It's Not Enough

Chapter 1

-The Bitch With A Wish-

She was a goner. She could feel it from their disapproving glares down to the way her best friend, Namikaze Naruto, was indifferently reapplying orange polish to a chipped nail.

Hyuuga Hinata was what they'd consider a good girl. She never crosses her curfew, never drinks and could never look a boy straight in the eye for more than ten seconds. Everybody in Konoha Prep was puzzled as to why a girl like her hangs out with the bitchiest in-crowd. It's not rocket science, Hinata just happens to be friends with the alpha bitch since preschool. She was in as long as she wore the right clothes, go to an event at least once a week and make out with the right guy. Hinata just so happens to have problems with the last part.

"Honestly, Shino the bug boy? You must have been drunk," Tenten said.

"Or maybe she's on crack." Yamanaka Ino chuckled, ever the one to take everything with humor.

"Well you know what I think?" Sabaku Temari, who was pretty much second-in-command in bitchiness, sneered. "I think we should tell everybody she has a crush on her cousin. Serves the bitch right."

Hinata prevented herself from glaring at the blond girl. If this group had a favorite weapon it was badmouthing and spreading false rumors.

Everybody else turned to Naruto, who had remained mute throughout the whole ordeal.

"What do you think Naruto?"

"Yeah, you're the one who's friends with her. We were like victims who had to put up with her cheapness every lunch."

"She's so boring, it won't be a loss."

Every foul odor was surfacing but Hinata wasn't surprised at all. They were her phoney friends but not Naruto. She turned to Naruto with pleading eyes, she may be a bitch but they had always been the best of fri—

"No need to tell me twice, girls," Naruto said, eyeing Hinata distastefully from head to toe. "Hinata, for old time's sake, we'll forgive you once you set your priorities right. But as of now you're like the dirt on our shoes and you can sit on that table."

Naruto pointed to the loser's lunch table comprising of pudgy Chouji, ugly as hell Lee, psychotic Juugo, suicidal Gaara and bug boy Shino.

That afternoon Hinata found her locker stuffed with spaghetti and meatballs, her Bugatti spray painted with lime green LOSER and everybody talking about her recent exile and calling her a cousin kisser.

It's not that Naruto could be a bitch when she wanted to, it was in her nature.

"Do you have it?" Naruto asked Tenten excitedly.

"Over and done with." Tenten grinned from ear to ear, handing Naruto a bejeweled flash drive. "Tayuya's gonna freak!"

"That's an understatement. She'll be out looking for blood!" Ino exclaimed.

"Not that we care," Temari stated and they all giggled.

Naruto made Tenten hack Tayuya's Multiply account to copy pictures from her private album. Tayuya's private photos were some of her sexy photos (it wasn't sexy in Naruto's opinion). Tenten edited (warped) the pictures, placing Tayuya in several embarrassing situations like putting her in a Superman costume and making her kiss Danny DeVito. Just imagine her shock to see her private photos warped and going public without her knowledge! It was nothing new to them as they've done the same before to Ebisu the physics teacher, Hyuuga Neji, Inuzuka Kiba and a lot more other innocents.

Naruto pulled out her laptop from her satchel and started it.

"Now for the last job. Facebook and multi-tagging."

The girls shared a wicked laugh.

Hinata shyly entered the room. The group fell into silence, all the while following Hinata to her seat with their contemptuous eyes.

"Ugh, she's so substandard. I'm so glad you've thrown her out," Temari said, not bothering to lower her voice, earning a small wince from the Hyuuga.

"Stop the petty rehashing, Temari, and let's move on to more productive things," Naruto chided, gesturing to her laptop.

The door flew open again revealing the dark prince of her dreams. For a while, the world stopped spinning, everything was in monochrome but Uchiha Sasuke. Naruto's heart fluttered delightfully. However someone else behind him caught her eye and her damnable life continued. Haruno Sakura clung to her boyfriend's arms as though it was her last. Sasuke was carrying her bag and books for her and they both looked happy.

One word.

Yuck.

Naruto ignored them and turned her attention to her laptop, ignoring the wringing in her chest. Her friends noticed none of this, good. No one knew of her secret love for the raven-haired boy, not even her best—ex-best friend, Hinata. She was just waiting for that inevitable break-up, but God help her, she's been waiting for two years now.

