Dying Hope
by Rien
Standard Disclaimers Apply
"Matte" I shout, but he doesn't seem to hear me. Tears escaped my eyes but she doesn't turn around.
"Matte yo...." cried in silence. Darkness took over once again.
-DOCTOR, HIS PULSE IS LOW...- I hear the light said. I don't want to come back to all those pain, all those craziness and confusion.
"It's not fair for that I can't give you all of myself..." he said. I wanted to shake him. After days of happiness, he wanted to break our relationship just like that.
"Is it enough that you know that I love you?" the kitsune said, telling me to just accept it. With my own stupid, kind heart, I accepted it without questions ask. I let her go and that stopped everything.
I think I'm going to be sick. Well, it happened, the Tensai did became sick with a high fever. My mind and body are torn in my loneliness and my heart are in million peaces. I wanted to die in those grueling nights. My depression grew each day. My fever didn't break for three days. With a high fever in tow, I thought I could really find peace, but I was wrong. Another mistake for the Tensai...
"We're still friends, right Sakuragi?" he asked and I nod in agreement. I could only react as if I was led on a leash. Why is it so hard to accept it? Maybe its because you really love the him, the man with icy blue eys that held you captive from the first time you saw him. You wanted all to be alright.
He was practicing basketball as if nothing happened. He still says the famous 'Do'aho" to me. Carefree. He thought we were fine, nothing is wrong. He thought I'm alright. HE'S WRONG! TELL HIM HOW WRONG HE IS! I can't, I'm not like that. Friends. We can not return as friends as we were. Someone must go away, theres no room for the two of us in this team.
-DOCTOR! HER PULSE IS DANGEROUSLY LOW!- I heard it again, it was beginning to annoy me.
"I'm going home!" I said in frustration. I walked away hearing our captain shout my name in anger. Even the team manageress and the vice-captain are angrily shouting at me. Then I heard his voice as well, shouting at me, calling me. I know he found it strange, it was only start of the practice. I walked faster, then I ran. I know he was following but I didn't care.
"Sakuragi!" he said and I turned around. I looked at him. I wanted to go to him and tell him that nothing is wrong, but I need to establish to him that I am not what he knew me to be. He changed me, the whole me.
"Leave me alone..." I said to him one last time. turned around and ran away again.
-CPR! CLEAR!-
-PULSE!-
That's why I grabbed the knife and went to the bathroom. I locked it behind me and stared at the knife.
-300! CLEAR!-
-PULSE-
I still remember blood coming out of my wrist. The blood that stained the knife. The blood on the white carpet of the bathroom.
-400! CLEAR!-
-PULSE!-
Then I still remember what I said to him before I left that day. Those words are forever etched in my memory as the nirvana unfolds once again...
"Goodbye... Aishiteru kitsune..." and I'm gone
~*OWARI*~
by Rien
Standard Disclaimers Apply
"Matte" I shout, but he doesn't seem to hear me. Tears escaped my eyes but she doesn't turn around.
"Matte yo...." cried in silence. Darkness took over once again.
-DOCTOR, HIS PULSE IS LOW...- I hear the light said. I don't want to come back to all those pain, all those craziness and confusion.
"It's not fair for that I can't give you all of myself..." he said. I wanted to shake him. After days of happiness, he wanted to break our relationship just like that.
"Is it enough that you know that I love you?" the kitsune said, telling me to just accept it. With my own stupid, kind heart, I accepted it without questions ask. I let her go and that stopped everything.
I think I'm going to be sick. Well, it happened, the Tensai did became sick with a high fever. My mind and body are torn in my loneliness and my heart are in million peaces. I wanted to die in those grueling nights. My depression grew each day. My fever didn't break for three days. With a high fever in tow, I thought I could really find peace, but I was wrong. Another mistake for the Tensai...
"We're still friends, right Sakuragi?" he asked and I nod in agreement. I could only react as if I was led on a leash. Why is it so hard to accept it? Maybe its because you really love the him, the man with icy blue eys that held you captive from the first time you saw him. You wanted all to be alright.
He was practicing basketball as if nothing happened. He still says the famous 'Do'aho" to me. Carefree. He thought we were fine, nothing is wrong. He thought I'm alright. HE'S WRONG! TELL HIM HOW WRONG HE IS! I can't, I'm not like that. Friends. We can not return as friends as we were. Someone must go away, theres no room for the two of us in this team.
-DOCTOR! HER PULSE IS DANGEROUSLY LOW!- I heard it again, it was beginning to annoy me.
"I'm going home!" I said in frustration. I walked away hearing our captain shout my name in anger. Even the team manageress and the vice-captain are angrily shouting at me. Then I heard his voice as well, shouting at me, calling me. I know he found it strange, it was only start of the practice. I walked faster, then I ran. I know he was following but I didn't care.
"Sakuragi!" he said and I turned around. I looked at him. I wanted to go to him and tell him that nothing is wrong, but I need to establish to him that I am not what he knew me to be. He changed me, the whole me.
"Leave me alone..." I said to him one last time. turned around and ran away again.
-CPR! CLEAR!-
-PULSE!-
That's why I grabbed the knife and went to the bathroom. I locked it behind me and stared at the knife.
-300! CLEAR!-
-PULSE-
I still remember blood coming out of my wrist. The blood that stained the knife. The blood on the white carpet of the bathroom.
-400! CLEAR!-
-PULSE!-
Then I still remember what I said to him before I left that day. Those words are forever etched in my memory as the nirvana unfolds once again...
"Goodbye... Aishiteru kitsune..." and I'm gone
~*OWARI*~