Author`s note:My second fanfic , just something I came up with myself , but the first chapter is set after
2x08 ,,Rose`` . This is a Delena story , even though it seems to be Stelena .
I don`t think that this one is going to be a oneshot.I don`t own the Vampire diaries nor the characters.
Enjoy!
Five years ago...
Salvatore boarding house
,, What do you mean you don`t know where he is?`` Elena shouted at Stefan .
,, I don`t know what happened this time . I don`t know what`s going on . He just left and took every single piece
of clothing he had and all of his journals . I tried to call him , but he turned of his phone . ``Stefan said hopelessly.
No ! This can`t be happening , this can`t be happening ... He can`t be gone for good...Damon can`t be gone ...He needs to be here , with his devilish grin on his face and his funny sarcastic comments...He is Damon ...
He can`t be gone...Elena thought .
He meant too much to her , she needed him . He can`t be gone . He just can`t .
,, Elena ... `` Stefan was holding something in his hands . He sounded so sad .
,,What?`` she asked , trying to figure out what was going on with him .
Stefan handed her over some piece of paper , without saying anything .
Confused , she took it from his hand.
It said :
I can`t take it anymore . I`m leaving Mystic Falls and I don`t think I`ll be coming back anytime soon .
Take good care of Elena .
Damon
Elena`s hands started to shake and her eyes filled up with tears .
She was reading the letter over and over again , until she felt Stefan`s hand on her shoulder .
He took the paper away from her and throw it into the fireplace .
He pulled her into a hug and she was sobbing , while watching Damon`s last words fade away into ash .
The present day
Salvatore boarding house
Elena was coming in and she noticed that no one was there and the lights were off .
She put her car keys on an end table , right next to the door and turned on the lights .
,, Happy birthday!``Bonnie , Caroline , Matt , Stefan and bunch of other people screamed at her.
They jumped in front of her , from the middle of the living room .
Elena was surprised -she didn`t expect anyone today except Stefan - that was how they`d agreed .
Everyone was smiling , waiting for her response .
She was sad today , so she didn`t feel like smiling , but she did it anyway .
,, Wow ! Thank you guys , so much. I really didn`t expect this . `` she said , pulling off her best happy act .
She could see relief on everyone`s face . They thought that she was going to be sad ,but when it turned out that
she was happy , or at least they were buying her act .
,, And I should have known that Stefan was just bluffing .`` she said , turning her gaze over at him.
He smiled , just for her . She tried to return with a genuine smile , but all she could do was just a pretend smile.
When the party really started , and everyone left their gifts on the table , it was time to make a great performance
how happy she was today . He left five years ago and never came back .
Elena never found out why did he leave . One day , he decided to go and left them that letter .
The letter that was burned into ashes the night he had written it.
Elena caught herself sometimes staring at the fireplace , hoping for an answer , but she never understood why did he do it . Maybe he was sick of saving her all the time . Maybe he just wanted to be alone .
She never found out why . She missed him more than anything and she was hoping that he would come back someday . She was sad without him , all the time , but she was more sad today , because five years ago , on her birthday , Damon threw her an amazing party and she remembered very well that she had a good laugh that night. She remembered every second of that night -Damon got really drunk and wanted to make out with her , but even though she wanted , she wouldn`t - she was with Stefan and she could never do that to him.
She remembered his icy-blue eyes and the way he was looking at her that night . She missed those eyes so bad , and she would give everything just for another look at them . She could see them on his pictures , but the feeling wasn`t the same-when he was looking at her , she felt like she was in a dream , or in heaven .
So , she was pretty bumped today . And the whole happy act was just an act .
Elena just hoped that Stefan would buy it . He knew that she missed his brother - sometimes , when she thought that she was alone , he would caught her staring at Damon`s pictures or sitting on the couch in front of the fireplace - his favorite drinking spot .
Stefan was looking at Elena-she seemed to be happy and she was talking to people with a big smile on her face , but he knew better than that. She caught his glare and waved him from the other side of the room . He returned the wave and smiled . He would do anything just to make her happiness real .
The first few months , when Damon left , were terrible - the minute Elena read that letter something changed in her . He could tell that she was different - her smile wasn`t genuine and the sparkle from her eyes was missing .
Elena was pretending that she was alright , but she wasn`t . The second night , since Damon left , when Stefan went hunting , he found her asleep on Damon`s bed , his pillow tight in her arms . As much as he missed his brother , Stefan hated that she smelled like him that night .
