(A/N: im so sorry)
(A/N2: Pay attention to the dates)
Dear Rowan,
It hurts.
-Aelin
/9-6-X4/
Dear Rowan,
Why did you go?
-Aelin
/10-6-X4/
Dear Rowan,
It's been a week since my birthday. I missed the chocolates you always got me.
-Aelin
/11-6-X4/
Dear Rowan,
Lysandra had her kid two days ago. Aedion decided to name the male after you.
"Rowan Ashryver"
Sounds nice, doesn't it?
-Aelin
/12-6-X4/
Dear Rowan,
Dorian visited me today. He couldn't come right after the news, but his presence is very much welcome. When I see him I'm reminded of the past. I have to admit that I hated it, because the past was where you were.
-Aelin
/1-6-X4/
Dear Rowan,
Terrasen makes me cry sometimes. The rutting smell of pine and snow. Pine and snow. Pine and snow. Pine and-
Dear Rowan,
I'm sorry.
-Aelin
/3-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
I get lonely. Even when Chaol and Nesryn visit from their estate out in the South, even when Lysandra brings Rowan with her to our tea time, even when I play with Fleetfoot.
It's not the same without your mate.
-Aelin
/4-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
You said it took two centuries. But you had me. I have no one.
-Aelin
/5-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
I visited Sam's grave and I put an extra stone for you. Just like always.
-Aelin
/6-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
Emrys said Fae can have more than one mate. For me, there's only you.
"I claim you to whatever end."
-Aelin
/7-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
It's the anniversary of the revolution. They're telling your legends and stories. Of your adventures and of your cadre. Of your love to Lyria and your love to me. It's helping a little bit.
-Aelin
/8-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
It's here.
-Aelin
/9-6-X5/
Dear Rowan,
Did I tell you of how you saved me? I couldn't admit it back then, when we first met. You made me focus my anger on you. My frustrations on you. My hate on you. I should've savored every moment with you starting from then.
Gods, I miss you.
-Aelin
/10-6-X5/
Dear Mate, Dear Carranam, Dear Rowan Whitethorn,
I will love you until my last breath in this immortal body. I will love you as I love my country, as I love this world and as I love our friends and court.
I will love you as you deserve to be loved.
And I will grieve for as long as I want, because you are worth that grief.
I love you, Rowan Whitethorn.
See you in Hell.
-Aelin
/11-6-X5/