Hello! I got this story idea from the fanfic Hurt by the author Icypinkrose I recommend you read it, it's a wonderful, well written story!
Anyway if you do not want to read about domestic abuse I suggest you do not read this and go somewhere else. but if not I hope you enjoy!
On the cold, wet asphalt I lay here barely alive trying slowly to calm my rigid breathing, but I can't. I can't and that's what scares me.
I never knew someone like him could turn 180 degrees and be a complete different person, but that's what I get for trusting I guess.
As the rain falls from the dark, starless sky I lay here in my dormant bleeding, allowing the cold droplets of fallen rain to hit my face to try and somehow cool my burning skin.
I guess as I lay here on the soaking wet pavement waiting to die or at least pray for a false prayer that could never possibly happen because no one knows I'm out here I should use this time to reflect on the past and pinpoint all my petty mistakes.
I just hope that somehow everyone can find a way to forgive me.
Shuhei.. Rukia.. Orihime.. Momo.. Everyone, my dear friends please try to find a place somewhere deep in your hearts to forgive me.
In the end of it all I'm still on my back begging for forgiveness for my own heedlessness.
Maybe just maybe if I didn't keep everything to myself like I always have and told my friends everything they wanted to know I could've saved myself, but I didn't..
And in the end I am the one who dug my own grave. No, not Gin. But myself, my foolishness is what killed me.
Every time I lied to my friends, every second I spent in front of the mirror putting foundation and concealer on, every moment I sat there and endured his cruel, nerve wrecking, mind torture and his painful hits and kicks, those times I never told the nurses the full truth behind my open wounds and scares I was digging out my own little grave full of sorrow and misery.
My own little hell hole where I could suffer alone in my torment and agony, where nobody could bother me.
Drowning in the darkness and the regret of swallowing my own pride and taking it all and for what? To end up here on the side of the road bleeding out to death? No, this is not how I imagined myself dying.. but that's the cruel twist of reality playing one of lives cruel sick jokes.
A/N: So how was it? Maybe review? ANY CRITISIM IS ADVISED! I think that will help me a lot more, so I can know how to improve my story and I can fix my mistakes.