Hi thank you to everyone who has read my other fan fictions, thank you for you comments. Heres a new fic that's popped in my head. Let me know what you think xx
Caroline Elliot 47 sat at her desk, the half way smile pressed across her lips, she couldn't believe she had made it. Well she could actually she usually got what she wanted, but even she hadn't thought she'd have managed to be sitting here now quite so quickly. But that was her, she filled her life with goals and aspiring ideas of what she would like to achieve and then pursued them until she finally won the battle. She had always been hard working and committed some would say it was a positive but, they didn't know here did they!
Very few knew the real Caroline Elliot who was well socially and emotionally inept to put it politely, she had created a whole new Caroline in her professional life of who she would like to be. An impenetrable wall to keep out unwanted questions and judgmental opinions, she kept herself to herself and that was how it was, very lonely.
She surrounded her life in work and of course the boys who really at this point wanted nothing to do with her, they'd out grown her as she saw it. Work had been the only constant in her life which kept her ticking over, stopped her sinking.
Caroline pulled the pills out of her draw popped out two and swallowed them with a gulp of tea, 4 years shed been on anti-depressants shed finally accepted feeling how she did wasn't normal and it wasn't going away. The more her personal life fell apart the more her career took off, she was like two separate personalities two people.
In her new school where she was now head teacher, a prestigious private school at that with great money, and a great position she strolled around confident, in charge untouchable .. she felt in control. She had an air of authority and wasn't afraid to use it, she was poised, elegant, calm and collected but as soon as she walked through that front door she changed she was stripped bare of her protections.
It had been 4 months since they had begun sleeping in separate beds, it had been a relief to be totally honest, where she could feel comfortable in one room of her own house at least. Not pestered for sex or ogled at by John as he attempted to charm her into bed Each evening as she underdressed. She had never really been wholly deeply in love with him, well she was sure it wasn't what other people raved about, she hoped there must be a deeper meaning of love than what they had. It had steadily got worse after the boys had been born, she had always wanted to be a mum and john seemed reliable dependable when they had married. But the longer they were together the more she realized he bored her, she'd out grown him she had spent all her efforts on the boys. Now they were independent she couldn't hide behind the school runs and weekly shops and realized she was totally undeniably Miserable. She knew John was sleeping around and the fact it didn't bother her, bothered her - had to come to this point that she no longer cared at all about him. It saddened her but he hadn't lived up to all he promised to be either, his career had declined as had his ambition, he was quite happy to do sod all and leave Caroline to earn the money. Which may have been the down fall of their relationship as when she had the boys they juggled work and home, once they were at school and she took control she threw herself into work and further from him. She was now independent and very much her own person... So now they lived under the same room but very much separate and both looked just as unhappy as each other.
Her bright blue eyes gazed at the clock it was nearly home time back to that house, to him to well everything she avoided. She'd stay a little late tonight have some time enjoy her new role have a wonder around, shed only been here a week and still hadn't seen everything at Sulgrave.
As she finally watched the last car pull from the car park, she stood up from her desk and decided to have a proper look around without the fear of bumping into someone and having to make small talk. She'd come quite a recluse really when she could avoid other people she would, it had become harder to make idol chit chat the last few weeks she was exhausted truth be told.
She walked through the halls taking in the work upon the walls, impressed by work she saw she had seen the figures for this school, they were higher achievers with some magnificent staff on board. She had jumped at the chance when they had approached her to apply for head teacher at Sulgrave, it had been her dream job since university.
She stood gazing up at the wall of paintings, one caught her attention so intensely it shocked her it was a chalk outline of a women crawled up on her knees, she couldn't explain in words but the emotion she felt from it pulled at her. A small solitary tear escaped its confine and slipped smoothly down her cheek. She wiped it away denying it had ever been there, her eyes staring at the painting, she read the small name beneath Kate Mckenzie.
"Hi" a quiet voice.
Caroline turned on the spot, she jumped a little at the woman's presence, "sorry I didn't know anyone was still here, I was just having a proper look around".
The other woman stood opposite her, smiling gently "yes must be a shock to the system".
Caroline nodded "I'm still getting lost, I don't think we've met properly", Caroline held out her hand "Caroline Elliot". The other woman took her hand shaking it "Kate Mckenzie, I'm art and music" Caroline smiled "yes I remember".
Caroline pulled her eyes away from those hazel orbs that stared so deeply into hers, she felt the pull of them, she felt her eyes crave to maintain the contact, before she suddenly became aware embarrassed and pulled her hand away and let her eyes drop.
She felt uneasy, uncomfortable and yet had no desire to leave and strange conflict raging inside her as she turned to the paintings behind her head. "I was just admiring the pupils work, and well yours ... This one is very powerful".
Kate smiled at her, Caroline noticed her warm features, her gentle demeanor as she shyly returned the smiled turning back to the picture. Kate watched her, she had thought her a bit of an ice queen as she had watched her strutting around the last few days, but here meeting her now it was as if a different woman stood before her ... Open.. Bare.
"It makes me sad, it brings out a great longing, great sorrow" her words escaping her before she could think better of it. Their eyes meeting briefly, she pulled them away once again "sorry..I.. Ignore me its been a long week".
Kate smiled "I was very unhappy when I painted it, it's amazing how art can convey emotions", Caroline shifted on her feet for the first time in years she was enjoying having a conversation with someone, she felt a connection. She didn't want to run or make an excuse and leave.. The opposite she wanted to know more about the woman in front of her.. It puzzled her a little, but she liked not feeling totally alone.
Kate pulled her door shut "would you like me to show you around a bit, or do you fancy a drink I expect you need one after your first week", her eyes focused on the woman before her. Her new boss was it wrong that she had already clocked those amazing legs and her beautiful face, but as she watched the puzzled woman's face engage with hers, those eyes Kate couldn't help but want to see inside them. She could see the pain behind them and watched her confident smile cover up her insecurities "Yes sure, drink be good actually" Caroline chuckled.
Kate watched Caroline with fascination taking in her expression, a leap of faith, a vulnerable smile Conveyed in those delicate features. A small smile as Kate took her chance, she confidently pulled in to link her arm with Caroline's. Caroline tensed and then immediately relaxed at her touch as she felt her heart rate raise the excited feeling rise inside her, the enjoyment the pleasure at her touch. She looked curiously at Kate her confidence her self assurance, as she pulled her along the corridor. She didn't want to run she didn't feel uncomfortable she felt alive, for the first time in a long time.