A/N: If you read this while listening to My Immortal by Evanescence, it adds to the emotion.
A/N2: I'm not sure what made me think of this, but here it is.
A/N3: I might have mentioned in my author's note in chapter seven that my friend found a song that completely fits the entire story, so I am now editing the story to add the lyrics in itallics.
Disclaimer: Evanescence/Barlow Girl own their respective songs, Stephenie Meyer owns the characters.
I waited for you today
The Cullen's had left months ago. They had left before my senior year began. The Quileute tribe was too suspicious and began to accuse, I knew it was my fault. Billy was worried for me, and to save me from an awful fate, a fate that I wanted, he broke the treaty and told what the Cullen's really were. Carlisle was mad at them but he convinced the family to leave.
Edward was worse though, if they had left any later than they did, there would be no more Queleute tribe left. He promised he would be back for me. But months passed and he did not return.
I lived throughout the year as a shell of myself, hoping that I would see my angel again. Everyone tried to make me feel better. Jessica and Angela did their best to spend more girl time with me. Mike, Eric, and Tyler were all on their best behavior toward me. If that includes trying to get me to ask them to the girl's choice dance and asking me to prom. I went to neither.
I never blushed anymore. I was more accident prone than ever. It got to the point that Charlie had to be home whenever I was and when he couldn't be with me, Jessica or Angela had to be. I was never purposefully destructive to myself. It just happened, and there was no angel watching over me. I never tried suicide. At the bottom of my heart, I knew I'd see him again.
It was two days before my senior graduation. I was once again trying on the dress that I bought with Jessica and Angela. This time I was trying it on for my mother. Charlie and Phil were watching a game downstairs. Mom was fussing over me.
"You let yourself go, Bella. Charlie told me you stopped eating! You're so pale and you look unhealthy! All this for a boy…"
I ignored most of these. The others went unheard. Internally, I was cursing Billy. Charlie had never believed the tales of the Cullen's actually being vampires, but he knew that it was because of Billy that they were gone and his daughter was a shell of herself. He didn't spend any more time with Billy.
The rest of the school hardly noticed they were gone. They too had dismissed the rumors of the Cullen's being vampires. To them, Dr. Cullen had found work elsewhere and they had moved. I was the only one that knew the whole story outside of the Cullen's and the Queleute tribe.
Mom was saying something about me throwing away my life for a boy. I wasn't paying any attention really. For one thing, what did she know about boys? Look at her and Charlie… Another thing was that she just didn't know what Edward was to me. He was my life, my angel, my everything.
But you didn't show, no, no, no
I looked at myself in the mirror. I was pale as usual, but that was normal, now. Now, there was no Edward to bring color to those cheeks. I will admit, I was a little thin. It wasn't that I was anorexic or anything. I didn't think I was fat, and I wasn't punishing myself for something by not eating, I just didn't have the will power to eat. There was no Edward to say "time to feed the human." The scariest part of me was my eyes. They were dull and void, there was nothing behind them. Even I knew that.
Mom was right in a way, I had let myself go. What was I thinking, letting myself believe he'd come back? I should move on, like I had never met him. He had wanted it that way hadn't he? My mind said I should move on, but my heart wouldn't.
Finally, Mom was done with me. She and Phil needed to get to the hotel they were staying at. I told her goodbye and Charlie goodnight.
I needed you today
I took off the dress andclimbed in the showerletting the hot water run over my back. Soothing my tired muscles, yet knowing there would be no Edward waiting for me. There hadn't been one in months. It was really depressing.
So where did you go?
A/N4: I promise I am going to continue this one, but right now, I need to go back to You never cease to amaze me Bella if I'm going to have a chapter up tomorrow.
A/N5: I'm sorry if this is sad, but I promise it will get better. R&R please!