One final kiss to the jaw and a curse under the breath was all it took to lose all meaning.
Dean rolled off of Cas sweaty and out of breath.
He searched for his hand under the bed sheets and laced his fingers through Cas's. Cas didn't look anywhere near as out of breath as Dean did. Damn angel mojo,Dean inwardly scowled and turned to look at Castiel again. Castiel's face was blank and emotionless until he saw Dean looking at him and he smirked. These little moments were the best between the two. It was quiet, as though nothing would ever be needed to be said to express what they felt towards each other.
Dean shifted his bare feet under the covers awkwardly. And said what he said every time afterwards.
"I- I really, uh, like you Cas. A lot." He groaned inwardly and immediately felt his ears blazing hot red. Just as they did every time. Ever since the first time.
Why do I have to say that every time , Dean was thoroughly confused about his relationship with Cas. He loved Cas. Cas loved him. Why isn't it that simple. He'd never said he loved Cas. Dean figured Cas wouldn't understand what exactly love was to humans. Then again, neither do humans. So why was it so hard for him to just say it!?
"As do I Dean. Well, meaning I feel the same emotions for you, not for myself," Cas rambled on. Dean's eyes traveled all over the other man's bare torso. He stopped at Cas's shoulder blades and imagined a pair of beautiful wings attached to them.
"Cas," Dean interrupted Castiel's rambling cautiously.
"Hm?" The angel had his eyes closed in thought.
"Um, do you think, maybe, one of these days, I-I'll be able to see your wings?" Dean felt he was plenty qualified to ask this question considering they "shared a profound bond."
Castiel's eyes shot open and he audibly gulped.
Never, in all his time of being with Dean, would he have guessed his wings were important to him. Cas thought Dean would have considered it a mushy, girly thing. Dean physically could not see his wings unless… No. That wouldn't work. Dean obviously isn't ready for our relationship to go to love yet. Cas didn't want to push Dean into territory he didn't know.
And then of course, Cas didn't want to disappoint Dean either.
"Um, yes maybe sometime." Cas's gravely voice sounded higher and nervous. He hated lying. It reminded him that he was an angel of the lord and that he wasn't allowed to mess things up.
"Thanks, Cas." Dean kissed Cas's nose softly and laid his head on Cas's chest. He began drifting off to sleep after a few minutes. Cas buried his nose into Dean's hair and breathed in the smell only Dean could have. I guess we will cross that bridge when we get there, he soon drifted off into not needed sleep with dreams of the Winchesters.
Yay my first chapter to my first fanfic done! *streamers* *cheering* *party horn noises* I hate asking for reviews as much as Cas hates to lie but if you want to and have the time please review! Pippa!
-CaptainFangirl