Naruto could still remember every small detail since she had planted that small seed. It was such an insignificant seed but through wonders, it amassed into something infinite. Naruto knew it was love, it couldn't be anything else. It was a one-sided love, and it was a painful thing to live with but it was even more painful to let go.

"Love's a mutual thing, it's not true love if it's one-sided," Ino once told her like the love doctor she is.

But then again what did Naruto know about love? Any outlook she had of love was fucked up just like the way her parents had fucked up on her, just like how her sixth grade teacher Orochimaru fucked up her perception of men and romance when he molested her and took her innocence, just like how her dangerous lifestyle fucked up her sense of self-respect.

But when she saw Sasuke, she finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel.

Uchiha Sasuke was the prettiest thing anyone could ever see in Konoha, he had his own fan club and he had appeared in a luxury perfume TV ad. Naruto paid him little attention back then.

It all started when a girl transferred to their school during sophomore year. Apparently from where she came from pink hair was natural, and Naruto had to bitterly admit, she had pretty hair. Her name was Haruno Sakura. She wasn't very beautiful, not the way Naruto, Ino and the rest of the girls were but Sasuke saw something so unique in her he's never seen in other girls before. A week after Sakura moved in, her popularity stats increased full-blown for being the Uchiha Sasuke's first ever girlfriend. Ironically, why Naruto fell for Sasuke had a lot to do with Sakura.

At the time they initiated their relationship, Naruto was the wildest, craziest bitch (and she still was). Naruto danced on tables in Konoha clubs, spent two summers ago on rehab for cocaine addiction, slept with a different guy every night, skipped too many classes, pulled pranks on anyone who tried to mess with her and all the other things loving parents would hate their child doing. With all the fun she was having, one would think Naruto was living the high life. Little did they know, Naruto felt so incomplete.

Her loneliness had made her understood what was meant by the "significant other." But Naruto had no other but herself and her superficial world, and nothing else had ever felt so cold and empty. It was a phantom with terrifying frosty fingers whose presence was always there as if to remind her every time she retreated to sleep in a cold bed, every time she wanted to tell something embarrassing but she couldn't trust anybody enough so she'd just shut up and every time she was either too drunk or too high she'd get emotional and burst into tears but no one was there to listen and tell her everything was going to be okay.

She knew what she lacked. It was a primitive, ubiquitous thing that people had written and sang of for many centuries. Even her bitches/friends knew of that thing but not her, maybe that could explain why she's the bitchiest of them all. She yearned to have such wonderful, powerful thing that seems to work wonders on everyone. But no guy would ever take Namikaze Naruto seriously. To them, Naruto was a gorgeous sex goddess and she was just that and only that.

But then perhaps she had been going after boys of her age group and they say at their stage, girls are a lot more mature than boys. So she went for older men. There was Hidan the dashing zealot, he spouted profanities every second of the minute if given the opportunity and he had distorted sexual fantasies. Another one was Akasuna Sasori, a medical student from the local university, who, to her utter horror, had a collection of human parts in his room. Pain, the lead vocalist of a very popular rock band she had met during a benefit concert their band did in the city, a picture of them making out landed on an entertainment magazine's page, it was such a fairy tale romance except that Pain had a horrible temper and had punched her on the hundredth time before she called it quits. A series of failed relationships with older men followed which led Naruto to the hopeless conclusion—all men were the same.

Just when all hope was lost, she saw Sasuke. He wasn't the same as those other useless guys, and all of the people who knew him could attest to that. Sakura had no other friend except for her boyfriend so she clung to him like some annoying fly that just wouldn't leave you alone, though Sasuke never left her alone and every semester, he'd transfer classes just so he and Sakura'd be together. Sasuke used to be a regular partygoer but after Sakura, he was even more aloof than Hinata and that's saying something. When he does go to an event, it wouldn't be without Sakura. He had been the school's star quarterback but he quit this year so he can concentrate on getting into college and of course Sakura.

This devotion had set Naruto off. And she realized this was the man she was looking for all along. But Sasuke was so pure and dignified, he likes intelligent and mannerly girls like Haruno Sakura not whores and druggies. So even if she did make a move, the most she could do is disgust him. She wished she had Sakura's life even if it meant looking average and throwing away all the reputation she had built over the years as long as she had Sasuke.

My first fan fiction! I hoped that went well. Reviews, feedbacks, suggestion and flames are welcome!