little girl that doesn't easily get knocked on her ass." She got louder.
"When I say stay in bed I mean it, haven't you got any clue how bad you could have been injured? But don't listen to me because I'm only the professional medic and you're just a little girl who is her own god! Stop thinking only about yourself, you spoilt brat!" I saw the group of medic staring in our direction, as well as the group of ninja's. I felt humiliated once again, I'm not even short, and I am at least a foot taller than this pinkette. So there is no need to call me little girl.
"I understand where you're coming from and I apologise for being rude." The last thing I wanted was people to hate me around here. "Can I please see my brother?" Sakura nodded and began walking towards the room. The halls were quite bland and boring; I've never really liked hospitals. I figure people are born here and people die here, it's the last place or the first place you are. I wanted to help people but I don't think I could wonder around a hospital all day. We reached a door that was on the opposite side of a room that was being used for medical check up's of all the ninjas. As Sakura and walked around the corner, 17 pairs of eyes all turned to us. Some flickered away, faster than they looked at us and some wavered. One I noticed was a pair of bright blue eyes. "Sakura-Chan, are you alright? I saw you and her and...Are you concuss?" I saw Sakura's veins pop out of her forehead, she was about to bash the poor kid over the head.
Before I knew it the blonde had pulled back rubbing the top of his head. "Ouch Sakura-chan." The boy looked between Sakura and me. "Who's the girl?" I didn't realise girl was a name most of them use. "Um, I'm Kaida. You are?" The boy scoffed as if I should know. "I am Naruto Uzumaki, future Hokage." Sakura just rolled her eyes and continued to lead me into the room. The lights were dim, and the blinds were open just a little.
The only thing I really noticed was Natsu in the bed; his chest slowly rose and fell as the machine beeped. "Sakura how do you deal with it? How do you deal with all the death in the hospital?" Sakura looked up from the chart she was observing and gave me a half smile. "You get used to it after a while, I wanted to do something that would help my team, not hinder it and I have found that in being a medical ninja." I nodded and the conversation died from there on in.
I sat down next to his bed and lightly placed my hand over his. He was so warm and I couldn't help but imagine him wrapping me in one of his crushing hugs and kissing the top of my head. The pain in my throat radiated from my heart. I just did the only thing I was really good at, I started talking. "Hey Natsu, I know you may or may not be able to hear me but I'm going to talk to you anyway. I don't care if I sound like a crazy person." I heard a light cough at the door; Sakura cleared her throat and walked out the door to give us privacy.
"Natsu, Mother and Uta have passed. They're with father now, but I still miss them dearly. I don't think it's hit me yet, them being dead. I'm hoping I'm going to wake up and find them standing at the end of my bed asking if I'm alright because I had a bad dream." I lightly chuckled. "I wish I could bring myself to see what's going through your mind. But I think we both learnt to never go into each other's heads when they're sleeping." The memory is one that's stayed with me; I can't bring myself to talk about it.
The lights flickered on and off, and the air con made a light buzzing noise. "Natsu, I don't want to leave you but I can't stay here forever. Neither of us can, but you will get better and we can be on our way." Just as I said my farewells Sakura walked into the room with a sad expression. "I'm sorry Kaida, I've just got the full damage report back and it's not good. The force from the hit to his head has caused swelling in his spinal cord; unfortunately it's too dangerous to get rid of some of the fluid. We can't save him, but it's your decision whether or not you want him to stay on the life support." The air suddenly got heavy and I broke out in the sweats. "No, he can't die. He's the only one left." Sakura nodded her head and looked at the ground.
"Keeping him on life support is only postponing his death; he won't make it in the end whichever way you go. I'm sorry." There's my answer I guess, the tears poured out of my eyes, but I stayed silent. The pain in my chest grew and grew, I couldn't survive without them. "Okay, take him off the life support." I stayed seated, scrunching my hands together. Suddenly I couldn't breathe. "Come on Kaida, you need to go outside." Sakura grabbed my arm and helped me outside the room; she placed me on one of the seats opposite the ninja's.
A bunch of nurses came down the hall, they went into Natsu's room and suddenly the beeping of the heart monitor stopped and the sounds from the breathing machine slowed down and were quiet. I stood up and looked into the room, the medics were surrounding his bed, and then they pulled the blanket over his head. "He went quicker than I had expected." One of the medic exclaimed, I felt my stomach churn. I went to the entrance of the door and the emotions hit me like a wave, I fell against the wall.
I sank down the wall onto my knees and I didn't do anything else. I couldn't even cry. I heard a small meek voice talking, "S-she is g-going into sh-shock." The medic standing at the door came running to my side. "Come Kaida, talk to me. I need you to slowly breathe, in through your nose out through your mouth." I couldn't do this anymore; the pain inside my chest was enough to make it painful to stand up. But I made it; in front of me wide eyed was the medic.
