It started three years ago.

I don't remember when it occurred, or how it happened.

It just did...and it had progressively ruined my life.

...

I thought I'd be okay. I really did.

I thought if I kept it to myself after all this time..I'd be fine.

..

...

...I w-wasn't.

It was worse that I thought it would be

I was only eleven years old. I was just a kid.

This year I'll be fourteen, and I'll make it myself out of the situations for the greater good.

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I can't let myself go so easily. I'm gonna have to be strong no matter what.

Even if I'm a burden to others around me. It doesn't mean I still won't try.

I'll give my very best, and I won't let anyone shoot me down.

"Ellen, Chop chop! It's time to go" My dad announced. Here I am standing by the doorway watching my sister saying her farewells to Dad and I ,before she leaves to the airport.

I can't believe this is happening. I-I'm not ready to see her go. I watch her hug Dad afar from me. She puts her luggage down and opens her arms wide.

I leap into them and, hug her as tight as I could-before she could leave my grasp.

"I'm going to miss you a lot. Don't think I'm going to forget you"

"If you're gone..I-I'll be alone" I sniff. She pulls herself away bends down a bit. (Yes, she's taller than me. Yes, I'm short-like 5'2-she's a giant. She's even taller than Dad)

"You won't be...we can chat online with video cameras. Don't be afraid Nate" We hug again, and then separated. I watch her enter the taxi-limo thing.

Dad taps me on the shoulder and signals that we should go back inside. I slump on the sofa as soon as we get inside.

"Son we'll be alright..I promise"

I sigh to myself. It seems like she was my best friend for the past few years, instead of Francis and Teddy. We got closer after my diagnosis...about my illness.

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"Nate, you should go lie down in bed. You look pale" I roll my eyes as I'm walking up the stairs to my room.

I'im always pale, do you ever notice?

I shut my door behind me, and jump on my bed. As I snuggle into my comforter, I wonder of the possibilities about me having a good day tomorrow.

I cackle to myself.

Yeah right..

I only know the worst that is yet to come by.

Hey, it's been a while!

So yeah, there's a new story in town.

*blows kazoo

Yeah, this is a short prologue but, other chapters are going to be longer I swear it.

This story is going to be very different actually. Apart from Fixation, this story isn't going to be joyful, if you can tell what you just read.

However if I do intend on putting humor it would be darkish I suppose. Ya'know 'black comedy' and all.

Umm, okay here's the thing the posting of chapters could be inconsistent considering the fact I'm almost always busy however, I'll do my best to maintain the posting.

I'm still planning on posting other stories too but, you'll have to be very patient.

Until I post again, I'll put updates and stuff.

Ciao!

-spicecat