First Ice. I was sat there for about five minutes so far. Not doing anything, just thinking. Just thinking about the day.
"'Look, your friend, the Jedi - you know her from way back, don't you? How much do you know about her, really?'"
First ice. I never had understood it. But only to truely know first ice, you must be acquainted with him.
"'Your guess is about as good as mine.'"
The first ice that's like having ice around your heart, wrapped so tight that you can't think or feel anything. Just the ability to remember. Not to laugh, or smile, or please anyone or to even find a reason why. No, never that.
"'Running away? I'm not done with you yet.'
'Nor I you. I will remake you. So when I look upon you it shall be like a mirror. Then I shall let you die.'
'There's... nothing worse you can do to me. Take your time.'"
First ice like when the person you love most in the world, like when the person who looked after you when no one else would looks at you like everyone else does. A look of disgust. Like when when that person turns and walks away from you without even saying goodbye.
"'You're... alive. Did... I... save you yet?Your eyes... that bad, eh?Always was ugly.... now the outside matches. Was waiting for this, but...S' not fair... let you down...'
'Shhh... you've lost a lot of blood.'
'I was supposed to save you. Was tired of living anyway... too many deaths...never told you... lied to you...'"
First ice! Like when that one person you know can pick you up and dust you off. When they stopped you going over the edge.
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"'Loved you from the moment I first saw you, thought you were a dream......meant every word... tried to play it off as a joke... wasn't funny...'
'You never needed to tell me, Atton. I knew.'
'Hurts when I laugh. Hurts...You... saved me... joke's on me...Hurts when I laugh. Hurts...'"
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But what if they needed you? You couldn't help. The more everyone changes around me the more I am completely the same. When he told me he was there to look after me, he lied. Because now I don't recognise them all in a crowd of strangers. When they faded to match the others and left me alone. All alone. That, is first ice.