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"THE WEDDING" Chp 1

"Rose, would you stop pacing for five minutes and give your best friend a hug?" I heard a familiar voice say to my left.

I looked up and saw Lissa Dragomir with her arms outstretched and a knowing smirk on her face, waiting for me to run into her open arms. HELL NO! I just looked at her or should I say glared, she flinched and I saw a tear run down her cheek. GOOD! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. How could she be so oblivious?"

"I'm sorry did you say best friend, where the hell were you when I needed a best friend" I yelled back to her. It's true she just abandoned me to comfort Dimitri, the way she fussed over him made me sick. Every time I approached Dimitri to try and talk to him, she was in my face telling me "Just leave him alone Rose, don't you think you have done enough to hurt him, you keep pushing him, he doesn't want to talk to you… let it go. He's hurting; he needs me right now to help him deal with his pain."

I honestly could not believe what I was hearing; she knew what I went through to get him back and she knew how much I loved him, it was killing me, he wouldn't even look at me, he just flinched when he heard my voice and when he did look at me, he looked at me with disgust, it broke my heart into pieces, I felt like I couldn't breath. All I could remember was the night at the cabin, when I gave myself to him and the love in his eyes as he looked at me and swore to protect me always, be there for me as I had pledged the same to him

"I don't understand Rose, what do you mean, I wasn't the one to run out her best friend, you did, you left me broken." She cried her pathetic tears. Christian was hugging her and glaring at me, he had been no better; he thought that she was struggling with bringing Dimitri back, that it had somehow taken a toll on her mental state and that she didn't mean to push me away.

But the thing that Christian doesn't get is "the bond" I could sense and feel her emotions and not once was I concerned for her mental state, she was just enjoying the attention that Dimitri was paying to her, everyone had to bow to the princess, the whole celebrity status of her being the one to return a Strigoi to its Damphir state had gone to her head and she had been admired and worshiped by many, including my sexy Russian.

"You have got to be frikkin kidding me Princess, you couldn't wait to see the back of me, Adrian told me what you said when I left, that you'd hope that you never see me again. I loved you like a sister Lis, I would of gladly died for you, HELL there were many times where I nearly did and not once did you ask me how I was holding up when Dimitri was pushing me away".

"You have your man by your side loving you, what if Christian had been turned against his will and when he was returned to his Moroi state, he wanted nothing to do with you and he would only talk to me and better yet he said to you "Love Fades Mine Has" how would you feel and what if you needed me so badly, you just wanted me to hold you and tell you everything was going to be ok and I pushed you away."

I was shaking I was so angry, I had stopped taking the darkness from Lisa because I was pregnant and I worried about the babies so I put my walls up. And I hadn't even gone into her head to check on her or anybody else, not wanting to name a certain Russian. I couldn't stand watching him idolize her, like she was his goddess.

"I'm sorry Rose, I had no idea I was doing that to you, I have been the worst friend in the world, you have every right to be angry at me, the things I said about you….I am a spoilt selfish bitch and I won't deny that I enjoyed the attention I was getting, it really did go to my head, to the point of forgetting what was important to me." Lisa said.

"And what was so important Lis that you had to rip my heart out, I thought you loved me, we only had each other remember Lis, you and me, we were going to take on the world nothing was going to stop us, that's what we swore when we were in Portland. I said.

"YOU...you Rose…you are what was important to me and I let you down and I am so sorry, can you ever forgive me….please forgive me, I miss you so much, its killing me. Lisa cried. She had tears running down her face and she was hiccupping. Christian was stroking the back of her head and his glare turned to sorrow, he was looking at me like he was seeking my forgiveness as well.

"Oh jeez Lis, how the hell can I stay mad at you, I was trying to be strong I really wanted to blast you, both you and fire crotch, but I'm just so sick of being angry, I can't do it anymore, I'm broken and too tired to fight and now I have to watch the man I love Marry someone else and wish that it was me he gave his heart to".

