How Did I Get Here?
Rated: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters from 7th Heaven.
Summary: Her life was perfect, well not perfect but close to it. One night changed that.
She stared in awe at the tiny baby in her arms. This was her baby, she was someone mother, and it all seemed so unreal. She slowly rocked the baby girl in arms while trying to get her to sleep. She smiled at her baby and kissed her forehead, it was weird that she had known it was going to be a girl without the doctor telling her. She hummed a little lullaby for her baby despite being tired. She had dark circles under her eyes and her hair was damp from labor.
"Miss Camden I sorry but the social worker Mrs. Morgan is here to take the baby". The nurse said as she entered the room with a sympathetic look on her face.
She nodded sadly and handed the baby over to the nurse as tears fell rapidly down her face. This was hardest thing she ever had to do; giving up her baby was tearing apart. In some words she was coward and she knew it. She had kept her pregnancy a secret from her family, friends, and even the baby father didn't know, only two people knew her secret and it was her brother Matt and her sister Mary. She tried to tell her parents several times, but in the end she didn't have the heart to tell, fear kept her from telling them.
But she couldn't keep the baby she was only sixteen, sure others had done it but could she? "No she couldn't, this was all for the best her baby would have two parents who were happily married and could give her anything she would want" she thought, trying to reassure herself. The closing of the door knocked her out of her trance like state, letting her know that her baby girl was gone and that she had a visitor, it was Mary.
"I gave her up", she whispered. "I loved her so much. She looked so much like her father". She sniffled a little and buried her face in her hands and cried hysterically.
Mary sat on the hospital bed while trying to comfort her sister. "Maybe we should let Mom and Dad know that you were pregnant and gave that you gave the baby up for adoption. They could help you get through this.
She pulled away from her older sister fear washed over her. "No, only you and Matt know about the baby. I want it to stay that way and remember you promised to keep this a secret"! It had been pretty easy for her to hide her pregnancy. She experienced nausea but didn't throw up much and she didn't show that much during her pregnancy either.
"Mom and Dad are going to call later so I'll cover for you and Matt going to visit you later. Mary said as held her sister hand trying her attention as she stared into to space.
It had finally sunk in that she would never see her baby again. She never be there for her baby first words or her first steps. That little girl would never call her mommy but call somebody else that instead. She Ruthie Camden had given her baby up for adoption. She did the only thing she could do cry.
Author's Note: I know it a little short the next chapter will be longer. Please let me know what you think.