Sorry I might have used to many commas, I wanted to emphasize him pausing in the conversation.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I-"

"Spencer, honey can we have this talk another time, I'm tired" she said cutting me off.

"No, mom look I'm sorry, but we, um, we need to talk about this now." I stuttered out dreading how this conversation would go, how she would re act.

"Okay, what is it."

"I have some, um people coming to take you to a new home, mom." I said faltering under her patronizing gaze.

"What, are you talking about, Spencer."

It was weird how I had never noticed the peeling wallpaper until now, or the fact I couldn't remember the last time I saw my mother's bed made. That she hadn't bothered to brush her hair, in at least a year. How sickly she looked with pasty skin and bags under her eyes.

"I have to go to college, mom and you can't even remember to eat, I just want what's best for you." I couldn't meet her eyes, though I wondered if they were clear or clouded over half way with her fantasies.

"Spencer! How could you do this, you're having me committed to the looney bin!" Her voice had gone shrill and high pitched and I flinched at the accusation, but didn't say anything.

"You're going to abandon me just like your father did to us?!"

I felt the truth in that rip through my heart, I was abandoning her no matter how many times I tried to convince myself it was for her own good. I was being selfish, it was my own guilt at not being able to take care her well enough.

"Mom, I'm sorry I just think, that maybe, it be best if you-"

You're calling me crazy just like he did!" she yelled cutting me off

"No, I didn't mean-" I could hear the car out to pick her up out in the driveway.

"Mom, just going with them peacefully, please." I begged her trying to get her to not make a scene.

"You want me to be peacefully locked up in some government facility, where they can moniter my brain!"

I was sure the neighbors could hear her by now, I barely heard the knock on the door over her.

"She's, um in her room, down the hall to the left." I said looking anywhere but at the mans face and slowly followed him down to my mother.

"I'm not going!"She shrieked standing up.

"Mrs. Reid, please if you'll just-"

"I'm not going you hear me, I know what you people do there!"

He reached over to guide her out of the room and she then ripped her arm away and began beating her fist against his chest.

He grabbed her arms and pinned them behind her back. She had tears running down her face and most of her screams were incoherent.

"Sir, we will handle this from here and give a sedative once we get to the hospital, I think you should give her a few days to rest before visting." He had to yell slightly over my mother so I could hear him.

"Yes, okay."I said and watched him drag her out and strap her into a hospital bed.

Once they were gone I shut the door and slid to the floor, the silence seemed to ring around me after the fight we just had. I had done it, I had sent her away for my own selfish reasons.

I felt tears glide down my face, I was feeling bad for myself when I made this choice. I wouldn't blame her if she hated me now.

I felt overwhelming loneliness crush me, I had sent the only person had in the entire world away. I was alone there was no one now and I had done this to myself.

I was alone.