"It wasn't easy coming here, Adrian had called me and told me about the Wedding but I needed the closure, I needed to say goodbye to Dimitri, if he can be happy and someone else can open his heart again, who am I to stand in the way of that. I would like to think he loved me once, but that would be wishful thinking". I said with a broken heart.

Lisa just ran straight into my arms crying her eyes out and I was joining her and even fire crotch joined us, it was a pretty touching moment.

"So sparky, have you missed me? you must have been going crazy without my sharp whit to entertain you, no one has go as good comebacks as I have."

"Oh Rosie Posie, you have no idea how much I have missed you, the place has been boring without you. said Christian.

"Sparky, call me Rosie Posie again and I'll cut your balls off and there with be no little Ozera/Dragomir babies for you."

"Hey Rose, leave his balls alone, I would like to have children one day if you don't mind." said Lisa.

"Ah there's the Rose we all know and love, its good to have you back, listen I'm sorry that you have to watch my Aunt marry Dimitri; I know how much you loved him or still love him, I can't say they make a happy couple, but who am I to judge, if they weren't happy then why are they getting Married, but if you saw Dimitri you would know what I mean, he doesn't look like a happy groom, he looks more like he is about to attend someone's funeral. Said Christian.

I wonder why he isn't happy about Marrying Tasha I mean, isn't that what he wanted to Marry and have a family, that's what she can give him. And I don't know if Christian saw me flinch, but when he said loved, I don't think he realizes that I LOVE HIM not loved him.

"No Christian, I haven't seen Dimitri yet, I just got here and it took all the will power I had just to make it inside the church, but I do need to talk to him before he gets married."

"Rose, your not going to create any trouble are you? I know you're angry with Dimitri, but you're not going to give him a broken nose on his Wedding day?" Said Christian.

"No sparky, nothing like that, I just need closure before I leave, I don't plan on sticking around for the Wedding."

"Ok Rose I understand, I don't think I could either, it's so good to see you, I hope we get to see you again soon." Said Christian

"Yes please Rose, I know that you are Abe's guardian. Is he here with you? Did he come as well?" Lisa asked.

"No Lis, I have actually been on holidays and staying with the Belikovs, I have told them about Dimitri and I asked them to give him space, at the time that he wasn't really in the right frame of mind to see them and deal with all the questions. So that is one of the things I will be discussing with him and I hope that he doesn't plan on going onto his honeymoon after the Wedding, they really want to see him and I guess they will be welcoming his new wife into their family."

"Actually Rose, they're not having a honeymoon, Tasha has work she is doing for the Queen, she is setting up new defensive magic classes, she is sharing them with Christian, the Queen has agreed that it wouldn't be a bad idea that Moroi learnt to defend themselves incase anything happened to their Guardian and Dimitri and Eddie will be dealing with combat classes, so they will be all work and no play. They have an apartment at court, there very nice apartments, the Queen just had them built, Christian and I get one too, they only turned up last week and haven't had a chance to up pack anything and I have been helping Tasha with the Wedding, so we have been really busy. Said Lisa.

"Alright, well I am going to go and find Dimitri, I will talk to you later. I said and with that I gave both Christian and Lisa and hug and went looking for Dimitri.

Flashback'

Nine months ago, the love of my life said those four unforgettable words: "Love fades, mine has." After that I ran out of the church, I had finally calmed down and decided this was bullshit, he was going to listen to me once and for all and I wasn't going to listen to anymore of his shit.

I went to his apartment banging on his door, he finally opened, he looked like shit, his eyes were red, it looked like he had been crying, obviously not for me, maybe he asked Lisa for sex and she refused him.

He half opened his door, so I pushed him out of the way and barged into his room; the murderous look he gave me did nothing, I was used to worst looks than that when he was a Strigoi. So there was no way in hell that he was going to intimidate me. I grabbed him and threw him against the wall and slammed my mouth onto his and kissed him with all I had.

