©dwindling flame
Hey guys! Want is back! I told you I'd repost it. Now it has been... somewhat revised... but still expect to see errors that I probably missed. =|
Disclaimer: I don't own KHR. SADNESS
Want
"I was told by the ninth today… to decide whether or not I want to become the boss by the morning before the ceremony."
Enma's drooping eyes stared at Tsuna blankly, listening to the words of the slightly confused boy before him. There was no way he'd voice his actual thoughts at that moment… In his mind, he wanted Tsuna to take his past advice. He wanted Tsuna to run. He didn't want Tsuna to enter the world of the Mafia. He didn't want Tsuna to become an enemy… He didn't want to admit it but… Tsuna was breaking past his barriers… and he hated it.
"Ninth said to do as I wish, but… I could tell that he honestly wants me to become boss and restore the family back to how it was during the days of Primo."
No… Why would anyone want to do that? Enma refrained from speaking that initial thought, opting to play innocent; "Vongola the Ninth said that?" Something was highly unbelievable about this situation. Here he was, staring at the future tenth boss… He came to Namimori wanting nothing more than to end the reign of Vongola… He wanted to see them suffer. He wanted them to feel the pain that they had bestowed upon his family. But instead of just waiting for the ceremony, he was sitting here, wishing that the ceremony wouldn't happen. He didn't want to hurt Tsuna… He wanted to believe that the other was different… Pure.
"Yeah, but… I think you know, Enma-kun… that I'm not fit to be a mafia boss! I suck at sports and studies and everything else… I really don't think I can stand about people and give out orders…"
Yes! It's true! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise! Enma's mind raged even though his outward appearance remained impassive, slightly detached. "Why are you telling me this?" He didn't want to sound mean… he really didn't… It was just that with Tsuna defying everything he thought the Vongola stood for, he was confused. He couldn't help but feel like he was being fooled by Tsuna… but he was falling for it.
"Ah! S-sorry… It's just that I don't have anyone I can talk to about mafia stuff… Gokudera-kun believes that I should be boss… Reborn is practically here for that reason too." Tsuna smiled sheepishly, causing a pang of an unnamable emotion to strike Enma's heart. "It was the first time I was told to run away."
Stop.
"You're the only one who understands-"
Stop…
"-what it's like for a mafia member to hate the mafia."
Stop! "Don't put me in the same category as you." Enma didn't mean to snap… But he didn't like what he wasn't like what he felt. He didn't like feeling his trust in Tsuna growing. He didn't want to trust the Vongola… he couldn't.
"Eh…?" Tsuna's eyes widened a bit, his smile dropping instantly, making Enma's heart drop with it.
"Unlike your lot, my family has had a lot of scary things inflicted upon us by other mafia families." Why was he still talking? He didn't have to reveal this to the Vongola… Maybe he wanted Tsuna to know what he went through… Maybe it was a test to see if Tsuna could be trusted.
"Huh? What do you mean…?"
Enma's eyebrows furrowed. So naïve… so ignorant to the truths of his own lineage. "The Shimon family has dealt with a lot of crap from other families because we're famous as a small and weak family." Enma's eye's narrowed as his gaze shifted to land on Tsuna, "You could never understand our pain, Tsuna-kun." And before this day, Enma wanted nothing more than to make Tsuna understand. He wanted Tsuna to feel his pain… He tried to ignore the pang in his heart when a look of shock and hurt crossed Tsuna's face.
"S-sorry."
The remorse in the boy's voice made Enma's resolve face away. There was a moment of silence before Enma spoke again. "But…" he noticed that he had Tsuna's full attention. "There are times when I feel that I could be friends with you, Tsuna-kun…" and it was true; to some extent. He just didn't want to admit just how true his words were becoming. It was bothering him. He was getting soft. Everything his family had planned for, waited for, was going to be ruined by his weakness… but he just couldn't stop talking. "Tsuna-kun is different from the other scary mafia people." Why wouldn't he just stop talking?
"I…!" Tsuna's face was one of pure shock, borderline desperation… as if he was trying to prove something he knew Enma didn't want to believe, "I already consider us friends!"
No!