"Kaida, I need you to sit down. I don't want you collapsing." I stared back at her, the tears finally falling down my face. The ninjas across from me didn't know it, but they were witnessing me at my worst. Sakura came rushing out of the room. "Nurse, please go back to your duties. I can handle this." The medic nodded and let go of me. "Kaida, I need you to calm down. You're going to make yourself sick." I nodded my head, and sat down on the nearest seat. I closed my eyes and started to breath at a slower pace. "You are doing very well Kaida, I need you to tell me how your feeling." I opened my eyes, I looked at all the ninja lining against the wall, the girls had glassy eyes and the men had their gazes averted at everything but me.
"How I'm feeling?" Sakura nodded her head; I grabbed her hand and closed my eyes, she thought I was trying to get comfort. I sent my mind into hers and looked through all of her memories; I could hear her gasp and try to pull away. "Sakura, what's wrong?" I hadn't heard the voice before; I assumed it was one of her friends. "Get out of my head!" Sakura screamed as I continued to rummage through her thoughts. She pulled away and fell away from me she used her hands to pull herself further away from me. A woman with long blonde hair in a piggy tail, rushed to her side. "What did you do!...Sakura are you alright?" Sakura nodded her head and stood up, staring at me.
I had all the ninja's eyes on me, curious and concerned. "Sakura are you alright?" Naruto asked as he went to Sakura's other side. "What did you do Kaida?" I sadly smiled and let the tears pour down my face. "To answer your question Sakura..." I paused and looked at all the eyes that were looking at me. "...I feel the same thing you felt when Sauske left, alone, at fault. Not good enough for anything, but times that by a million." Sakura's face turned to one of rage and before I knew it she had lunged at me, knocking me unconscious.
Beep...beep...beep...beep...
The thought I had been here before concerned me. I could hear angry voices. "That...that thing went through my mind and decided to look at everything. My fears, my weaknesses...she knows them all. After I tried to help her she decides to forcefully shove into my personal space and take what she needed. All she had to say was 'I'm feeling alone and upset' she didn't have to go through my HEAD!" I could hear murmuring outside my hospital room. "Do you think she is going to wake up?" I knew it was Naruto, I never thought he would care. I guess I can see why Sakura is in love with him. "Naruto stop fogging up the windows, and take your face of the glass your putting smudges on them."
"But Sakura you can't blame her, she's had a rough couple days." Couple days? I could hear footsteps inside my room; I slowly rolled my eyes and opened them to see Sakura standing next to my bed. "When you're recovered fully lady Tusnade would like to speak with you. "Okay." I said in a raspy voice. Sakura went into extreme professional mode as she began to check my vitals. "Do you feel strange anywhere? Are you experiencing any pain?' I shook my head, and she looked at me for a few second before walking back to the door.
"Some people will be in to check on you, they aren't medical staff so they won't be able to answer your questions. Goodnight." She stiffly walked out the door, leaving her blossom smelling shampoo lingering in the room. I could hear talking once again. "Shino, after your severe injury a few days ago you will not be participating in any missions. Except this one, you will be in charge of monitoring her until someone else becomes available or we desperately need you on another mission." A tall man went to the doorway; he was wearing a large dark jacket that covered most of his face and body and wearing a dark pair of glasses. He stood there with his arms crossed and his brows furrowed.
I was going to greet him but somehow I didn't think that was what he wanted. "So you're Shino? How long do you have to be here for?" He walked into the room; it seemed that an area around him was dark as well. He held an aura of mystery. "Yes, and as long as I am instructed to." He sat down on a seat opposite the room, and looked out the window; his arm was kept tightly to his body. "Did you hurt your arm?" The dark haired man just stared at me; he didn't nod or shake his head. Nor did he say anything; he heard me but turned back to the window not acknowledging my question.
I looked around the room, trying to find something to entertain my senses. I looked in the draw of the cabinet and found an old book with no name on the cover or inside. It was better than nothing, as I read I noticed I was reading the bible. Of all the things I have been seen reading, the bible had to be the most never before seen thing. I couldn't stand the silence, might as well talk and make noise, it doesn't matter if he responds or not.
"My mother would be surprised right about now, she's never seen me read a religious book in my life. To be honest, I never really followed religion. I don't know why, it's not like I don't think it has any use. I believe in what it stands for, but the whole god thing, I've never really understood it." Shino looked back to me from the window. "Just because you don't understand it, doesn't mean it doesn't have any use or that it doesn't exist."
I thought back on what I said and I realised that it came out differently than to what I had wanted. "I didn't mean...that..." I let the conversation die as I placed the bible on the bedside cabinet, and moved down my pillows to get some rest. The noise from the wind against the window was my lullaby; I sank into a shallow sleep.