The passion that suddenly overtook us was amazing, I could feel the need in him for me, he was fighting it, but at the same time grabbing me like he was scared he was going to loose me, we both seemed to relent and our sexual need for one another took over.

He screwed me senseless, the animalistic passion that overtook us was beyond erotic, the things he did to me that night no one has ever made my body feel that way, I climaxed so many times my body was shaking and I was so dehydrated, at one stage both Dimitri and I stuck our mouths under the faucet and then went back to ravaging each others bodies again. We were well and truly sated, I lay in his arms and fell asleep, we didn't talk, we didn't want to spoil the night, I think be both had an unspoken agreement that we would talk in the morning.

Sadly the next morning he was sitting on the end of his bed, he was dressed, he wouldn't even look at me and then he stood up and said "It was a mistake, you should never have come over, I don't love you anymore, you had no right to force yourself on me like that." My chest felt like it was about to cave in, I couldn't breath. And before I had a chance to say anything, he abruptly got off the bed, turned and looked at me with so much hate and said "Get out of my room and get out of my life, we have nothing together and never will, I just used you for sex, it was great, but that's all it was JUST SEX!" he spat those last words at me, like I was just some filthy blood whore and then he stormed out of his room. I broke down and decided then and there that I couldn't do this to myself anymore; it was just masochistic to stick around and have both lisa and Dimitri pick the flesh off my bones, right down to my very soul.

I headed to my room and packed my bags, made a few phone calls and with a little help from Adrian, I was on my way to Turkey. Adrian was such a good friend, he funded my trip to Russia to find Dimitri, no strings attached, and he just wanted me to be happy. (In this story Adrian is not Rose's boyfriend and she never let Adrian bite her) and if it meant a possibility of getting back the man I loved, my soul mate, then he was going to do anything to help me.

He said that I had changed him into a better man and he no longer took women for granted or acted like a good for nothing spoilt Royal. So I was off to see Abe Mazur( my long lost father, daddy dearest) he offered me a job guarding him, first he said that I didn't need to do anything but enjoy my time with him and have father and daughter bonding time, I told him "Are you kidding me with that bullshit old man, do you seriously think that I am just going to sit on my ass and mooch off you, no way in hell. I pay my way and I will work hard for my stay there" so that's how I got the job guarding him.

So I had been in Turkey for three months, but I had a very unexpected surprise, I had been so sick throwing up all the time, so Abe as the protective father insisted that I see his private doctor, they ran a few tests and the doctor had told me to my horror at the time that I was PREGNANT!

That's right Dimitri had knocked me up and ditched me, just like a blood whore, granted I am not really suppose to be able to be impregnated by another Damphir, but the doctor who has been Abe's physician for many years, told me that both Dimitri and I are special and we are not just like any other Damphir both of us have been brought back to life by spirit, technically Dimitri wasn't really dead, but his soul was not the same, when the blood of the Strigoi was poured into his mouth, his whole genetic structure was changed and he was also bombarded with evil darkness that changed his soul.

It was the same Darkness that I deal with that I take from Lisa, but I could manage to snap out of it once the darkness was gone, but when an innocent is changed against their will the darkness is with them all the time and with the darkness comes the bloodlust. When I put those rings on Dimitri when he held me captive, I saw the change in his behavior, he was the Dimitri that I fell in love with, he even wanted to know about his family and when he touched me he was so gentle and caring.

That is one thing I so desperately wanted to explain to Dimitri, he blamed himself for what he had done to me and all the innocents he had killed, but it was his evil soul that took over his actions. When I was plagued by the darkness all I wanted to do was kill the person who was a threat to me, it was scary and I was very dangerous, it frightened me the way I reacted to taking it and it frightened anyone near me at the time, the only person who didn't fear me was My Love Dimitri, he was my rock, my savior, I was lost without him.

