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Jax sat there on the roof top reading the novel he found in the storage area. He had missed his dad but he knew that he needed to continue on his legacy. He had been trying his best to come to terms with the many times he had to do things he had never thought he could do. When he found the novel from his dads hand he was hoping that by reading it he could figure out how to understand what it was all about. He loved his brothers in the club. He would do anything for them including die for them. They were his family.
He still had a hard time seeing his mom with Clay Morrow, the man who had come to be president of the club after his father's untimely death. Sitting there looking over the shop he could see his mom acting as if Clay Morrow was King. It did something to the pit of his stomach. He finally looked away and looked down to the papers in his hands. He carefully placed them in a binder to protect them. He knew that this was something he needed to protect, the last words of his old man. Before he took the first page in sight he remembered the last day he seen his dad alive.
"Son, you take care of your mom while I'm gone. It's been really hard for her since
Thomas died. I love you, never forget that."
"Dad, why do you have to go now?" Jax asked his dad while having an overwhelming feeling that something was wrong.
" One day you will understand. I have to make things right for you son. I need to take care of some things so that your mother will never have to worry about losing you."
"What do you mean dad?"
"I can't explain it right now. But one day son, I will let you know exactly what I am doing to make life better for us all."
"Okay, but I will hold you to that promise." Jax said smiling trying his best to rid himself of the emotions he was having.
"I love you son, remember that the club is our family. Now you do good in school. You only have this last year and you will be graduated and then we can see about finally getting you and Ope patched in. Okay?"
Jax face broke into a huge smile. His dream to be a patched member of the Sons Of Anarchy would be happening soon. " You be careful dad. I will take care of mom. No worries okay? "
"No worries." his dad said smiling and then climbing on his bike yelling out to his long time friend and vice president Clay Morrow.
Jax remembered that it had not been but a couple of hours when his mom answered the door to Chief Unser. Jax knew right away that it was bad news. He watched as his mom silently received the news and then turned to him and sat him down.
He opened the binder and proceeded to read his fathers words. He hoped that in these words he would know what his dad had promised to tell him. He had read through the first ten chapters and as of yet he didn't read anything other then the love his dad had for the club. The club he originated. He closed the binder ad he realized it was getting late. He didn't know why but he hid it away so no one could find it. He didn't even want his mom to know he found this. He couldn't understand why he felt that way because he loved his mom, but he went with what his mind was telling him to do. So he hid it safely away.
He rode back to the house wondering how Wendy was. She was pregnant with his child. A mistake he made in even marrying her but he made it so he was going to try to see her through this. She was a heroin addict. He just wanted to make sure she stayed clean until the baby arrived. He had the divorce papers ready though. The marriage had been a drunken mistake. He had been hurting so bad when the women he had loved since he was in his freshmen year, up and moved away to go off to college. Tara had begged him to go with her but he knew he could never leave the club or his mom. The club was his legacy. He couldn't abandon it as they had never abandoned him. He knew that once he made the decision to stay that Tara would too but he knew her life would be wasted here. She needed to go and become the doctor she had dreamed about for so long. So he did what he thought was best to get her to go. He knew that Tara had always hated how there were so many croweaters at the club. She somehow always trusted that he would never cheat on her. Which he normally would not have done. But he knew that this was the only way to get her to leave him. He hated hurting her like this but he knew that in the long run it was best for her to let him go. After graduation he told her to meet him, Ope and Donna at the club. Donna had tried to convince him this was not the way to do this but I was determined to set Tara free.
I had told Ope to send her to my room when she came. I could hear the soft knock on the door but I did my best in pretending I didn't hear it. As I heard the door swing open I don't know how I was able to keep my cock hard other then the fact I was pretending it was the one woman I loved more than anything. I heard her gasp painfully and then heard her run out the door. I threw the girl that was on top of me to the side and told her to get the fuck out. I laid back and lit a cigarette the tears in my eyes threatening to break free. As much as I wanted to go after Tara I knew that I had successfully ended our relationship. Tara could move on.