Hi :) firstly I'd like to apologise about my other fanfic Evaluation of loyalty. I really don't know where I'm going with it and I literally can't write I have had complete and utter writers block. But anyway I wrote this one shot after the Scars and nightmares clip on Saturday, it doesn't involve Iain but it's a letter to Ton from Sam, it's what I think she would've written to him if she had been killed and had left a letter for him to read after she's died :( I cried writing it but please tell me what you think :)

Chloe x

Dear Tom,

I hope you never read this letter. If you do... well, I won't be there to read it with you. And if you read this then I have never got the chance to tell you how much I love you, and how much you mean to me.

Every night, every night here in Afghanistan I think about you, you've made my life worth living for. You're the most amazing man I've ever met Tom, I wish I could be there for you now, to hold you from behind and comfort you. I don't know how much you'll miss me but I hope all this time together has made some impact!

I've never really thought about... about death. I'm scared Tom, scared out of my mind. I don't want to die, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. But when I really think about it, I realise that even if I am taken, I will always be by your side watching over you, no matter where I am.

I want you to know that I am the luckiest, happiest woman in the world, I have you. I couldn't live without you, you deserve so much better than me. And even if I am... gone, I want you to move on Tom. Find somebody else. Start a family. Live life to the full. I hope that she loves you as much as I did, that she makes you happy.

Don't ever forget me... I will know! The love that I had for you, it'll always be there. The memories will never leave even if I do. Those amazing days, lying on the grass in the sun, baking that always ended in flour fights, hide and seek in the park. They were the best moments of my life, I mean it. The best. They bring tears to my eyes.

Don't worry about me. I'll be alright, I will see you soon. I'm so sorry I put you through this. I'll never forgive myself. I can imagine you crying as you read this and it's breaking my heart. Don't cry Tom please. Stay strong for me. I love you more than words can express... Well that's why I'm writing this letter really. So you will be able to know how much I care for you. And I will finally be able to tell you everything I've been meaning to say. I just wish I could spend a little longer with you, get married, have children... to live the rest of my life with you.

I hope you have a wonderful and fulfilling life no matter what happens to me. I will always be with you, by your side, never forget that. I love you.

Sam xxxxxxxx