So when Lisa staked him with the spirit infused stake she took away the darkness that was plaguing his soul and returned him to his Damphir state, the amount of spirit that went into his body was probably the same amount that brought me back from the dead, so both our bodies have changed. Apparently when they did test on me they found out that my genetic structure was identical to a Moroi, I still looked like a Damphir, I had the strength of a Damphir, I had not blood lust, but I was able to have a child with another Damphir, my body accepted Dimirtri's sperm and he was able to impregnate me.

It was amazing, all this time I felt bad because Dimitri had declined Tasha's offer to be her Guardian/baby Daddy and I felt guilty taking that away from him and all this time I could give him a child I didn't even know it and the doctor also wondered what Dimitri's DNA structure was like, they hadn't really done blood test on him from what I knew, they just asked him if he still desired blood and if he could go in the sunlight, they also got him to go into the church as Strigoi could never enter sacred ground. But I also wandered why I hadn't fallen pregnant when we made love in the cabin. The doctor just said, I was probably not ovulating at the time.

So I gave birth to twins, a boy and a girl, they were so beautiful, I'm not saying that because I'm their mother, they were perfect, the most beautiful babies I have ever seen, they had little button nose's, perfect pink pouty lips, BIG chocolate brown eye's. They both had Dimitri's eyes, it killed me to look at them at times, but they were part of him and as much as he didn't love me anymore, I still loved him.

I never hated him for the words he said to me, he was dealing with a lot, coping with what he had done as a Strigoi and the more I thought of it, I did force myself on him, I came to his room and threw myself at him, I took advantage of his confusion and vulnerability, but I will never regret doing that to him, because look what I got out of it, two beautiful babies, who I love more than life itself.

I wanted to go and visit Olena, Yeva and Dimitri's sisters, I was 6 months along, Abe was worried about me traveling so heavily pregnant, he had let me use his private jet to get there and then I was chauffeur driven to Bai from the Airport. It was a very comfortable drive; I think I slept for most of it.

I knew that Victoria was probably still angry with me, but I just had to go and see them and let them know about the babies. They also didn't know that Dimitri was alive, it wasn't my place to tell them, but they still had a right to know they loved him and he would need them. I could not see Dimitri calling them he was too busing dealing with self pity and he was ashamed of what he had done, he would never call them, I know him, he would rather they thought he was dead.

So I went to see them I stayed there through the rest of my pregnancy, after Abe found out he was going to be a Granddad, the whole idea of Guarding was forgotten. Dimitri's family never contacted Dimitri, I begged them to give him time, he was just not in a good place, I new that if he heard from his family it would kill him and he would probably panic.

Victoria forgave me, she was so happy when she saw me and bawled her eye's out and Yeva, well she just told me that Dimitri was confused and that he loved me, she was so cryptic she told me "Dimitri is walking the dark lonely path, betrayal is only but a footstep, the cloud of darkness will clear and there will be light, he will finally see for the first time." I had no idea what the hell she was talking about, just like Yeva to be cryptic, she just hugged me and I cried on her shoulder.

I went into labour one morning, I was told twins come early and they sure did, the house was a crazy mess, I was screaming, Olena and Yeva were giving the girls orders, Vika was crying her eyes out she was so scared for me, Sonya and Karolina smacked her to the side of the head and told her to snap out of it, that child birth was not meant to be pain free and that I would be rewarded with two beautiful babies.

The girls had taken so many pictures of me pregnant, some with my big belly showing and there was one where I had fallen asleep with my empty mug on my belly and the babies were kicking and the mug was jumping up and down, Karolina had video taped that. Karolina also video taped the birth; I yelled at her and told her not to direct it to my woman area, that's the last thing I wanted to see. She just laughed at that comment and called me a "pussy" and then I told her "that's right, keep that away from my pussy, thankyou."

I named mine and Dimitri's daughter 'Alisa Rose Belikov' and our son 'Jacob Ivan Belikov.'

