Pre-Author's Note: Alright people, just letting you know I have STARTED on the next chapter of Ignorance is Bliss. It's off to a good start. Now I was planning on dedicating this day to Ignorance is Bliss but alas, Jediempress brought to my attention a few personal problems of her own… Thus, I dedicate this story to her, in the hopes it'll cheer her up.

Disclaimer: Ahmigosh, Jedi, you know what you should try? Ginger ale mixed with white grape juice. Trust me. I've been living off it all summer, it take away all the pain. Like a drug. Only better. :P

Song: My Immortal (I am soooo obsessed with that song)

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Fake.

It's all fake.

Everything's fake.

Even reality is fake.

So what's real?

He was real. He was, he was, he was… He was so incredibly real. And you loved him for it didn't you? He amazed you didn't he? Yes he did. And he did so much more than that too. He… Inspired you.

He inspired you to live. To breathe. To keep going. To struggle through this tragic thing they call life. Whenever you were ready to throw in the towel, somehow, someway, he would be there (like poof!). And he'd always tell you exactly what you needed to hear.

He was good at that, wasn't he?

He was good at making you feel better.

Was.

That's past tense. He was good at making you feel better. He was. See? Past tense. Because he's not present anymore, oh no. He's past tense. You know why? 'Cause he's dead. That's right he died. So now instead of is you have to say was. Because he isn't anymore. He just isn't.

When you found out… You cried so much. You cried so long and so hard everyone thought you were gonna die too. The all just expected you to lie down next to him and just fade away. None of them said it to your face, but you know that's what they were thinking.

But you can't do that, can you?

He certainly wouldn't like it.

He wouldn't have wanted you to let go and fall downhill… Right?

It's just like what he told you that one time, a long, long time ago. You were sitting on your tree and he was standing next to you… You were upset about something weren't you? It was your aunt wasn't it? She was sick. She was very, very sick. And you were upset because you couldn't understand how someone so wonderful could get so very, very sick.

And he looked at you. He just looked at you, and he spoke so calmly you wondered how he could do it. Because he had loved your aunt too. Wasn't he just as upset as you were?

But then he said something. He said something.

He said that life was like climbing uphill. It's hard, and it's not easy. Sometimes there will be boulders or rocks or trees blocking your path. But you just have to get around them yourself and do your best to make it through.

And that wasn't all he said, was it? Oh no.

He also said that there might even be times when you fall down. And whenever you fall down, it's best to pick yourself back up again right away or else you'll just keep tumbling downhill. And that certainly wouldn't be good.

'Because,' he had said, 'the farther down you fall the harder it gets to stand back up again. So really, you should always try and pick yourself up again as fast as you can. Dust yourself off, and keep on climbing.'

Yes. Yes.

That's what he said. That's what he said, wasn't it?

Yes.

So that's why, after he left you behind, you didn't just "fade away" like everyone expected you to. You got back up again. You got back up again and you knew, just knew, that he would've been (and is) proud of you.

And now here you are, it's been so long since he left. And while there were times you thought you wouldn't make it, times when you just seemed to keep on falling… You've finally done it. You've reached the top of the hill.

It was a long and difficult trek to the top, but would you look at that? You did it! You made it. You finally made it.

All the way to the tippy-top.

That's what he would say if he could see you now. And who knows? Maybe he can see you now, and maybe that is what he's saying.

Thinking back on everything from way up here (at the tippy-top), you realize it was worth it. Completely and totally worth it. All the falling, all the stumbling… It was worth it. Because from up here you can see. You can see perfectly clear. You can look back on everything you've done and, from this point of view, all you can think is:

Isn't the viewlovely

Author's Note: Yeah, I just threw this together in like, under thirty minutes. –ish proud-

Anyways, there ya go Jedi. I hope this cheered you up a little. :D Thanks to all for reading. I'm off to go work on Ignorance is Bliss. Drop me a review, please.

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