Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill, etc, etc...though I wish I owned Chad
Michael Murray, lol. Oh well.
A/N: This is my first One Tree Hill fic so please review, I could use some ideas and suggestions.
Chapter 1: Always and Forever?
Staring into Nathan's eyes, Haley wished the moment could last forever. It seemed everything was moving too fast and at the same time had ceased to move at all. Only a short while ago she hadn't known anything about Nathan and now here they were, together. Just then Nathan's cell phone rang and he rolled away from her to answer it. She rolled her eyes and picked up her notebook; she'd been helping Nathan with his math homework until they'd got, well, distracted. She listened to his voice passively, not really paying attention until he told whoever it was that he'd be right over. Again, she thought. He always seemed to be leaving, unlike Lucas who always seemed to be there when she needed him the most.
"Sorry, baby, but Tim wants me to come by. He said he had something he wanted to show me. So I'll call later, okay?" Nathan told her, turning back to kiss her.
"Yea, fine," Haley muttered to herself as he walked out the door, grabbing his backpack on the way out. She tried to focus on finishing her homework but it was no use. Besides, it wasn't as though she didn't pay attention in class. Looking at the clock next to her bed, she decided it wasn't too late to call Lucas. Not that it was ever too late to call him; he was there for her no matter what. She picked up the phone and dialed his number, letting the phone ring for what seemed like forever and he still didn't pick up. Since it was only 7, Haley decided she'd stop by the café and see if Karen needed any help.
Business at the café was great as Haley had to weave her way through the crowd to get to Karen, who was taking orders at the counter.
"Need any help?" she asked rhetorically, looking around.
"Could you? That'd be wonderful," Karen pleaded a bit breathlessly.
"Of course," Haley replied, smiling brightly as she grabbed an apron from behind the counter and turned to take an order.
An hour later things were starting to calm down enough for Haley to take the break she so desperately needed. She sat down at an empty table just as Lucas walked in. He smiled and walked over to sit down next to her.
"Hey," he smiled at her, "I thought you didn't work tonight?"
"Your mom needed help, so I volunteered. You should've been here an hour ago, things were crazy. And where have you been? I tried to call you earlier but there was no answer."
"Well, um, actually I was at Peyton's," he explained, looking down at the table.
"What's going on between you two? I can't keep track lately, it's Peyton, Brooke, Peyton, Brooke. I'm starting to get confused." Haley laughed, not betraying any of the jealousy she started to feel whenever either name was mentioned.
"I really don't know. One second she wants to be with me, one second she just wants to be friends. You know Peyton, all drama." He looked across at Haley who was taking her own turn looking down at the table. "What's up, Hales?" he asked, concerned.
"It's just that I don't even know you anymore. You're always with someone else or I'm with Nathan and we never have time to talk like we used to. I miss you, Lucas," Haley told him, meeting his eyes. A girl could get lost in eyes like those, she thought to herself.
"Haley, could you take that order?" Karen asked, pointing to a table across the café.
"No problem," Haley smiled- her oh-so-cheerful, fake smile she put on whenever she didn't want someone to know she was upset.
That night Haley couldn't sleep, she tossed and turned and finally gave up. She crawled out of bed and put on some sweats, pulled her hair into a ponytail and walked out the door. This is crazy, she told herself as she walked the familiar route to Lucas's house. As she got near, she noticed his light on. Good, I won't be waking him up, she thought. She walked the rest of the way to his back door and knocked quietly, hoping he would hear her. He did and there he was standing right in front of her. Suddenly she didn't remember why she was there. Lucas opened the door and waited for her to speak.
"I couldn't sleep..."she started but couldn't find the words to finish. Words were unnecessary, however, as Lucas nodded and gestured for her to come in.
"Me neither." They laid on his bed together for a while, not saying anything until Haley finally found the courage to tell him what had been on her mind for so long.
"Lucas, I don't like the way things are between us. I feel like I'm losing you and that's the last thing I want. I need you."
"I need you too, Hales. I'm so confused these days, I don't even know what's happening with me anymore. I'm not the same person and that scares me."
"That's not everything. I think I love you," Haley admitted quietly, half to herself. "I mean, really love you. I know I'm with Nathan, but it's just not the same. I've always loved you. But I never wanted to ruin what we do have. It's just too much now though, with Brooke, and Peyton, and Nathan. I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like I'm living a lie and it's eating me up." A tear trickled down her cheek as she refused to look at Lucas. It had taken her so long to admit to herself that she loved him, let alone get the courage to tell him. And now was the moment of truth, the moment she had longed for and dreaded for so long.
*Okay, so this chapter went kind of slow and focused on Haley for the most part. But next chapter I think I'll add some Peyton to the mix and of course Nathan... Let me know what you think. I hate leaving a cliffhanger, but I want some suggestions before I continue. I'm not quite sure yet what Lucas will do... Thanks for reading.*
A/N: This is my first One Tree Hill fic so please review, I could use some ideas and suggestions.