It seemed I slept for longer than I had planned, when I attempted to open my eyes they felt too heavy to move. I must be meant to wake up just yet, as I held my eyes shut I realised I couldn't get back to sleep. So I blinked until my vision had cleared and I was able to see the fluid bag on a hook next to my head board. "You're awake." Sakura stated matter of factly. "Yeah, sorry about the mind thing. When I'm emotionally unstable I tend to grab onto the most stable mind that is closest to me." I shifted me position so I was half sitting against the head board.
"How did you do it? I couldn't feel a chakra signature." I shrugged my shoulders, I honestly didn't know. "I never knew no one could sense when I was going through their minds, I don't ask people." Sakura shuffled on the spot, then her expression got sad and she looked at the roof. "Next time you should ask." She started checking my vitals again; she would ask the same questions. 'Are you feeling strange anywhere?' 'Do you feel any pain?' All of which I answered truthfully and said no.
Just as she was about to walk out of the room, I stopped her. "Sakura-san, can I get a book or anything? I know you are busy and I don't want to get in your way but..." Sakura shook her head. "Unfortunately I'm busy for the next few hours, so if you need anything medical there is a button above your head, if you need something for you. Then you'll have to wait until you are well enough to leave. Don't ask Shino for anything either, it's not his job to help you with entertainment, the best thing you can be doing now is sleeping and recovering." I didn't know if she was trying to m=be professional or if she was still angry I did what I did.
A light knocking was heard on the door. "Come in." The door slid open and Shino walked in, the light hit him on the right angle or something else because his features were brought out. "I know you have more important things to be doing, sorry you have to stay here and monitor me." I knew he would rather be training. "Who said that I am monitoring you?" I noticed his voice was very low and it reminded me of a double bass, low and rhythmic. "You're not babysitting me that I am for sure. They don't keep elite ninja to look after a stranger in hospital, no matter how injured they are." Shino looked at me for a moment and proceeded to look out the window.
"What makes you think I am an elite ninja, much less a busy one?" I shrugged my shoulders, not really knowing where our conversation was going. "You have something about you that isn't 'incorrect' but it's different, and I can't place my finger on it. I only assume you are busy because your comrades are on mission or too busy to be in your place." He nodded in acknowledgement, and I went back to reading my religious literature. It grows on you, I must admit.
After an hour or so a lady came in carrying a tray with lunch on it, hospital food. Need I say more? The lady placed in on a side table near my bed, checked my chart and walked out of the room, not saying one word. "People are very talkative aren't they?" Shino kept looking out the window. "Exactly." I murmured. I searched through the thing they called a sandwich, my stomach growled but I couldn't bring myself to eat it. In the end I pulled it apart and ate a few bits of lettuce they had in it. "The person that works as a chef for a hospital will become very busy once the word gets around. Imagine it, instead of getting a reservation you just need a broken leg." I started laughing but it died down when I realised I was the only on laughing.
I cleared my throat, and pushed the table away from my bed. I could hear a buzzing coming from the corner of the room, there was a bee on the inside of the windowsill trying to get out. "Shino are you allergic to bugs, like bees or anything?" Shino looked at me, and scrunched his eyebrows together. "No, why?" He was always answering with short replies. "Well, just because there's a bee over there and it needs to go outside. I didn't want you being stung if you're allergic or not be able to do it because you dislike bugs." For a moment thought I saw him smirk, but I ignored it, thinking it was a trick of the light.
Shino rose gracefully and pulled the window back the slightest. The bee bumped into the glass a few more times before it found an exit. "I wonder what it would be like to be a bug, so small and unnoticeable. But one person see's you and they freak out. I had a pet tarantula once; I never gave it a name because I didn't own it."
"How could you have had a Tarantula as a pet, but not named it because you did not own it? That doesn't make any sense." I understood where he was coming from, but I didn't explain myself properly. "I tend to say things and then think about what I said, I should probably think before I say. I called it my pet, but my opinion on the meaning of a pet is an animal or creature that you look after. Feed, give water, shelter and socialise with it. The Tarantula just sat in the corner of my roof and I would throw a fly in there once in a while. I didn't treat it like a pet." Shino sat back down on his seat; it seemed he became more involved in the conversation once I mentioned bugs.
He looked at my uneaten, destroyed food. "You should eat whatever you are given; you need vitamins and food to heal faster." I chuckled and looked back at the food. "I don't think you could consider that food, a form of vitamins, hardly. Sources of goodness that can help someone heal, just barely. I don't think food can heal my wounds, they are still sitting there, festering." I didn't want to get involved in a deep and meaningful conversation but Shino seemed to be able to keep things to himself.
"All wounds heal over time, but you have to be willing to let time take the pain away, if not. They will always be there, getting worse and worse, before you know it, you are not yourself. You are a shell with nothing inside to call your own." It seems he could be deep and meaningful. The air became awfully cold and the silence once again took over.
Yes I know, it's changed completely. But the whole idea of the story is still there, I'm moving onto chap 2 for some fixing: ) Thank you for the review. All I needed was one and now I believe I'm on the way to a better story ...