Title:: Breaking (it comes from a song I wrote. It's all i could
think of) It's really not as dramatic as it sounds.
Author: Breanna
Feedback: Bring it on
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. If I did, they
would still be on TV and we would have no need for fan fiction.
Rated: PG for the time being. There's some language.

Author's Notes: My first attempt at a fic. Bear with me. I'm not the best writer.

Summary: Jessie and Katie, pre-Gay/Straight Alliance. They are best
friends. Katie is a Junior, Jessie a sophomore. Jessie does not
know Katie is gay, but Katie knows she's got it bad for Jessie.
More to come in the next chapter.

So it begins...

Katie Singer doesn't sleep much these days. Night after night she
tries her best to fall asleep, but to no avail. Her mind is
constantly racing, going a mile a minute. Swarming with thoughts
that she knows she should not be thinking. This night is a
particularly rough night. I hate Sundays, she thinks to herself.
She looks at the clock: 1:53am. Damn. It's actually Monday. I HAVE
to get some sleep. Katie didn't get to see or talk to her best
friend, Jessie at all today, which is why it was particularly hard
for her to sleep. The longest they can usually go without speaking
to each other is a couple hours. And even then, they're usually
text messaging each other. Katie hates it when she can't talk to
Jessie. And what she hates even more is the fact that Jessie is
probably sound asleep and doesn't even think about the fact that
they haven't spoken all day.

"Oh, screw it," exclaimed Katie as she threw the covers off of her
and got out of bed. She began pacing around and at this moment,
seriously considered taking up smoking, just so she would have
something to occupy her time. Why was she thinking so much about
Jessie? I mean, she knew why, but why in the middle of the night
when she should be sleeping? And why during class when she should
be learning? And why is she thinking about her even when she's with
her? Katie's in love. She knows it. She's known it from the
moment she met Jessie. That day she decided to playfully use her
buddy Tad as an excuse to talk to Jessie. Since then, they've been
thick as thieves. Katie would never do anything to ruin their
friendship, so God knows she had to keep her feelings hidden.

She turned on the light and walked over to the mirror and just stood
and stared at herself. She was tall, thin, and gorgeous. She
didn't really see that, though. All she saw was someone that Jessie
Sammler didn't want in a romantic way. She knew she was thin, even
though she ate like a horse, and she was kind of tall, which made
her slouch a bit, but gorgeous? No matter what people told her, she
didn't believe it. She stood there in her short and tank top and
just studied herself for a few minutes.

If only Jessie knew what I was thinking….

Meanwhile, it was now 2:17am and Jessie Sammler was lying in bed
waiting for her alarm clock to go off so she can start her day and
see Katie at school. But dammit, she had 4 hours to go. Why do the
nights seem so long now? She thought. Perhaps it's because Jessie
hasn't been sleeping lately, either. Tonight was particularly hard
for her. She was at her cousin's house about two hours away for an
incredibly long and boring baby shower. She wanted to ask Katie to
go, but felt like maybe Katie might be getting sick of her, since
they're together all the time. Jessie was always so hard on herself
and she honestly couldn't see why Katie wanted to hang around with
her. She thought Katie was just tolerating her and didn't have the
heart to tell her to bug off.

"Dammit," she yelled as she threw off the covers. Good thing she
was in the attic, so no one could hear her frustration. All she
wanted to do was call Katie, but it was 2 in the morning and she
didn't want to wake her. And she sure as hell didn't want Katie
asking, "Why the hell are you calling me at 2am, Jess? Seriously."

Just at that moment, Jessie's phone beeped. Her heart jump a bit.
It was a text message. From Katie? She thought.

She grabbed her phone and read the text: "You Awake, Billie?"

Without wasting another minute, she texted back: "Yes. Can't
sleep. Bored out of my friggin' mind today."

Back at Katie's house, Katie waited anxiously for a response. "Beep
Beep." Finally she got it. Upon reading the message, she wrote
back: "You know, if I'd have been there, you'd have had more fun.
We could have spiked the punch."

Jessie laughed at the response and wrote: "Not a good idea. My
cousin drank most of the punch. She's the pregnant one. I wish you
had gone."

Katie breathed a sigh of relief when she read that. So she DID want
me to go, she thought. She wrote back: "I was there in spirit.
Always."

Jessie smiled at the response. She had no idea why the hell hearing
from Katie made her so happy, but it did. She sat for a minute,
pondering what she should do next. She wanted to call Katie. She
did. Why couldn't she? JUST DIAL THE NUMBER, JESSIE!!! At that
moment, Jessie's phone rang. It startled and the phone went under
the bed. She dove down to get it and when she finally reached it,
she answered.

"Hello?"

"Jess? Is that you? Your voice is muffled?"

"Hey Katie, yeah it's me. Hold on a sec." Jessie tried making her
way out from under her bed. She was almost successful when at the
very end, she banged her head on the bed frame.

"Ouch! Son of a bitch! Ow ow ow ow." She exclaimed while jumping up
and down and holding her head. She realized Katie was still on the
phone.

"Oh shit. Katie?"

"Yeah, are you all right? What was that noise?"

"Um…..I….hit..my head. Don't laugh."

"Too late," Katie responded while laughing.

"Very funny. You know, I could have a concussion. You wouldn't be
laughing then, would you?"

"Yup. Concussions are a riot, don't you know?"

Jessie sighed. She can never match Katie's wit. "Why did you call?"

"You didn't respond to my last text. And don't you know that if,
after two minutes of not hearing from you, I automatically assume
you're dead or in danger? You know I like to keep tabs on you.
Don't you see that camera on your ceiling?"

Jessie looked up and immediately felt stupid.

"You looked up, didn't you?" asked Katie.

"You know me too well. Um…I better go, though. I don't want my dad
or Lily to wake up and find me on the phone. But….I'll see you
tomorrow, right?"

"Of course," replied Katie.

"Good, cuz I've got something I need to talk to you about."

"Okay, we'll definitely talk tomorrow then. Night, Billie."

"Good night, Katie."

They hung up the phone. Katie fell straight to sleep with a
ridiculous grin on her face. Jessie lay awake, smiling and mentally
kicking herself for being such a spaz. Then she fell asleep shortly
thereafter. She had a big day ahead of her tomorrow and she was
nervous as hell.