Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or any characters associated with the game series. I do not own Disney, AFI, or Atreyu nor do I have any rights to any of the named.

Summary: A monster is a monster no matter how you look at it. A monster isn't always the boogeyman under your bed, or your worst fears in the dark closet on the wall opposite your bed. A monster can be your own life betraying you, just as it has Roxas. Sucked into the world of white powder, Roxas yearns to change his ways and win the love of his life back.

[MoNstEr]

A monster can be a lot of things.

It can be a deformed human.

An imaginary or legendary creature of any sort.

A wicked human.

Or simply just something you fear.

Something that calls to you like a beautiful voice that draws you in.

Something that can make you, or break you.

At first he loved it's feelings of euphoria.

But then his lips matched his sparky blue eyes.

The MoNstEr wanted him dead.

The MoNstEr calls you.

Just like it calls him.

Do you hear its raspy voice?

Chapter One: Meet The Monster

Snort.

I inhale another line of creamy white powder.

Snort

'I love this stuff.' I think to myself.

I live in a wild world. Where everyday consists of my monster.

The monster calls me everyday.

And everyday I answer its calls. Snorting it. Loving it.

My monster has no color, and no smell. It flies up my nose.

It makes me feel better. It eases my pain.

My brother walks in myroom, ignoring my do not enter sign. I actually don't care.

But I do envy him. A lot. He has the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen.

I love her more than the monster. But all she sees in me, is a drug addicted freak. That hurts, it makes me want more of the monster. So I lean down and get more monster.

I snort down the line, thinking of blue eyes, and strawberry blond hair. Kairi. It hurts. I begin to lean down to inhale more of the monster. Until my brother speaks, he has worry in his voice.

"Roxas, stop." He yells over the music.

"No, what do you want?" I yell back, nose clogged with monster.

"I just want to know if I can use your Afi CD, Kairi wants to listen to it." Sora sighs in defeat.

My brother sees the pain in my eyes as he says her name.

"Roxas, that was along time ago, don't beat your self up over it." Sora says, while he walks over to the CD player I had just shut off.

You see, I had Kairi once. I would have never let her go if Riku hadn't introduced me to the monster. So Sora had told Kairi, but it was only for her safety, so I suppose he isn't the bad guy. I just envy him because he in turn got her.

Kairi spends most of her days here, with Sora and not me. I sit in my room all day. With the monster. And sometimes Riku. But he abandoned the monster. All because of his bitch girlfriend Namine. I won't let the monster feel alone, me and the monster can make each other feel wanted. The monster loves me. It opened my eyes to a world of new things.

"Since your taking Afi, can you put in Atreyu?" I ask, leaning down for more monster.

"Yeah, but you need to stop that, your taking to much." Sora asked, worry in his eyes shone.

I guess he's right, good bye monster, I'll see you tomorrow.

I have to leave the monster sometime everyday, but it always calls me. I get up, and want to sit back down. I feel weird. I suppose I should. I did 9 lines today. Thats a self best.

I walk down the carpeted stairs. My twin following

Yes Sora and I are twins.

I suppose you could say I'm the bad one.

But I haven't always been this way.

But shit never works out for me. It always doe for Sora though.

I'm still a virgin and he's not.

The sad thing is, Kairi was his first. And not mine. That shit pisses me off. My head feels weird.

MoNstEr

It keeps calling me. I walk to the kitchen, passing Kairi, who says Hi to me.

"Hi." I murmur back. It still hurts to speak to her.

Especially after seeing her ride my brother like a fucking cow girl. That was a horrible day.

I can barely stand, and Kairi notices.

"Are you okay Roxas?" She begins to walk towards me, very worried.

"I'm fine, get away." I mumble, hearing one of my favorite songs come one. I open the fridge and get the Pepsi jug out.

"Fuck." I yell. I hit the floor.

My breathing is faint. My lips begin to match my blue eyes. I can't breath.

"Sora!" Kairi yells, running over to me.

"Roxas!" She screams.

I close my eyes, this feels kinda good. But why is the monster doing this?

That's right, because a monster is a monster.

A monsters intentions never change, they call you. A monster is something you fear.

The monster wants me dead, it wants to call someone else now. But I won't die, I will fight the monsters calls.

With my lips blue, and my eyes shut I finally realize, the monster isn't good. What I thought was good, was an evil. What I need to do, is get my life back. You see, Kairi left me for a reason, because I was in love with the monster. Would she miss me if I was like I used to be?

But I still love the monster. Even if it tried to kill me.

Even when the one that loves you tells you its going to be okay, it isn't always true. They don't understand, even when they say they do.

The sweats at night.

MoNstEr

The need to feed on the euphoric feeling as the drug of choice hits your receptors and opens the door to a whole new world. No, your life issues don't vanish. But, even if for a moment, the pain becomes bearable once more.

MoNstEr

I do not fear death so much, I fear my nightmares.

I fear...

MoNstEr

What makes this MoNstEr a MoNstEr?

This creature is like no other.

Its calls to you like a siren.

It loves you.

Then it wants a new victim.

Someone new to crush in the end.

Can I win the battle with the MoNstEr?

Authors note: I had previously written this story and then taken it down when I thought I would no longer write. It is now being remade, re-posted, and edited. I plan to extend the original plot, and add more chapters. R&R! -VeeCat

Other: I do not own Pepsi, or any beverages owned or bottled under the authority of Pepsi-Cola.,