Enma tried closing him out. He didn't want to hear it! He didn't want to know how everyone was getting along with the Vongola. Shimon didn't really care about them! They were just biding time until the ceremony! He knew that the Vongola didn't care about them either! That bitter family was just using them to protect Tsuna until the ceremony. Everyone that Tsuna spoke of wanted nothing to do with the family! No one else was falling victim to this generation's charm! Obviously, Tsuna was just trying to be nice! He didn't mean it! He's only dealing with Shimon until after the ceremony! In Tsuna's mind, when it's over, Shimon and Vongola go their separate ways and never have to see each other again… right?
"Even without the ceremony…" Tsuna's smile radiated, warming Enma's heart. "I really think it's great that we were all able to meet each other!"
Enma's heart beat wildly in his chest. Please… Stop… "You should just to whatever you want." He said briskly, looking away from Tsuna's smile. It was painful. He couldn't bear it. "I think I'd understand you a lot better too." Enma couldn't determine if that was a lie or the truth of his heart. He couldn't understand Tsuna… He wanted to trust him… He wanted to believe that he was really who he claimed to be… but he wasn't sure if he was ready for the truth…
"Tsuna! The bath's ready!"
"Ah! Okay!" Tsuna looked back at Enma after hearing his mother's voice "Why don't you hop in first, Enma-kun?"
"You go ahead and go first."
"Okay, I'll go first. I'll try to think about the inheritance myself a little more."
"Yeah…"
The door closed.
Enma reached into his bag, pulling out a phone, a pen and a piece of paper. He'd test Tsuna… He'd test him to be sure that he could trust him…
Enma sat on the bed that was made for him, his legs crossed. His mind was uneasy. All he could think about was Tsuna. He wanted nothing more than to believe that Tsuna was good.
Footsteps were heard coming up the stairs. Tsuna was back.
He wanted to know that he wasn't going to attempt to throw away his family's plans for this boy if it was all an act.
The door knob turned and in walked Tsuna, clad in nothing but a pair of boxers and a towel around his neck. His hair was damp, dripping water down his neck, his back, and shockingly toned chest. Enma couldn't help but stare.
He wanted Tsuna to not give in to the corrupt lifestyle that this mafia family had to offer. He was too good for this… too innocent.
"Alright, Enma-kun!" Tsuna said, grinning as he walked over to his bed where a change of clothes were waiting for him.
Enma stood, staring at Tsuna's back. He wanted him to past his test…
Walking towards him, Enma's hands reached out just as Tsuna put the shirt over his head, with one arm in the sleeve. His fingers touched against hot, slightly damp skin. He saw Tsuna jump at his touch, turning his head to look back at the red head, whose gaze was focused on his fingers on Tsuna's back. "E-Enma-kun…?" Enma stayed silent, his eyes traveling up Tsuna back to meet those curious eyes that stared at him.
He wanted to make Tsuna forget about his worries… make him forget about the mafia.
Enma leaned closer, his hands slipping down to Tsuna's waist. The boy tensed, trying to turn his body to face Enma but the red head's chest was against his back, making it hard to turn without harming Enma. "Ah! W-what are you doing?" Enma's eyes dropped slightly to focus on Tsuna's lips. Tsuna's plump lips were parted slightly, showing that he was trying to formulate words to comprehend the situation. Enma hated how those lips mesmerized him so… The lips of a Vongola capable of telling lie after lie… lips capable to sending a person to their death… the lips of the boy he wanted to trust…
He wanted…
"Please… don't move." Enma leaned in a bit closer, raising his chin upwards and captured Tsuna's lips with his own, cutting off any protest that the Vongola could try to come up with. He felt Tsuna go completely stiff next to him. Enma's eyes remained half lidded, watching Tsuna's reaction from beneath his eyelids. The brunettes face exploded, turning a deep –and rather pretty- shade of pink, his eyes widening greatly as he looked at Enma, his arms frozen in their awkward position; one in his sleeve, holding up the hem of his shirt while the other arm was bent between his chest and the shirt. Enma pushed a little more, moving his lips gently against Tsuna's. He wanted Tsuna to react…
Stop staring! Do something...!
Removing his lips, Enma pulled away, only enough to break the kiss, but left their faces close, enjoying the feel of Tsuna's hot, labored breath on his face.
He wanted… Tsuna.
Said brunette just stared, unable to create words or even an acceptable response. Enma stared back at him, feeling a blush spread across his bandaged cheeks. He bit his bottom lip, lowering his head a bit in shame. He had fallen victim to those eyes… those honey colored eyes.
