Warning: This is sad. I do not own anyone who you associate with this. The thing that Peyton wants is not a person. Guess what it is.
I wonder what made me go there. Go to that place in the bottom of my heart where I kept you. I always wanted you; I always yearned for you, wanting to feel you, wanting to hold you. I always did.
But then for a while, life got good, the yearning and desire stopped. I stopped standing outside, wondering when you would connect me to the stars, the moon and the Earth. Wondered when you would make me yours, leaving your mark on me for everyone to see. I always looked for you in the stars, looked for you in myself. I knew that you were a part of me that you would always be a part of me, but I tried to forget it. I realized that some people would be hurt if I gave into you, that the mark could be greater than I can imagine.
But tonight, when I realize that I am truly alone, I think of giving in. I realize that everyone is alone really, that the thoughts of love are just a distraction to stop us from hurting as we see that the true love lies in you're sweet revenge. You pray as I step down, silently wishing for a god to believe in.
A god to save me? That's what I initially thought as well. But do I really need saving? Is this all real or just some fantasy in her head, looking for a way to escape into the dark abyss, screeching to a halt across a silver moon. I come to think that all I need to save me is you. All I will ever need is you, and you're love. Because love is what's great. That's what my mind tells me. But all my heart relates to love is pain and suffering. God knows I've lived it. I've lived love and pain and darkness and sufferance. All at the same time. Coincidence? I think not.
It's silent as I begin to give in to you, swallowing small pieces of you as I bite, swallowing love and choking on the pain. I've tried this before, the same every time. That's all I can think about as your dark love overwhelms me, conquers me as I slip into a dark, restful sleep, guided by your presence.
I sigh in happiness as your love surrounds me, and a red tear makes it's way down my face as I realize that this is forever, I will always feel this, peaceful and all that I have ever wanted.
That is what I feel as I give into death, taking my last breath.
Ok, so she commits suicide. And 'you' was death.