Summary: This will be the last time, I promise it will.
This was inspired by Juan Miguel Severo's "Ang huling tulang isusulat ko para sayo" (The last poem I will write for you)
Disclaimer: KnB is not mine but I think that was obvious enough :)
The last time
I really don't remember the last time Akashi-kun and I kissed. I guess that's the problem with everyone. We never think that the last time would actually be the last time. We think we have forever but, really, we don't. So when our last kiss did happen, I didn't realize that it would be our last, which is really pathetic because all I want is to be able to remember the final moment when we were still happy and together but I can't seem to do just that.
Maybe I should start with the beginning when I told you that I loved you. When you hugged me tight and kissed my lips, when we were still in love. When it still made sense, when the only thing that mattered was the two of us.
But as time went by, things changed. We became more distant. You 'I love you too' became 'You're important'. And I was so naïve to think that everything was still fine, that everything could still go back to the way it was, but the truth was deep inside I knew that it was going to be over soon. But I was just so desperate, I kept fooling myself that 'You're important' still meant 'I love you' but in reality it just meant 'It's over'.
I didn't know how it ended. It could have been because of the pressure or the continuous problems or the people around us but the bottom line was in the end you let go. And that was when the promises were broken, the happiness was destroyed, the illusions were shattered and the two of us finally becoming strangers.
I'll start after the beginning when I let myself be fooled, when I still thought that we had a chance, when I was so sick of being called important, when all I wanted was for you to love me back again, when all I needed was for us to get back together.
Because I was so tired of being important, I wanted to be loved again but, I guess, that was too hard for you to do.
So for the last time, let me write to you. I promise that this would be the last, I promise it will. Once upon a time, I wrote so that you could fall in love with me but this time let me write so that I could finally be able to let you go. Let me write so that all the heartaches and pain that have been bottled up inside me can finally disappear. Let me write so that I can forgive you. So for the last time, let me write and let's also make an agreement. I'll forgive you only if you forgive me. Let's forgive each other so that we can finally forget as well.
Forgive me for staying and I'll forgive you for leaving. Forgive me for crying and I'll forgive you for your silence. Forgive me for forgetting and I'll forgive you for forgetting. Forgive me for trying and I'll forgive you for giving up.
Akashi-kun, let's make an agreement. I'll forgive you only if you forgive me.
Forgive me for not letting go and I'll forgive you for not holding on.
Akashi-kun, forgive me so that once and for all I can finally forget you. Forgive so that all my love for you can finally disappear. Forgive me so that I can finally stop writing for you.
I love you, Akashi-kun but I'm just so tired.
Goodbye. I'm done with you.
~Fin~
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