"BELLA, NO!" he yelled "I WON'T DO IT"

"WHY NOT?" she argued back. They had just come back from a restaurant for dinner and were currently sitting in his silver Volvo, arguing yet again.

"BECAUSE IT IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU TOO HANDLE" he answered, blooding boiling.

"I'M NOT A WEAK, LITTLE GIRL! I CAN HANDLE IT! WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE IN ME?" tears visible in her eyes. His perfect features softened and he leaned over to hold her hand. At first she pushed him away but he leaned over again. She gave in and climbed over to sit on his lap, sobbing on his shoulder.

"I do believe in you but you are asking for something I know I can't do" he replied lovingly, stoking her hair out of her face.

"Can't we get Carlisle to do it? He did it to you"

"That's different. You have your whole life ahead for you and I don't want you ruin it" he said.

"It won't be ruined because we will be together forever" she answered, "Don't you see. I don't want to loose you and if we are going to be together forever then we have to do it now, while I am the same age. Otherwise in thirty years time if you finally decide to do it then I will still be older" she explained thoroughly, thinking it all through the night before.

"Bella, I promised you and myself that I would never hurt you, and I am not going to break that promise anytime soon. So can we please stop arguing about this?" he asked.

"Fine, but only for now" she said getting out of the car. He walked her to the door and wiped the tears from her eyes before she went inside.

"Just think about it, please?" she begged.

He sighed, "I will" He kissed her on the cheek before opening the door for her and closing it behind her.

He watched to see her bedroom light turn on before climbing back into his car and sped off down the street again.

Bella waved from her window and when he was gone she moved to her desk to send an email to her mother.

Hey mum,

How are you? I am doing great. I hope everything is going okay for you and Phil.
I miss you so much and I want you to know, that whatever happens I love you and I know that in your heart you love me too.

Well, hope to hear from you soon,
Bella

She sent the email and turned her computer off and got her things ready for her shower. All the while she was thinking to herself ways in which to get her boyfriend to agree with her on the vampire matter.

The hot water ran down her slender body and relaxed her muscles. She enjoyed the showers so much she didn't want it to end but she had to leave hot water for Charlie so she hesitantly got out and dried herself.

She changed into her baggy pajamas quickly trying desperately to keep the warmth in. Once her teeth were brushed and her hair combed she moved back into her bedroom.

"Night dad" she called

"Goodnight Bella" he replied from downstairs.

She sat on her bed before deciding to go to sleep as there was nothing else to do. She flicked off the light and climbed into her bed rolling her body into a ball. She lay there alone with her mind thinking hard. She decided she better sleep so she doesn't have ugly bags under her eyes in the morning.

She drifted into a restless sleep but tonight instead of dreaming about Edward as she usually did she dreamt about her mother. It wasn't a dream more of a nightmare.

Phil walked through the house. He was looking for someone or something and it was causing him much frustration when he was unsuccessful.

Walking down the hall he looked in every room including the bathroom and kitchen. He finally reached the laundry and heard the trap dripping. He opened the door and was about to turn it off when he realized it wasn't a tap.

"Bella, what are you d- Oh My God" he yelled. Bella was straddling her mother's lap draining the blood out of her body. She looked up. Her eyes was totally evil, she was growling and had blood all over her face.

Phil was frozen on the spot. She sniffed the air and attacked Phil with much speed. He yelled in pain as he fell to the floor.

Bella's point of view

I woke up panting and sweating. I wasn't sure I she screamed or anything so I sat quietly hoping I didn't disturb Charlie.

I couldn't believe it. I was a total beast, and I actually killed my mother and her partner. I wiped my face with the back of my hand and pulled my knees to my chest as a tear fell down my cheek. I sobbed to myself for a while.

If I wanted to be like Edward it was going to be harder than I thought. I was thinking for a while when the tears finally passed and I came to a conclusion.

I still want to be a vampire. Okay, there is the possibility of me becoming dangerous and hurting the people I love but if the tables were turned then I have more of a chance at saving them then if I were a vampire.

I would never be able to live with myself knowing I have hurt someone I love, but with Edward with me I can be like him and his family. Look how far he has come and he hasn't even hurt me once, I can be the same and I will.

Edward's point of view

I drove home trying figure Bella was being so stubborn. I know she wants to be with me forever and I feel the exact same way but she is asking me to risk everything I have worked for, for almost a century.

I parked my Volvo by the house and walked in and straight to my room.
"Hey Edward. Where have you been?" Alice asked.

"With Bella" I replied. I didn't want to be rude but I wasn't in the mood for a friendly chat.

"We were going to go play ball, wanna come?" she asked, excitedly.

"No thanks" I answered

"Well what are you going to do?" she questioned.

I grinned widely, "I am going to sleep, I am very tired" I said walking up the stairs as the others laughed.

I closed the door and walked straight to my CD player, playing a claming jazz song that made me feel relaxed and at peace. It didn't last very long because I was in my car again and driving back to Bella's house.

I needed to see her again. I knew she was probably in bed by now but I didn't care. I drove at my normal speed and I was at the house in a matter of minutes.

I quietly got out of my car and sat near her window watching her sleep. I could tell she was having a bad dream by all the tossing and turning that was happening.

"Mum, Phil, No" she said. Her arms were flinging everywhere and she let out a little squeal as she sat up straight and quickly in her bed. She looked around confusedly and curled up.

She looked so beautiful. The light from the moon was shining into her window giving her an angel-like look. She in her bed and it was obvious she was fighting a mental and emotional battle inside of her.

Tears were shed and I wanted sop badly to climb into her window and hold her in my arm. Telling her everything was ok and be with her forever. I would do anything for her. I knew there was only one thing she wanted from me and I couldn't give her that. I watched her for a while as she fell asleep again.

I felt slightly disappointed in myself that I was denying her something she really wanted. I looked at the clock in her room and it read 5:00. I forced myself to leave and go home to change my clothes. I should talk to Alice.

"I love you" I said, knowing she couldn't hear but I meant ever word.

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Hey everyone...

Well I hope you like the first chapter. I really like the book and couldn't help myself so I decided to make a story. There is more to come. I don't think this story will be too long but probably a few chapters.

Please leave a review so I know if I have done well and please tell me if you think I have changed or messed up the characters in anyway.

Thank you so much...

Bianca