Bella's P.O.V

It had been nearly 30 years since my transformation and I hadn't regretted my decision once until about 6 months ago.

I had been helping Renesmee and Jake move into their new house in Seattle when I came home to what seemed like an empty house at first. Bored, with nobody to talk to I sat down with one of Esme's Home and Garden magazines. I was deciding whether or not I wanted to grow sunflowers or white roses around the cobblestone walkway leading to mine and Edward's cottage when I heard a familiar moan coming from upstairs. Alice and Jasper's bedroom door was open only slightly but in all honesty it could've been completely shut and I still would have heard their conversation.

"That was amazing Alice, as usual," I heard Edward grumble. Alice giggled and I heard her plant a kiss on Edward's cheek.

"Honestly Ed, I haven't had an orgasm like that with Jazz in nearly 4 deca-" Alice stopped abruptly and I knew I had been detected. Immediately I ran down the steps and out the door wanting to get out of there as fast as I could. My heart, though it did not beat felt like it was contorting and twisting all around my chest. The pain was nearly unbearable and I just wanted to go home. I ran through the door and collapsed onto the hardwood floor in front of our fireplace. My body no longer produced tears, but I was still dry sobbing into the crook of my arm. I knew Edward was going to come through the door at any moment but I had no idea what I would say. I had all but given my life for Edward and I just couldn't believe he had done this to me, my body felt weak and pathetic for the first time in decades, I felt like nothing. I couldn't let this happen, I had a perfect life now, and it was complete for God's sake! I decided within a split second that I wouldn't acknowledge I had seen or heard anything. I knew it was insane for me to do so but I couldn't accept that my marriage, my life, was over.

I had been ignoring them for nearly 6 months now. Somehow I had been convincing enough to Edward that he hadn't felt the need to confess. Oh, I'm sure that both of them were aware that I knew on some level but they weren't admitting it to themselves, not yet anyway. They still continued with their affair, I knew every time Edward left the house he was going to make love to Alice. I barely talked to anyone anymore I only called Renesmee a few times a week now. God how would she react to this? It would kill her, I thought all the time.

I had just finished talking to Charlie who was living in Jacksonville with Mom now, when I heard a knock on the door. I expected it to be Jake or Renesmee but to my surprise it was Jasper. He had never actually been to our house and it threw me off my guard a bit.

"Jeez Jasper, um, it's good to see you. Can I get you anything?" My offer sounded so human that both of us cracked an awkward smile.

"No Bella, I actually came to talk to you about something," he explained. I shot a terrified glance to him then quickly looked away out the window.

"Oh? What about?" I was determined to act oblivious until I couldn't ride it out anymore. Jasper let out a huge sigh.

"Bella don't play dumb. I know you know why I'm here. Our spouses, and I use that term very loosely, are -let's see, how to put this- fucking," he finally said. I wasn't sure if it was the fact that I couldn't deny it anymore, or if it was the raw way Jazz had put it but I couldn't take it. I feel back into the seat next to him and buried my head in my hands.

"Bella I wish I could say something to comfort you, but unfortunately I do believe we're in the same boat here," he put his arm around me trying to comfort me. Angry, I stood up and threw a nearby lamp that not only shattered the window but the dry wall surrounding the frame as well.

"Do you realize what I gave up for him?" I screamed at no one unparticular but Jasper still looked a bit worried sitting there on the couch watching me flip out. "I would die for him goddamn it! Hell! I did die for that bastard," I was now walking in circles the hardwood floor splintered from where I stomped.

"Uh Bella?" Jasper called out, "WHAT?" I yelled, feeling the ceiling lights vibrate. "Not to interrupt but you're kind of destroying your house darlin'" I stopped for a second and took in the damage I had done. The window, part of the wall, a piece of countertop and the floor were in fact a bit disheveled. I stopped right away and then realized that this couldn't be my home anymore, this was where Edward and I had tried to start one, whatever was left of our relationship was gone now and so was our so called "home."

"What the hell are we going to do Jazz" I whimpered. I could feel him trying to calm me down, but he was so upset himself he couldn't focus.

"I'm not sure Bells, all I know for certain is that if we were to leave them this entire family would fall part," he and I both knew it was true. I thought of Esme and Carlisle, Em and Rose, even Charlie and Renee. All of them would be sad to see anything go wrong in our perfect little world. It would destroy them all. People would have to choose sides, and I couldn't do that to my family.

"We can't do that to the rest of them. We're going to have to live with this aren't we?" I posed it in the form of a question, but I already knew the answer.

Jasper and I were going to have to suffer while Alice and Edward went along in their own world.