Severus,
I was just wondering if you had noticed...All those mornings in the Great Hall when I watched you. My careful eyes looked for something to rest on for ages, until they met yours. Well, more observed than met. You never returned the stare.
I thought life was complicated then, and I was probably right. Looking back, I can recall the friendship problems, and Ginny. And, of course, your eyes. A glance into my pensieve reminds me of the harder memories, of Dumbledore's pain, and how you killed him. That is still the most difficult to think about, even now that I know where Dumbledore's loyalties truly lied. Something in my mind always protests against the image of my former hero at the hands of the man I love. I suppose that would be what you call it...Infatuation at its finest.
I remember being in denial afterwards. You told me that Dumbledore was lying all along, everything that I had learned about horcruxes was a lie as well. I insisted that I, of all people, knew what a horcrux was, as I had read everything I could get my hands on about them. You reminded me patiently that we lived in the wizarding world, and Dumbledore was a great wizard if there ever was one. I slowly came around after that, thought at the time I was more worried about what you were thinking than defeating Voldemort. Suppose that's what our world gets when their savior is a teenager.
It took a lot longer for me to convince you to love me. You didn't want an added distraction during the war; I was desperately seeking one. It was worth it in the end, to finally get to know you and peek behind the concrete wall of your mind. We carried on intellectual conversations that Hermione could only dream of. But she too met a sad end. Such a pity all of the most brilliant witches and wizards were influenced by Voldemort. Save for you, Sev. If only you could have lasted only a few more weeks...But I won't dwell on it. The fact is, I love you, and always will. But the best part has long past, those slightly more carefree days of gazing into your eyes. Those eyes which I shall never see again.
Harry