Chapter 1: Always and Forever?
Staring into Nathan's eyes, Haley wished the moment could last forever. It seemed everything was moving too fast and at the same time had ceased to move at all. Only a short while ago she hadn't known anything about Nathan and now here they were, together. Just then Nathan's cell phone rang and he rolled away from her to answer it. She rolled her eyes and picked up her notebook; she'd been helping Nathan with his math homework until they'd got, well, distracted. She listened to his voice passively, not really paying attention until he told whoever it was that he'd be right over. Again, she thought. He always seemed to be leaving, unlike Lucas who always seemed to be there when she needed him the most.
"Sorry, baby, but Tim wants me to come by. He said he had something he wanted to show me. So I'll call later, okay?" Nathan told her, turning back to kiss her.
"Yea, fine," Haley muttered to herself as he walked out the door, grabbing his backpack on the way out. She tried to focus on finishing her homework but it was no use. Besides, it wasn't as though she didn't pay attention in class. Looking at the clock next to her bed, she decided it wasn't too late to call Lucas. Not that it was ever too late to call him; he was there for her no matter what. She picked up the phone and dialed his number, letting the phone ring for what seemed like forever and he still didn't pick up. Since it was only 7, Haley decided she'd stop by the café and see if Karen needed any help.
Business at the café was great as Haley had to weave her way through the crowd to get to Karen, who was taking orders at the counter.
"Need any help?" she asked rhetorically, looking around.
"Could you? That'd be wonderful," Karen pleaded a bit breathlessly.
"Of course," Haley replied, smiling brightly as she grabbed an apron from behind the counter and turned to take an order.
An hour later things were starting to calm down enough for Haley to take the break she so desperately needed. She sat down at an empty table just as Lucas walked in. He smiled and walked over to sit down next to her.
"Hey," he smiled at her, "I thought you didn't work tonight?"
"Your mom needed help, so I volunteered. You should've been here an hour ago, things were crazy. And where have you been? I tried to call you earlier but there was no answer."
"Well, um, actually I was at Peyton's," he explained, looking down at the table.
"What's going on between you two? I can't keep track lately, it's Peyton, Brooke, Peyton, Brooke. I'm starting to get confused." Haley laughed, not betraying any of the jealousy she started to feel whenever either name was mentioned.
"I really don't know. One second she wants to be with me, one second she just wants to be friends. You know Peyton, all drama." He looked across at Haley who was taking her own turn looking down at the table. "What's up, Hales?" he asked, concerned.
"It's just that I don't even know you anymore. You're always with someone else or I'm with Nathan and we never have time to talk like we used to. I miss you, Lucas," Haley told him, meeting his eyes. A girl could get lost in eyes like those, she thought to herself.
"Haley, could you take that order?" Karen asked, pointing to a table across the café.
"No problem," Haley smiled- her oh-so-cheerful, fake smile she put on whenever she didn't want someone to know she was upset.
That night Haley couldn't sleep, she tossed and turned and finally gave up. She crawled out of bed and put on some sweats, pulled her hair into a ponytail and walked out the door. This is crazy, she told herself as she walked the familiar route to Lucas's house. As she got near, she noticed his light on. Good, I won't be waking him up, she thought. She walked the rest of the way to his back door and knocked quietly, hoping he would hear her. He did and there he was standing right in front of her. Suddenly she didn't remember why she was there. Lucas opened the door and waited for her to speak.
"I couldn't sleep..."she started but couldn't find the words to finish. Words were unnecessary, however, as Lucas nodded and gestured for her to come in.
"Me neither." They laid on his bed together for a while, not saying anything until Haley finally found the courage to tell him what had been on her mind for so long.
"Lucas, I don't like the way things are between us. I feel like I'm losing you and that's the last thing I want. I need you."
"I need you too, Hales. I'm so confused these days, I don't even know what's happening with me anymore. I'm not the same person and that scares me."
"That's not everything. I think I love you," Haley admitted quietly, half to herself. "I mean, really love you. I know I'm with Nathan, but it's just not the same. I've always loved you. But I never wanted to ruin what we do have. It's just too much now though, with Brooke, and Peyton, and Nathan. I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like I'm living a lie and it's eating me up." A tear trickled down her cheek as she refused to look at Lucas. It had taken her so long to admit to herself that she loved him, let alone get the courage to tell him. And now was the moment of truth, the moment she had longed for and dreaded for so long.
*Okay, so this chapter went kind of slow and focused on Haley for the most part. But next chapter I think I'll add some Peyton to the mix and of course Nathan... Let me know what you think. I hate leaving a cliffhanger, but I want some suggestions before I continue. I'm not quite sure yet what Lucas will do... Thanks for reading.*