"Enma-kun…"
"Kiss me."
Tsuna blinked, "Wha-?"
Enma grasped on to his shirt (which still needed to be put on completely), looking up at him with pleading eyes, "Please…! Kiss me!"
Tsuna gulped, putting his arm through his sleeve finally. Enma's arms dropped from his waist, hanging down at his side. His gaze trailed down to the floor, biting his bottom lip. Why did he have to do that? Why did Tsuna have such an effect on him? He didn't know what to do now. He just made everything more awkward than it had to be. It wasn't until he felt soft, shaky hands on his cheeks, pulling his face up, that his train of thought stopped. Tsuna was looking at him with such an unsure face. He saw Tsuna swallow hard, licking his lips (those sweet, tantalizing lips), as he dipped his head and captured Enma's lips in soft, clumsy kiss.
Enma closed his eyes instantly, letting his lips fumble against Tsuna's. He shouldn't be doing this…! Enma's arms rose slowly, coming up to grasp Tsuna's wrists. He should stop! His breath came out in short bursts as Tsuna and he experimented with their lips, finding out which angle was the most comfortable for them.
He should have tugged on Tsuna's wrist. He should have stopped him, despite being the one who asked for it. There was a lot of things he should have done in that moment… but all that mattered was what he did do (or what he didn't do).
And he didn't stop.
Pulling away momentarily for air, Enma looked at Tsuna's flustered face, watching him pant from the lack of air. They stared at each other, unsure if they should continue or stop there, but it was when Tsuna made the cautious move forward that the decision was made. Enma placed a hand behind Tsuna's neck, lacing his fingers in damp locks of hair, and pulled Tsuna back to him, locking their lips once more.
This kiss was different. It wasn't so insecure. It was still curious and experimental, but it was definitely more heated. Enma's tongue came out to lick at Tsuna's bottom lip, diving in when Tsuna opened his mouth for him. Tsuna's arm wrapped around his back, his eyes drooping as he stared at Enma through his lashes. The red head kept his eyes open too, taking in the sight of Tsuna's flustered face. He could feel his body heating up. His blood rushed south, causing his breath to hitch slightly. Tsuna took opportunity of that slight hesitation and took control of the kiss, forcing his tongue into Enma's mouth, exploring the new lands.
Enma let out a mewl of approval, shivering slightly as he shut his eyes tight. Keeping his right hand laced in Tsuna's hair, his left hand came up to pull off the towel that was still around Tsuna's neck and threw it to the floor. He placed his hand on Tsuna's chest, pushing him back towards the bed. Tsuna complied, falling into a sitting position on the bed, accidentally breaking their kiss. Enma breathed heavily while climbing up on top of Tsuna, kneeling down with each of his legs on either side of the boy. Tsuna stared up at him with large, confused, lustful eyes. Enma said nothing, putting both of his hands on Tsuna's shoulders before diving in for their third kiss.
Closing his eyes, Enma pushed him down once more, making Tsuna lie down. This time, the kiss was not broken as Enma followed him quickly, staying on his hands and knees above Tsuna. Their tongues battled for dominance, deepening the kiss that had gotten steadily more experienced. Enma placed his forearms on either side of Tsuna's head, lowering his hips to lie on top of the boy. He didn't expect their crotches to rub against each other so perfectly. He also didn't expect the shock wave of pleasure that subsequently followed. Enma hissed, his lips clamping down around Tsuna's tongue, sucking on the muscle greedily. Tsuna moaned in response to the friction between them and the sudden assault on his tongue, unconsciously arching his back.
And once again, their erections were rubbing together, making waves of pleasure run through both boys' bodies. Tsuna reached up to grab at Enma's shirt, rolling his hips upwards purposely now. Enma moaned against Tsuna's lips and began moving his hips to meet the thrusts of the boy below him. Ripping his mouth away from Tsuna's, Enma looked down at the red faced, sweating boy below him. God, it was so hot…
He didn't get time to dwell on it further as Tsuna raised his head and took a hold of Enma's neck with his lips. Tsuna licked along Enma's pale flesh, nibbling and sucking at white skin, trying to put as much color in them as possible. Enma's head hung low, his breath becoming heavy with pleasure. He was almost sent reeling when Tsuna wrapped his legs around his waist, pushing his hips down harder against their erections. Enma let out a loud moan that he tried to muffle by biting gently on Tsuna's jaw.
