Author's note: So, this one is short. I know! ;A; But I just want to see what you guys are thinking about the idea of Eric being hopelessly in love with Kosuke. Let me know if you want to read more. : Rated M for upcoming chapters. ~
Chapter ● One
Eric
It has been one year already. One year ago I was brought to HOMRA. I do not think that I would still be alive without that red-haired chump. He cared for me very well and I definitely am grateful. Even though I never show it to anyone. But I know that he knows.
I am currently living with Kosuke at his place. There is not much space for two actually, so he agreed to sleep on the couch. But I told him that I would not mind sleeping on the couch or sharing a bed with him, as long as he does not mind. And since his bed is big enough we agreed to us both sleeping in it. I never preferred sleeping alone anyway.
This night I am home later than usual. Kosuke has been messaging me, but I ignored it. I already heard Kosuke talking before walking into the living room. There is a guest, a girl sitting next to him. It is his girlfriend and I have to admit that I do not like her. She has long blonde hair and is not very tall. I do not know what it is what Kosuke feels attracted to.
"There you are, Eric. You sure know how to keep me worrying.", Kosuke says with a smile on his face. "I invited Asuka-chan. I hope you don't mind."
"Nope." I say and turn around, heading right into the kitchen. Actually, I do mind. But Kosuke is not the type for making his guests leave just because I want it so. He rarely does anything for me. Over the few months I have lived here he changed a lot. At first he made sure to care enough. I always had his attention, he used to ask me if I would be okay with it before doing anything that involves me. Today he still cares for me, but since I found a job and he found his girlfriend I am just another normal friend to him. I do a lot of stuff on my own now. Without needing Kosuke to help me. That is actually not bad.
I don't know if he knows, but he is not just a normal friend to me. I loved the way he cared for me. And that made me love him in general. Right from the first time I saw him I noticed that he is a handsome guy. I loved listening to him when he talked and I hated to see him talking with anyone but me. I had the feeling that getting his attention would become harder each day and I hoped strongly that I would lose interest some time. But that never was the case and still is not.
"She's going to stay for the night." I jerked a bit by hearing his voice. I was so deep in my thoughts that I did not hear him come.
"She is? Nice.", I lie, still having my back turned on him.
"So... You wouldn't mind sleeping on the couch tonight?"
I turn around to meet his eyes. I do not like the idea of her stealing my place to sleep. I already know Kosuke since a year. She knows him since just 5 months. So it is actually my right to stay and her right to sleep on the couch. But of course I would never say Kosuke what I truly think about it. I never do.
"I don't.", I say with eyes fixed on the ground.
Kosuke walks back into the living room while I stay in the kitchen for a while. It is terrible to love someone who can't love you back and probably never will. It is even worse knowing that he loves someone you hate instead. After a while I hear Asuka coming in.
"I'm really happy right now. Kosuke is so cute. It's like I fall in love with him every time I see him. I knew right from the beginning that he is the man I want to grow old with.". I have no idea why the hell she tells me this right now. I couldn't do anything but roll my eyes when she looked away.
"I'm tired. It would be nice of you to leave the living room now so I can get some sleep.", I say while Kosuke is coming in as well. He looks at me with surprise while I am walking pass him. He probably expected something else.
"Yeah, sure. Not a problem. We were about to go to sleep as well anyway. Good Night, Eric."
I did not answer him. I just let my tired body fall down on the couch. Maybe I should finally try to learn to tell Kosuke how I feel. How I feel about certain situations or how I feel about him. I do not think that it would get us very far. It think it will even have negative consequences if he knows that I fell in love with him. I can imagine that he would try to get some space between us, so that my feelings for him will just fade away. He is that type of guy for doing that. And I do not want space between us.
Last night I slept surprisingly good on the couch. Kosuke and I both have a day off today I remember. After slowly waking up I noticed that Asuka is still here. I hear both of their laughter coming from the bedroom. I could not stand it and so I pull up the blanket. When will she finally leave?
The bedroom door opens and Kosuke is coming out just in his boxers. I pretend to still sleep and watch him for a while. It looks like he is looking for something. Then he looks in my direction.
"Mornin', pal. Have you seen my cigarettes?"
"Are you going to smoke in the bedroom?! You remember that I am actually sleeping there, too. Or did you already forget?" I am surprised and straightly sit up. I do smoke every now and again. But still I do not want that smell of cigarette in the room where I am sleeping.
"No, no, no. I won't smoke in the bedroom. Chill.", Kosuke says a bit annoyed. "Asuka just asked me for a cigarette. She ran out of it, you know."
I lean back again. It would have been weird if Kosuke suddenly starts smoking in the bedroom.
"Got them!" Kosuke celebrates while staring at me with a grin. I look back at him with a tiny smile but he does not stop staring at me and so my smile fades again.
"What are you staring at?"
"Nothing. Sorry." He turns around and heads for the bedroom again as if nothing happened. What a weirdo.
Author's note: I don't think that Kosuke's girlfriend will get an important role in that fanfic. At least I don't know yet. I tried to be as in-character as possible. I hope everything's fine! If you have any improvement suggestions or any ideas I should build into that story let me know. I'm open for everything! Thank you for reading! c: