Author's Note: Ok so this is my very first, KOGAN! It's gonna have so much stupidity in it because I never necessarily did a slash. Review please so I know what I should change and everything! Thanks, and I hope you like it! I'll try my hardest to update every Saturday.

Dedicated to: BANANJO

Published: December 3rd, 2011

Word Count: 717

Summary: Kendall and Logan get ready for a normal day, until Carlos and his girlfriend want to play some Hockey with them. They just revealed who Kogan is and was to Carlos' girlfriend, Giovanna, not too long ago. But Kendall is having some second thoughts about it.

Something's are better left in Narnia. Sometimes, your feelings can't even let you hold everything for long, has to come out one way or another. Silence might help, then it might come out through your expressions. Sometimes, the world doesn't let you who you want to be, or love who you want to love. This, is the story of Kogan.

"Logan, what time is rehearsal today?"

Kendall questions as he ties his snazzy tie to complete his outfit.

"I told you already Kendall, 4:30."

Logan smiles as he looks up from his phone, with the phones brightness shining upon his face. Logan looks back down at his phone and types away.

"Who are you texting."

Kendall frowns as he jumps onto the bed and puts his chin on top of Logan's shoulder.

"Carlos. Why?"

Logan wonders with a confused look across his face as he turns to face Kendall.

Kendall then dramatically falls onto his back on the bed and frowns.

"I guess I'm not THAT important, as Carlos is."

"Kendall, you're much more important to me, I love you."

Logan smiles as he smirks at the blonde.

"You don't love me."

Kendall exclaims as if he was a 4 year old.

"Do you want to play hockey today with Carlos and his girlfriend?"

Logan asks, ignoring Kendall's frustrated statement.

"Do you even listen when I talk!"

"Yes I do listen! I love you Kendall! You are my Kendalhia. You are my bread to my butter. Happy?"

Logan screams frustrated with a hint of love hidden in his voice.

"Yes, Kendall is very happy. "

"Good. Now can you answer me?"

"How about we say we are going, but we really aren't going and we send pieces of bread instead."

"That's rude Kendall…"

"Listen, Giovanna doesn't seem like a person I can trust just yet."

"Carlos has been dating her for 3 years!"

"Yea but she just found out what is between, us."

Kendall mumbles under his breath, with a sad sparkle in his eye.

Kendall sits up and crossed his legs and looks down at his hands.

"Will we have to break up, or, pretend?"

Almost pausing after every word, Kendall was afraid to lose his only love due to exposure.

"We can be ourselves Kendall. She's a sweetheart; she wouldn't do this to us."

Logan smiles, resting his hands on Kendall's shoulders and looking into his mysterious green eyes.

Kendall turns his head, feeling rejected and a slight chill goes through his body.

"Kendall, I love you but sooner or later people will have to find out about us. And you know what? I choose sooner. We can't lie to the world. It's as if the whole world would lie to us, it's not fair. Please, I don't want to hear it from Carlos, he might go back to his corndog eating phase again."

Logan tries to smile, but it doesn't show due to knowing the blonde's pain is still there with a dull gleam.

"I want it to be never."

Kendall mumbles.

"Why so?"

Logan asks.

Kendall turns to face Logan with tears in his eyes.

Seeing Kendall's eyes turn from a sweet green, to eyes full of anger but mostly sadness, Logan was heartbroken.

"They are going to reject us! The producers, they rejected us, they told us we need to get over our phase! A phase is when Carlos goes from helmets to corndogs or how James goes from stupid combs to a mirror in seconds! Yet, they got over those phases! I'm not getting over this phase! They think this is all nothing but a game! Everyone in this fucking messed up society thinks that you can't make a difference, you aren't anyone, you are DIRT when you like your same gender. Logan, I love you and I'm NOT going to lose you due to how fucked up people are! And if you want to….."

Logan interrupts Kendall's rant by kissing him gently on the lips.

Kendall's body relaxes as he pulls the brunette closer to him for a hug.

"I love you Kendall. And you are quite adorable when you're mad."

Logan smiles hugging his partner tightly.

"Oh shut up."

Kendall laughs and he sniffs and hugs the short boy, hoping to never to let go, or give him up.