Radioactive

So here is another Japril fic. I'm sure I join with most of this fandom when I voice my complete and utter anger at the premiere! I hate to say it folks, but I don't know if we'll be seeing any proper Japril anytime soon….we'll have to make do with longing glances across hallways and operating theatres- or whatever Shonda thinks of next to torture our already weak and battered souls…

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April couldn't help but grin to herself as she walked down the corridor and into the attending's lounge. Matthew had accepted her and they were officially engaged. But her mind returned to Jackson. She loved him too…she didn't understand what was happening. She loved them both. Jackson because he had been her first. They were best friends and they had been through a lot together. But she also loved Matthew. He was sweet, handsome, caring and most importantly wasn't afraid to declare his love for her. That felt amazing, hearing him say it, hearing him tell her over and over. She was so confused because she loved them both.

Jackson had been right. The only reason she had run into that room and told him she loved him was because he had just been injured and she thought he was dead. That was true. But she had only done it because it was true, she did love him. It broke her heart knowing that he wouldn't return it, that he wouldn't say the same words back…

Entering the lounge she collapsed onto the empty sofa and lay back, staring absently up at the ceiling. She was glad that she was engaged to Matthew. Even though what they had wasn't the same kind of intense love and passion that she had had with Jackson, it was enough and that was all she needed. It felt good to be loved and a small part of her resented Jackson for never telling her what she wanted to hear. What Matthew told her every day. Sighing deeply, she closed her eyes and allowed her mind to relax as she toyed with the engagement ring on her finger. Smiling contently to herself she shifted until she was comfortable and allowed sleep to consume her.

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Jackson sat at the nurse's station staring mindlessly at the computer in front of him. He had to keep busy. To keep moving, to keep thinking. Every time he allowed his mind to relax he immediately thought of April. If he wasn't angry at her, he was missing her and if he wasn't missing her, he was having fantasies of whisking her in his arms and kissing her…

No! He knew that April had only come running because he had been hurt. When things had been good between them, she got cold feet and ran away. Even with the way he felt about her, he couldn't be in a relationship with someone who didn't even know what they wanted. It wouldn't be fair on either of them. But that moment when April thought she had been pregnant and they were planning their future together- well that damn well was one of the happiest moments of his life! Seeing her eyes light up at the thought of being together, a baby, married, living in an actual house, with an actual yard….

'Snap out of it Jackson!' He mentally scolded himself. It wasn't going to happen. Plus he'd heard on the grapevine that April was well and truly engaged to Matthew and that things were going smoothly with the pair of them. 'Good', he thought to himself with a small, sad smile. She deserved happiness and if Matthew was the person to give it to her then that was what had to happen.

Finishing his work on the computer, Jackson logged out and stood from the chair, and headed towards the elevator. When he got inside, he pressed the button that would take him down to the ER. If April wasn't going to leave his head, he would force her out the only way he knew how- throwing himself into the work.

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"Baby do you dare to do this coz I'm coming at ya like a dark horse…." April sang loudly in the car as the Katy Perry song blasted on the radio. She was in her car driving home at the end of her shift. It had been a long day and she couldn't wait to get home and fall asleep. Normally she would take the chance to walk the eight blocks back the apartment she shared with Alex and Jackson, but with the after effects of the super storm still evident throughout Seattle, she decided to drive home and not risk being caught in the ever-present, but lately extremely heavy rain. Stopped at the red traffic lights, she realised the road was completely empty. Glancing at the clock she saw it was nearly 1 in the morning and could help but automatically yawn. Tapping her fingers impatiently as she waited for the lights to change, she glanced down at her phone that lay innocently in the compartment between the drivers and passengers seat. It was flashing with a new message.

"Drive safe" it read from Matthew "Really wet out…." Was all she could see without unlocking the iPhone. Smiling gently to herself at her fiancés caring manner her eyes flashed back to the road. Seeing the green light she pressed the accelerator and drove across the intersection. Approaching the next intersection she glanced down again at her phone which began beeping once more with a message tone. Her eyes returned almost immediately to the road and she let out a small screech at the sight of a large brown dog walking across the empty road.

She hammered her foot onto the break, but the car skidded and came to sudden halt longways across both lanes. Letting out a deep sigh, April took her trembling hands and rubbed her face almost as if to reassure herself she was still alive and breathing. She quickly looked up and sighed again at the sight of the empty road. She didn't even want to consider what would have happened if other vehicles were on the road.

She allowed herself a small weak laugh as she considered her incredible luck. Realising the ignition of the car was still running, she reached down to pull the gear into drive when she noticed the new message flashing on screen.

"Call me what have chance..." was all it read- again from Matthew. Frowning slightly in confusion at what her fiancé would want to speak to her about, April was too preoccupied at the screen that she didn't realised the truck heading towards her.

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"Alright Mr Anderson", Jackson smiled at his patient lying on the bed in the ER. The young man was clutching his head with a pained expression on his face. "I've stitched up the cut on your forehead. Those stitches are dissolvable so they should heal up in a week or so. Make sure you keep the wound clean and don't do anything that could open it back up again".

"Alright Doc", Anderson answered, his words slurring together as he groaned.

"I think you should get home and sleep off that night out. It's gonna be a killer hangover, I can already tell you" Jackson smirked as he stood and walked back to the nurses' station.

He was just beginning to get the discharge papers ready for the patient when he felt his phone begin to vibrate inside the pocket of his scrub pants. Pulling it out, he saw April name flashing on the screen. Frowning he pressed the answer button and placed it to his ear.

"Hello?" he spoke hollowly.

"Jackson…." He heard a voice rasp. Frowning deeper he pressed the cell phone closer to his ear.

"April?" he demanded.

"Jackson", she croaked again. Her voice was incredibly faint and she sounded…strange. "Jackson…please…help me".