Adrian had told me that Lisa did not cope well with me up and leaving, but not in the way I thought, she called me selfish and hoped that she'd never see me again and to tell me that "Dimitri couldn't care less if she was gone, he has me to help him and that's all that matters". I was mortified, Adrian bitched her out for that comment and asked her if she was screwing Dimitri, to that point Christian punched him in the nose, while Dimitri stood up against the wall not saying a word. I don't think he cared that Christian had punched him; he never really cared for Adrian.

Adrian walked up to Dimitri and spat in his face, all Dimitri did was wipe it away, it was like he felt he deserved it, well that's what Adrian said his aura was showing…remorse and shame. Adrian had told them that I was in Turkey guarding "Abe Mazur" Dimitri apparently flinched and yelled in outrage "Why is she with him? I told her to stay away from that man." he was shaking with anger, his fists clenched so tight that his knuckles were white. Adrian told him it was none of his business and she doesn't take orders from a cradle robber.

Eddie and Alberta had to jump in and hold Dimitri down because he was going to kill Adrian and then Dimitri yelled. "How come you know so much about Rose? Why is she talking to you and not to Lisa her bond mate?" I had to laugh when Adrian told me he yelled that.

Adrian yelled back. "Because, I am the only one who has not abandoned her and treated her like shit, especially when she is …Pre…well she needed a friend and I was there for her, none of you could give a damn if she was dead or alive." Adrian spat the last bit out and left the room. I can't believe those assholes asked 4 months later where I had gone to, Lisa thought I had gone on a holiday, seeing as I was never allowed to be her Guardian when I got back from Russian chasing Dimitri and endangering Lisa and Christian.

End of Flashback

I had rounded the corner to the rooms where the bride and groom go to reside before entering the church and they also had a little kitchen around there serving the guests beverages before the ceremony was on its way. And I could hear a waiter talking to one of the bridesmaids; she was flirting with him no doubt, but them it turned into gossiping.

"And I was just thinking to myself how beautiful this whole thing is! With a ceremony like this the marriage just has to work out!" I heard the bridesmaid exclaim.

"Well," said the waiter, "I don't think this marriage will last a week. I heard Tasha calling another man in the courtyard saying 'No! I will not call off the Wedding! Look, I'll meet you in my room, the bridesmaids are getting something to drink and socializing with the guests and I told them I needed time to myself, it won't be hours before I have to Marry him, so come to my room I'll be waiting." 'And you just know Dimitri will divorce that whore within a week!"

I could feel someone behind me and when I turned around it was Lisa, she must have gone looking for me, I had been gone for a while and as she hadn't seen me for a while, it was like she was afraid I would leave without saying good bye.

"Rose, do you believe what they were saying? Sorry I was sort of snooping as well, but what they said about Tasha, you don't think she would do something like that on her Wedding day?….That's just wrong." Lisa said.

"I don't know Lis, I don't know Tasha very well and to tell you the truth I'm not much of a fan either, but if she is doing that, Dimitri deserves to know what he is getting himself into, I will not allow him to be humiliated like that, no matter how angry I am with him, nobody deserves to be treated like that."

"Look Rose I couldn't agree more, but it may very well be gossip, I saw how thrilled Tasha was the whole time we were organizing the Wedding and it is hard to believe she would do that to Dimitri, and I know she has loved Dimitri for a long time, she would be crazy to jeapodise that." Lisa said.

Lisa and I were walking back to where Christian was, I had not had any success finding Dimitri yet, he was obviously somewhere, but not where I could see, as Lisa and Christian were filling me in on what they have been up to the whole time I had been away and I very successfully escaping questions for now about what I had been up to.

They had no idea that I had only given birth a few weeks ago, my body went straight back to it's normal self, all that hard training paid off in the end and not one single stretch mark either, my body looked fantastic and my breasts were huge, I am surprised that not even Lisa asked me why my boobs were so big, it would have been very strange coming from Christian, but I did however catch him staring at them a little longer than he should of…Perv.

Fate must have a sense of humor, because that was the exact moment Dimitri decided to show up.