He knew that Elena loved him , but he also knew that she loved Damon too . He knew that those two had a special connection , something that he didn`t really understand . When Elena and Damon were together , it was like they were thinking as one person . And because of that , he was afraid that he was going to lose her for ever.
And , he couldn`t stand that thought , even though deep down , he knew that she was slipping away from him . It was funny how she`d underestimate him , she thought that he didn`t know what was going on with her .
He didn`t know what to do about her happiness . She moved in with him , and that was good , but she was still miserable because of Damon . Stefan knew the second he`d found that letter , that his big brother wasn`t coming back . Maybe , just maybe for a century or two , but not sooner .
He could guess why did he left . He had several theories , but he was afraid to think that he was right . He was lying to himself by believing that Damon needed some space from everyone and everything. He knew the real reason why`d he left and he was just too damn afraid to think of it .
,, Hey , Stefan . You look conceived . What`s on your mind? `` Bonnie came to him and asked.
,, Nothing . I`m just worried for her . `` he said , still glaring at Elena . Bonnie looked at her direction and nodded.
,, You`re not the only one .``
Stefan was surprised .
,,I`m her best friend . I know thing she doesn`t even tell me . `` Bonnie pointed .
,, I think that this situation is affecting her too much than it has to . `` Stefan said .
,, Yeah , well I`m not surprised . They were really good friends . `` Bonnie stopped before she would say something that would piss off Stefan . And he knew exactly what was she going to say .
,, Go on . You can say it . `` he said and drank his whole glass of champagne .
,, Say what?``
,, Don`t play dumb on me . I`m not stupid . I know that what Elena and Damon had , we`ll never have . An understanding , special connection and that stuff . `` he was now drinking his 4th glass .
Bonnie didn`t know what to say . He was right . Elena and Damon were like two puzzle pieces that were matching to each other .
,, It will get better . I`m sure . `` Bonnie gave Stefan a supportive smile .
,, No , it won`t . You don`t have to cheer me up . It`s okay . `` he was more than drunk right now .
He took a spoon from the table and tapped it on his glass . ,, May I have your attention everyone?``
,, Stefan , what are you doing?`` Bonnie whispered through her teeth , but she didn`t get a respond .
When everyone was silence and glaring at Stefan he started .
,, First of all , I would like to thank everyone for coming here tonight . To beautiful Elena .`` he smiled and raised his glass . Nobody suspected anything , even though they seen that he was drunk , they just guessed that he was just celebrating . Oh , they were so wrong .
,, Today is my girlfriend`s birthday and she`s turning 22 . Cheers to that ! ``he said that and everyone raised their glass to her and said ,, Cheers!`` .
Elena was just smiling at their happy faces .
,, But , wait ! I`m not finished . `` Stefan said as everyone was about to turn to their conversations .
When he was sure that he got their attention again , he continued with the speech .
,, And let`s have another toast to a very special person , who happens not to be Elena . Even though she`s very special , but no . This is for someone else , someone who isn`t here tonight . ``
,, Oh , boy . `` Bonnie muttered to herself , knowing what was coming .
,, You see , this person is very special to me and Elena and , I`m sure , to most of you . `` he pointed his glass at people .,, Why is this person so special ? Well , if you must - he`s my dear brother , who left five years ago leaving nothing behind , just a very short goodbye letter .`` Elena smile was replaced by horror on her face because of his words .
,, And he loves Elena , and she loves him , and she misses him so bad ... You see, they have so much chemistry and , as far as I know , they are soul-mates . As I was saying , she misses him so much . Did ya know that she slept on his bed , the second day since he left? Ya didn`t ? Well , you do now . Now , let`s all raise our glasses to Elena and Damon and their undying love ! `` he shouted and drank his whole glass .
Everyone turned their attention to Elena . Her eyes filled up with tears at his words and she couldn`t believe what he`d just said . It was like he stabbed her with a knife in her heart .
She couldn`t look at anyone but him , and he was just smiling at her , like a psychopath .
She couldn`t stand this any longer . Her tears started to fall out and she quickly ran upstairs , with everyone`s glance focused at her .
Author`s note: Well , what do you think? Was it good or bad ? Should I continue with this story or not? Tell me what do you think and please review . If no reviews , I`ll take that as a ,,no , you sucked , don`t continue this crap `` . So ... anyway , I will do that . Kiss