Summary: So once again I am back with another story for you. Well okay it's not a story it's a table, one that I completed nearly two years ago and posted on my LJ account. I don't know why I never posted it here but I decided to do it right now. It was for Slashfic 40 so that means I had to take 40 words and make forty fics. I did, mostly slash with a few friendship themes. I'm thinking about doing one a day or two every three days. Don't know what the schedule will be yet but there will be one. I won't leave you hanging I promise. Anyways I hope you like them. Now on to the first one.

Disclaimer: Don't own this show but I miss it terribly.

Prompt 002-Middles

Title: My Leaving (Part 1 of 4)
Pairing: John Dorian/Perry Cox
Prompt: 002-Middles
Word Count: ~300
Rating: T
Spoilers: None
Warnings: slash
Authors Notes: After all the pain that he went through it was time for him to move on, unless he can hear those three little words.

He forgotten how long that he'd been standing in it. An hour, maybe two but he didn't care. The rain was the only thing that knew how he was feeling. Sad, alone, depressed without a person to love it. His hair feel limp over his eyes, dripping with the wetness from the rain.

He felt like a plaything. One of those toys that you played with when you were younger but not the good kind. Not the one that you would take everywhere with you and no matter how old you got you couldn't bring yourself to throw away. That's what he wanted to be to Perry but instead he was the other kind. The kind that you got for Christmas that you really didn't want but you played with it anyway because you didn't have anything else. But as soon as you got something new that you really wanted, the toy got tossed underneath your bed never to be seen again. That's the type of toy he had become, had always been. The mere thought of how he was treated made him laugh.

His laughter had longed turned into sad cries. Cries of how stupid he had been thinking that he could change a person who didn't want to be changed. Crazy to fall in love with a person who had warned you that it was only about sex, nothing more or less. He'd tried dammit, tried not to fall in love with the older doctor but he had failed miserably. He couldn't help it, the love was there long before the relationship even started and no matter what he did it wouldn't go away.

Stuck.

Now he was standing in the rain, finding the courage that he needed to tell the man that he loved that didn't love him back, that he was leaving. He couldn't take any more of the pain, the constant stab he felt in his heart every time he saw Perry with his ex-wife. He refused to be stuck in the middle any longer, refused to remain a plaything while he knew that he had so much more to offer. He had to leave Sacred Heart, even if he didn't want to. He couldn't stay at a place that made him ache with sadness everyday that he walked in.

The stickiness had finally left his feet and he slowly made his way inside of the building. His body drenched with the wet rain but he didn't seem to care at all. Raising his hand to the door, he didn't even have to knock when the door swung open on it's own. J.D lifted his eyes and met the cold hard stare of his former lover.

"What do you want Jessica"

J.D gulped as oxygen quickly filled his lungs, making him able to speak.

"Um Hi Dr. Co-Perry. I came here to tell you something"

"Well then what are you waiting for."

"You see the thing is Perry" lowering his head so as to not to look into Perry's eyes. "I came here to say that I'm leaving."

Perry eyes widen at the mention of J.D's departure. He couldn't believe that the kid was actually telling him that he was leaving, after all his talk of how much he loved working at the hospital. What could have made him change his mind, and then it clicked.

"What do you mean leaving."

"I'm leaving the hospital and I'm transferring to Mercy West in Los Angeles."

"Why" Perry had to ask.

"You know why Dr. Cox." J.D replied, wiping his hair from his face. "I have to leave because I fell in love with you and I know that you don't feel the same way."

"That's not my problem." growling as he pulled J.D inside, not wanting the neighbors to see the scene that was about to play out. "I told you in the beginning-"

"Don't you think I know that" J.D yelled. "I didn't ask to fall in love with you, I didn't want to love you but I do and you know what. I am not ashamed of how I feel but it's a shame that you are."

"J.D"

"No, I talk you listen. I want more, I need more. I need more than a grope under the cafeteria table or a quick fuck in a supply closet. I want more of an emotional attachment. I want to be seen with in you in a public place or smaller steps like…spending the night here. I don't want to hide our relationship anymore."

"We don't have a relationship Newbie. You knew from the beginning that all this was sex. It's not my fault that you went and fell in love with me.

"That is bullshit and you know it" rage fuming from his face as he pushed Perry in the chest. "You knew that I was in love with you from the beginning, seven months ago. I have loved since day one, before it became just about sex. It was never just sex to me and you knew that."

"So what if I did Sharon. You know how I am, how I am un emotional, detached from everyone and everything around me. I warned you that I wasn't any good for you and it's your own stupid fault that you fell in love, not mine. So what do you want me to do about huh, what is it that you want me to say.

"I want you to tell me that I matter to you. That you can't imagine your life without me in it. If you want me to stay then say those words Perry."

Perry looked into the boy's hopeful eyes and his heart ached just a little. He wanted to say those words to J.D but just couldn't bring himself to say them. So, he did the only thing that he could do in situations like this, he said nothing.

"So I guess that's my answer huh." taking the silence as the answer to his question and turned to walk towards the door. He would never be able to count the tiny pieces that his heart broke into no matter how hard that he tried. Pulling the door open he gave one more look towards Perry's direction and opened his mouth to speak.

"See ya Perry.

And with that J.D was gone. He ran so fast back down to the parking lot and quickly got on his scooter. His heart continued to break as he cried all the tears that he had been withholding back at Perry's place. He knew that he would never truly get over Perry, no matter where he went but he was happy that he was no longer stuck in the middle.

Okay I know you're probably mad seeing as how I hit you with the angst straight away but I want to go in order as possible and prompt one is in this arch. Don't worry they all won't be this angsty. I promise. Until next time,

Keep your friends close and your favorite snacks closer,

LadyCizzle.