Locking his lips around the other boy's jaw bone, Tsuna threw his head back and licked his lips, placing his own hand over his mouth as the friction began to get painful. With Enma's erection grinding against his own and the red head's moans being lost against his skin, Tsuna response only alerted Enma that the boy was feeling a whole world of bliss. Letting go of Tsuna's jaw, Enma bit down on his own lip, sitting up slightly so he could look at the brunette below him. Tsuna's face was red, contorted into a picture of ecstasy. He had his hand over his mouth, muffling his moans with the back of his hand.
Enma fucking loved that sight…
Keeping as quiet as possible, Enma continue to grind against Tsuna, loving the faces he made with each thrust. But it wasn't enough. He wanted to hear him… Reaching down to Tsuna's hands, Enma grabbed his wrists, pulling the boy's arms away from his face, pinning them on the bed next to his bed.
"Moan for me."
Enma could see that Tsuna wanted to protest. Another good thrust of the hips caused all of Tsuna's words to come out in a jumbled mess of noises. Enma smirked, trying to suppress his own moans, keeping them to low grunts. Releasing one of Tsuna's hands, Enma ran his hand up Tsuna's shirt, his fingers grazing over Tsuna's nipple, which was already hard before his touch. Licking his lips, Enma slowed down his thrusts. Leaning down to nibble on Tsuna's neck, Enma ran his tongue along Tsuna's neck up to his ear, suckling on the mound of flesh.
Tsuna's moans were driving him wild. He couldn't take it.
Sucking at Tsuna's ear, Enma continued playing with his nipple, enjoying the little shivers that erupted from Tsuna's body with every other touch.
He was going mad with lust…
Tsuna arched into his touch, his eyes shut tight. His jaw was slack, his moans coming from parted lips.
He wanted to do so much to Tsuna right now. He wanted to take advantage of this perfect moment… It was perfect; the perfect picture with the perfect model… Letting go of Tsuna's ear, Enma captured his lips again, enjoying the feel of Tsuna's moans drowning away in his mouth. His erection was throbbing painfully. He wanted nothing more than to remove his pants and let his manhood free. He wanted to do more with Tsuna… he didn't want to stop…
"Enma-kun! Are you going to shower?"
Enma ripped his lips away from Tsuna, his clouded high being dispersed by the sound of Tsuna's mom yelling up the stairs. Enma panted, staring down at Tsuna, who was now chewing on his lips. "A-ah… Yeah!" Enma awkwardly got up off Tsuna, watching the other boy sit up, breathing heavily. Not knowing what to say, Enma looked down, rubbing his arm as he moved towards the door. "I… Uh… I'm gonna go shower…"
"Y-yeah…"
And with that, Enma dashed out the door.
Enma breathed heavily, sinking down into the tub of warm water graciously. What has he done? This wasn't a part of their plan… He wasn't supposed to fall this hard from grace. He was the tenth boss of the Shimon family. He had to avenge his family. He was their savior. He was supposed to bring back the power to Shimon… but no… He's following Cozart's footsteps. He's falling victim to the charm of the Vongola.
Looking down at his legs, Enma stared at his throbbing member, feeling his heart race at the thought of what he was just doing. God… why did they have to stop? Sinking lower in the water, Enma found that his hand was gravitating towards his member. Nibbling on his lip, Enma grasped the base of his member. He felt so guilty…
Sliding his hand up his manhood, reaching the tip, Enma gave it a little squeeze. Letting out a sigh, Enma began to pump himself faster; letting images of Tsuna lying beneath him fill his mind. His heart raced, tears forming in his eyes from the frustration. Sliding deeper into the water so that his mouth was submerged, Enma let go of his moans, letting his voice make little bubbles in the water as he attempted to remember to breathe in through his nose. He felt so dirty, sitting there in the tub, rubbing himself off to the memory of his rendezvous with his frienemy. It was so wrong…
But he didn't want to stop.
TBC
Sooo~
Sure the hardcore goodness didn't happen yet; but it will next chapter. :D
Also~ I think I'm gonna need a beta. I'm absolutely terrible at catching my own mistakes until it's too late, then I feel dumb.
AND! Originally, this was just a two chapter story... do you think I should continue it and lengthen it a bit? I'm thinking about it, but I have to come up with more ideas first. Haha~