Hey you! This is my very first English fanfiction and I'm very excited about it!
English is not my first language and I really hope that it's good enough and acceptable for you to read.
If there a any grammar or spelling mistakes I made, I apologize and try to correct them as soon as possible.
Let me know what you think about the first chapter!
Hope you like it 3
You slowly open your eyes. The sun is shining bright right through your window and you can hear the birds sing. It's a lovely morning and there's no college for you today. While listen to the silence of your apartment, you realize Kurt and Rachel are already gone. It's quiet and there's no anoying voice singing her lungs out and no dramaqueen grumbling about his hair. You love Lady Hummel and of course you love Rachel. But you also love the time where both of them were gone and there's no one but you at home.
You really enjoy the silence sometimes. But sometimes this silence can be so loud.
Especially today.
It's been a long year, since you broke up with the love of your love. You still can't believe what you've done and you hate yourself for it. When you saw the tears in her ocean blue eyes and how much you hurt her, it broke your heart into pieces. Nothing will ever heal the scars on her heart you left that day. Sure, she's been in a relationship with Sam now, you've heard from Tina,
but you can swear that she's not loving him the way, she loved you. She will never look at him, like she looked at you and she will never kiss him, like she kissed you.
So you decide to stay in bed all day, watching sad movies and eating ice cream. When you get into the kitchen, you notice a piece of paper on the kitchen island, you suppose that it's from Rachel. You grab that piece and take a look.
"There's a letter for you on the kitchen island, it's really important, so please read it. Kurt and I will come back late. See you, xx Rachel"
That's when your eyes find the letter, Rachel spoke about.
"Dear Santana,
it's been a long time, huh? How are you? Rachel told me you're living with her and Kurt and go to college with'em.
The reason why I wrote you this letter is that I spoke with Brittany this morning and she's so … - well, she's not the same person I met some month ago. She told me she's dating Sam and that she loves him but to be honest, I know that she's still in love with you. And I know you're still in love with her, too.
I don't want to make you feel bad or sad but do me a favor and call her. Talk to her and please - meet her! Spend a little time with her. Even though we never really talked to each other, you're still one of my friends and so is Brittany. I really do love you both, and all I want is that you two get back to where you started. You were so in love with each other and I can't believe that it's been already a year. Time goes by so fast.
And to be honest, I really don't like Sam. He's not the right person for her and he don't understand her, like you do. Sure he's nice and so on, but you always made her feel special, and I quess, that's what she's missing. She kinda seemed a little bit sad when I talked about you.
Give your love a second chance, I know it's worth it!
Love you, Sugar xx"
You wipe away some tears which have started to fall while reading Sugars Letter. She was so sweet and you laughed when she told you she don't like Sam, too.
Her letter made you think about your past, about Brittany and your feelings for her. Sugar was right. You're still in love with her and it hurts you to know, that she's still with Sam. A stupid, blonde boy who knows nothing about her.
The rest of the day, you're wondering about calling Brittany for the first time since one year. You're thinking about visiting her or inviting her over. But you're not sure if it's right. What would she think about this? Would she be happy seeing you? Or is she still mad at you? There are so many questions in your head but you have no answers.
Somewhen between the movie and the commercial you've fall asleep. It's already dark outside and there's an annoying, yet soft voice which wakes you up and when you open your eyes again, you can see Rachel sitting on your bed next to you. She smiles.
"Hey."
"Hey", you answer back, still tired.
"Did you sleep all day?", she asks you and her eyes notice the empty cup on your table. "And eat ice cream?"
"Yeah", you mumble. "That's the only thing I want to do today."
She's thinking, you can tell by her expression. That's when you bury your face into your pillow, trying to make her go.
"San", she softly says. "I know, about today."
"Leave me alone", you grumble and try to hide your tears.
Rachel and you never where close friends in the past, but since you've moved in, so many things changed. Sure, Rachel's still an annoying person to you, but she also has this friendly and caring side. She's always listening to you, if you have problems or your day was bad. She cares about you. And so do you about her and Kurt. Since you've find out about Brodys little secret, Rachel knew that you're serious about this friendship. She knows that you really care about them, too. You do a lot for your friends.
"I won't. Talk to me, Santana", she nearly begs you.
"I don't want to, please Rachel, leave me alone. I'm a mess and all I want to do is cry me back to sleep", you mumble into your pillow. Even though Rachel never saw you cry, it's not a secret anymore that you've done it a lot of times in the past. Mostly about Brittany.
You're still hoping that she's leaving soon, but deep in your heart you know, that she won't.
There's a long silence and Rachel's still not leaving.
She takes a deep breath, then says something to you, you would never expect.
"Finn called me today", she breathes out. "He said, that he heard from Puck, who heard from Sam, that Brittany's pregnant."
"What?", you blurt. "She's pregnant?" You can't believe what Rachel said and you're still praying that it's just a bad joke from her.
But she keeps serious, biting her lower lip and nods.
"Yeah. 3 Month now", she says. She's so sorry for you, you can see it. All you want to do right now, is running into the streets, waiting until some car hits and kill you. If she's really pregnant, that would be the end of you and her forever. She would marry Sam, move in with him and raise a child with him.
"I can't believe this is happening", you whisper. Tears fall down your cheek and you try to hide them. Rachel is leaning in, trying to hug you but you don't want to. All you want her do to is leaving you alone.
"Please, leave me alone", you beg. "Please."
She softly nods like she understands you. Like she knows that you need time for you alone. To think about all this news she gave you.
There's no other way. You have to get to Lima as soon as possible to talk to Brittany. She can't be serious about being pregnant. She's to young to raise a child. She's only eighteen!