A/N: This was kinda a bit of a random chapter. It wasn't quite a Preface, but it wasn't quite the start of the story. I guess I just put it in to full you guys in on what has happened in my head so far. Sorry for the complete irrelevant of this chapter. :D

Ps: cullenfan101 (Hayley), do ya think you can stop bugging me now? Lolz. Luv ya.

Plus an Edward, Minus a Jacob.

Chapter One: Complete Irrelevance.

Bella POV

I got my wish. Edward was back. I love him more than my own life. And after the previous events, I know that he loves me more than his life too. There is just one crucial part in my life missing. Jake.

I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. I told him that I had to go save Edward. Jake wanted me to stay with him. I couldn't, I just couldn't. Knowing that I would have to stand existing in a world without Edward... it pains me to think about. Part of me actually wanted to stay with Jake. Let me tell you, I had thought long and hard about it.

"I don't want you anymore." Those were the words spoken so bluntly towards me that in a second, they ripped my heart in shreds. Jake had never done anything like this to me. He had never left me. He had never spoken harshly toward me. Heck, he'd never done anything wrong by me. I guess those thoughts where what triggered my sudden confusion.

But now he's gone. With nothing left behind but a broken hearted best friend. Billy told me that it was too much to handle. There was too much drama. Billy didn't mean to say it so bluntly, but that was the only way it could seem real. I have cried myself to sleep ever since he told me. Edward is a saint for putting up with my endless sobbing. So is Charlie.

After Edward left, that's all Charlie heard for months, until I started hanging out with Jacob. My nightmares stopped and I had found comfort in someone. That night at the movies with Jake and Mike made me realise how much he cared about me. Jake assured me that he wouldn't do anything to hurt me.

Even though I know why Edward left, and why he said those things, it still hurt. It still took time, and it's still taking time to heal the scars he left in my memory. In my heart. When ever Edward is with me, he is always reassuring me how much he loves me. And I am always reassuring him that I love him to. I know we both need it. After leaving me with Jacob for so long, Edward was very aware that when he came back, things might have changed.

I knew I wouldn't get to see Jake for at least a week. He would be letting off steam, but I never knew how strongly he felt towards me until now. I didn't know how much he cared if I went to Volterra. Damn it! Why couldn't Alice see his future! Damn it, damn it, damn it!

Then, that got me thinking. I wonder how long he had thought about leaving if i didn't choose him. I wonder if he ever thought I wouldn't choose him. I couldn't help but vainly wish he could come back for me. We could run away together. I know Charlie and Billy certainly wouldn't have anything against that. They wouldn't hold it against us. But what would Alice do. Would she hate me, or understand my decision? I wouldn't mind what Rosalie thought, she already hates my guts. I would miss Emmett dearly. He was the older brother I never had. And I haven't really spoken to Jasper that much since they returned. I have gotten into the habit of keep at least a 10 metre distance between him and my beating heart.

Why was I thinking this?! What was wrong with me?! First of all; Edward is my everything, second of all, he went suicidal when he thought I was dead, and I was in the largest state of depression that I am still amazed that I didn't actually contemplate suicide. Why was I thinking all of this? Could I be...falling for Jake?

A/N: Short chapter of complete irrelevance. I guess I'm just trying to convey what Bella is feeling. I hope you enjoyed it though. My next chapters will include more dialogue and story line.

-xxXXTwilighterXXxx